Confessions Of A Chocafeinoholic

2011-01-18T03:05:00.000+08:00

11 months ago...

Feb 18th 2009

Me :- Shaka, when is your son coming out? I've got like two more days before heading back to uni. Can you like please ask him to come out fasta?

Shaka :- My son cannot come out according to your convenience k... He'll come out when he wants.

Me :- Then you betta stop eating. He's getting real comfy inside that he doesnt wanna come out here. Tell him his godmum's waitinggggg to see him real bad!!!

Feb 19th 2009

Me :- Im gonna mix tea for appa and amma. You want not?

Shaka :- Aiyo your tea ah... I dont wanna fall sick...

But somehow she ended up drinking the tea i mixed for the first time :P...

Feb 20th 2009

(Around 10am)

Shaka :- Chitti, i think my water just broke.

And then, instead of the chaos i expected, it was a very smooth thingy. And within the next 30 minutes, she was all set in the car and off to the hospital, with everyone following expect one soul. Guess who??? None otha than MUA of course, left at home to guard the house and answer the calls, in case anyone calls... *sigh*

(Around 3pm)

Mummy :- Sham, baby born already!!! We all saw him di.

Me :- Then me?????????

Mummy:- You wait at home. I'll come and pick you up in a while.

(Around 6pm) - in the hospital

Standing in front my cutie, looking through the mirror, seeing that lil one sound asleep was indeed a sight to behold. This was the bundle of joy that we had all been waiting for, the countless hours spend, discussing his name, n what to teach him, who's pet was he gonna be etc etc etc... And now, he was rite there, in front of me. One of the happiest moments in life, it was... Not to mention a really sweet one too... After like about 20 minutes standing in front the mirror, admiring my godson, curled up under the blankie, sound asleep, it was time to visit the mummy...

Me :- He's suchhh a cutie... And see, he loves me lotsss.. he wanted to make sure i get to see him just before i go back tomorrow..

Shaka :- Nothing like that all. It was all because of your tea. He was enjoying all the good food i kept giving him until i drank your tea. He couldnt take it anymore and decided to come out and see who made the tea.

Me :- Yeah rite. He wanted to drink more of it, thats y he decided to come out ok...

And the squibbling continued....

But the most important thing was, lil Siddarth was finally here. Today, in just another one month, he would be celebrating his first birthday. And the moment where i saw him for the first time is still so fresh, mua's lil cutie, 11 months ago, all so tiny and fragile.

Sid, the love of my life that i can never ever stop mollycoddling over...

*mua's lil sweetie*

2010-06-03T18:23:00.003+08:00

* Cooking Saga *

Who ever thought cooking could be this fun?

Like, SERIOUSLY!!!

It's like going on an adventure, the only difference is the adventure's in ya kitchen, right at home..

So no muddy outdoors or irritating bugs, but the pleasure derived, is totally the same, yeah ECSTATIC!!!

2 weeks of cooking lunch, with the occasional baking of cakes and trying out breakfast during weekdays, and now, i loveee cooking..

ok that was kinda far fetched.. i wouldn’t say I loveee the cleaning and washing up and especially cutting onions and having fingers that smell like onions after that, but still, it was fun n I likey likey it.. yeah like, not love :P

From sardine and egg sambals taught by mum to a lil more temararious ventures like sukhe aloo and kadai chicken (which i've never heard in life until the day i stumbled on it online), what can I say, it was pretty exciting after all…

The best part of this whole adventure was having Arrwin come back from school, and asking me," Mika, what's new today?". Somehow, that kinda led to me trying to cook up new, unheard stuff.. lol not to mention, that way, he cant compare my cooking to mum’s.. *pets myself*

However, the expression that follows that question ain’t that pleasing after all. Its like sitting for an exam and then waiting for its results.

Arrwin's expression :-

"Wow, Mika!!! Really very nice".. now that's an A...

"Ah not bad, nice also" is equivalent to a B...

and the much dreaded," Aiyo,what is this?? Nevermind i'll go with Mikepa to the shop" is a big big F...

*giggles*

Oh and the "Mika, its really nice. Do it again" or "Give amma the recipe" is an A++++...

*blushes*

As for Arun and Saranyah, me putting milo in a cup and adding water is considered a fantastic dish already... But why doubt good luck when it's coming rite atcha rite? lol...

so yeah, gotta thank them too for bearing with me and forever giving that “that’s the tastiest dish I’ve ever tasted” expression.. my two loyal cousins aka my experiment hamsters....hehehehehe....

Well gotta admit, i miss my cooking adventure now. Despite the horror of having to touch raw chicken meat for the first time in life, the whole waking up at 11am and googling for recipes and then starting to cut all those vegetables while watching youtube at 12pm before finally starting to cook and finish it all by 2pm was really enjoyable... *reminisces*

Anyway, gotta say I'm looking forward to go back home and cook at least 3-4 new vegetarian dishes for the entire household this Sunday... *grins*

Let’s see how that turns out now :P

*yum yummy yum*

2010-03-16T16:46:00.001+08:00

-- MIRACLES??? Yeah Rite!!! --

It's stupid, absurd and sheer foolishness to hope on a miracle..

So why did she hope on it?

Coz she's a brainless git?

Yeah, guess so.

*shrugs*

Wow, you're accepting criticism? This is interesting!

Shut up. I aint in the mood for a gemini talk. So,go away...

OK OK, chill.. *goes off and sits in corner*

You would have thought that she would have at least heard of the phrase, "once bitten, twice shy". But no, mademoiselle here just can't help repeating her mistakes again n again, despite knowing its consequences and see what it has led to now.

*passes the tissue*

Well, its not like she didnt know it was coming but damm, guess she just didnt think that it would be this soon or the realization would have such an effect...

Oh yeah, it happens. Humans! You people can never stop dreaming and expecting for miracles when you pretty well know the closest miracle you guys are ever gonna experience are the ones you see on screen.

Thought i told ya to shut up rite?

Sorry couldn't help it.. :P Go on...

Guess nobody really understands her. Poor gal...

Well, you seem like you understand her, rite?

Guess, NOT!!! Else, i would have told her long ago, miracles just dont exist. NEVER EVER WILL EXIST for her... Poor kid's brawling and sobbing her eyes heart out. But guess, all i can say is, SHE DESERVES IT...

Can i just say " I TOLD HER SO"... *grins*

You, my evil twin, are one the most insensitive soul i've ever come across.

Well, beats being a sensitive wreck like ya babez... At least you don't see me sitting in corner of the room, crying over someone who most probably doesnt give a damm bout u... *giggles*

Thank you.. Guess i had that one coming...

Chill it. Just tell her to stop dreaming and embroiling in dreams, and that reality's always the safest place to be.

Will do so. Aitez, time for my coffee, chocolate and tissue.

Incorrigible!!!

*if only*

2010-03-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

InTroSpecTioN....

Oh, YOU'RE BACK!!!!

Hmmm... Keep that sarcasm away from me. Aint in the mood for that...

Hahahaha... so says the epitome of sarcasm... So what's brought you back dearie?

Life...

Gosh, don't u ever stop complaining bout life? Look around you. Life's meant to be cherished not frowned and complained bout.

Easy for you to say. All you do everyday is just sit and taunt me. Try stepping in my shoes sometime, lady...

Oh cut the drama.. Now tell me, what's wrong?

So you think i only come to you when some thing's not rite?

DUH!!! Isn't that obvious? So who is it this time?

Gosh babez, chill it.. What's with this never ending assumptions? I don't remember mentioning someone's involved here...

Hahahaha... 22 years of being your other half is long enough for me to know when there's something amiss. So spill the beans. What's wrong?

Nah, nothing much. Have you ever had this nagging feeling where you know you want something so badly but yet, you're aware you're not good enough for that thing/person? Nevertheless, there's this part in you that keeps wishing some miracle might just happen and that thing/person will be yours?

Loooooool... first let's get it straight. Who do u want? Yes, its WHO and not WHAT.. coz i'm pretty sure you're referring to a person.

That was a general question. Answer if you want, else skip it...

OK OK... Well, no i havent. Me being the rational head of the Gemini twins always, always steer away from dilemmas like this...

Haha..Lucky you...

So, who did what to the princess?

Hmm, well what can i say? It's been a day of non stop introspection. Guess it all began when SOMEONE told me i'm an insecured, weak, loser who lacks confidence while another told me that im too immatured and emotional.

looooooooooooooooooool... And you're upset bout that?

Well, yeah kinda. But to know that that's what people i like and really care for think of me, it just sucks. Don't ya think so?

Wait. Why do u wanna worry bout what people think of you?

Coz i just cant help it...

Hmm.. So do you agree with them?

Honestly, i think they're right.

Damm you, gal. When are you gonna stop losing sleep over peripheral issues like this? All that matters is for u to trust and most importanly love yourself. Other than that, care a damm bout what the world thinks of ya.

Easier said than done, babez...

Fine, go and sit in corner and sulk and cry your hearts out than when you're done, think bout what i said ok...

*sigh* It's just that, every time, i end up doing so many things for so many people but in return, i get nothing. or even if i do get, it's only an iota compared to what i've given them...

Shouldn't you give without expecting any return?

Well, yeah. But at the same time, i aint a robot to just keep giving. As much as i hate expectations, but somehow, that silly mind of mind cant stop expecting.

So, dont give then. Simple as that.

Well, i have a problem. I cant say NO...

Someone call the 911. Im gonna faint, BIG TIME!!!

Who's being dramatic now eh?

Well, forgive me but hello, now i see why ppl think you're such a loser. Listen. It's not wrong to shower love and care but do not just go one flooding them with it. Stop, retreat and look at the situation occasionally... Sometimes, its best to retreat. People would learn to appreciate when they don't get something that easily.

Guess so. Well, i'll try that. I don't know how well i'll be at it but certainly, i'll try retreating... After all, it's sickening when someone tells u that that person likes you but also knows that you like that person way more than how much that person likes you.

WHAT???

Ahh nevermind. Was just thinking out loud....

So are we done now? Coz this gemini has some serious work to do now...

Yeah, guess so. Thanks for listening babez. You're the best..

Yeah yeah....

*the duo duels*

2010-01-13T14:35:00.005+08:00

Bye Bye CouCh, HeLLo BeD...

4 more days of couch time and then it's time to bid my darling, comfy brown couch, a heartfelt goodbye...

Oh yeah, hols are coming to an end, which means its an end to waking up late, gluing myself to the couch with my lappy till parents come back, n then running to shower just before gluing myself once again to the couch in front of the tv with my phone..

*sigh*

Such good, lazy times....

But its all coming to an end.. One month has passed so so quickly..

*spanks*

Stop being such a drama queen, one month takes 31 days to pass, so it aint quick..

But...but.... ahhh...

No more late nite tv...*hugs my tv tite tite* I'll miss ya baby..

No more lazing on the couch with my pj's...

N no more long long hours online..

WHAT??? Am i hearing it rite??? No more long time online?? YOU???

Hmm.. yeah yeah.. ME!!!

Now' that's a suprise!!! You're an addict, babez.. You cant function rite without the constant blipping sound of your IM...

*giggles*.. Stop being mean ya.. shoooo... Can't help it na.. I have one helluva semester coming up.. So guess, my virtual world has to take a back seat for the time being..

Looooool.. THis is gonna be so fun.. Can't wait to watch.... My bet is u cant last longer than a week...

Such low confidence on me eh..

*moves away from the mirror*

Anyway, thats it.. One month of fun time has come to an end.. But it wasnt fun all along.. Lots and lots of downs too... A true wheel... :P

*Sits back n buckles up for the trip down memory lane*

Lots of movies and gossiping with Myshini and lots of bizzare discovery along the way... *pets the Sherlock Holmes brains*

Non stop fiting with Arrwin...

Occasional scoldings from dad for being a lazy bum and not studying...

Shopping, shopping, shopping with mum...

More than enough of IRC...

Which brought along fresh personas, new misunderstandings and novel breakthroughs...

Christmas party and new year outing...

My results... Yippieeeee!!!

And basically the rest of the days were with darling couchy... :P

*unbuckles n returns back to reality*

Well, guess that is the end of my one month..... Then its back to those

Tormenting Tombs,

Lengthy Lectures,

Boring Books,

Torturous Tutorials and

Exhausting Exams...

Most of all, long long nites, online and studying simultaneously, on my bed....

Till then, its aloha once again to my couch for the remaining 4 days of pure heaven... chiowzzz...

*chilling on couchy*

2010-01-05T14:21:00.001+08:00

EuReKa!!!

What's cooking till i'm screaming EuReKa??

I just fulfilled one of my new year resolutions and that is to find out what my name stands for.. YAY ME!!!

Well, finally, and i mean after 22 years 6 months n 5 days, i've discovered the true meaning of my name..

Ok maybe not 100% true and accurate, but to a certain extent, it does give a clue to what SHAMINI means..

At least now, when someons asks me what my name stand for, i wouldnt give them the "ermm, sowie i dunno" look..

*giggles*

So here it is, courtesy of the INTERNET, shamini means....

TADA!!!!

Also, there are so different ways to write my name..

*grins*

Really different, weird ways :PPP

Here goes :-

BRAILLE

MORSE

MARINE

SIGN

BARCODE

*pets myself*

Well., that is one resolution down yet lots n lots more to go...
*vanishes*

*name-0-mania*

2009-12-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

Grotesque Week!!!

Re-Test!!!

Reconciling with long lost cousin!!!

Henna spree!!!

Hair Cut!!!

Not talking for more than a week!!!

Bizarre dream!!!

How freaky can my week get…..

Well, lets see…It all started off with my sudden holiday, oh yeah, HOLIDAY!!!! 5 days in Penang.. oh la la...

But that means, 5 days of NO LATE NITE INTERNET!!! Hmmm… But then, it was worth it…

So yeah, 5 days n day 1 :- It was shopping shopping shopping with mum for cousin’s wedding… Who knew shopping for one saree could take that long.. Note to myself :- NEVER EVER follow mum to buy saree again…. All that’s needed is a 6m decorated cloth and the fuss one creates over it.. *sigh*

Anyway, after that mum started her whole :- y do u look so messy? The hair’s so unhealthy! Cut it and keep it healthy.. etc etc etc… But but, I love my long hair though.. sob sob…

Nevertheless, Wednesday was fun.. It was movie, gossiping n shopping with myshini before getting the BOMB!!! Oh yea, there was to be a retest scheduled for next Wednesday.. IT for Mgmt retest…

Apparently, some people cheated on it or what so eva… And who’s the victim??? MUA!!!! Total crap! I mean studying n dying over that freaking paper one time was bad enough, but to do it again??? Hell NO!!! And to add to it, I never took my books back home.. looool.. so, there goes my studying…

And the highlight of the day, I fought with mum… lol.. yaah, mum still thinks im her baby.. well, I don’t mind being pampered but hey, I do think im right sometimes, if not every time.. hehehe… So, whats the biggie.. But, somehow, I ended up giving in.. sigh yet again.. poor poor me….

I made history on Thursday!!! Oh yeah, I did… Now stop looking so surprised n close that jaw of yours, u ppl… coz I aint kidding.. I did make history.. After 5 years of waist long hair, I CUT it… Yeahhhhhhh I did… *tears* My poor poor long hair’s like 15cm shorter now…

And the reaction :-

Arrwin :- Long hair suits u Mika…

Mum :- You should have cut it shorter..

Dad :- No comments :p

Well, too bad.. I can’t please everyone, rite...

Anyway, its sayonara long hair.. some day we’ll meet again….

Friday was weird.. like really weird.. I remember waking up like in a HUH WHAT WAS THAT mood…. Such was the dream… Details kinda fuzzy now but it was something like I was in a mid of an exam, a one hour paper for Malaysian Lingo (I aint even taking that subject this sem) and somehow, I was talking to the examiner while other people were bz answering it.. All I can remember was like there was 10 minutes more and I still had an essay to write and I went all crazy, like DAMM… I was gonna flunk the paper coz Im never gonna finish an essay in 10 minutes aite.. it was such a frenzy and I started freaking out and stuff.. Anyway, woke up and was super duper glad that it was a dream…

Lol.. but somehow I guess I was the dream-monster’s favourite victim of the day.. Coz like 2 hours later, I dozed off on the couch and I had yet another dream bout exams.. this time it was English paper (yet another paper I aint taking this sem), and in the midst of the exam, I dozed off, waking up when there’s only 10 minutes more to go and I haven even started answering a thing. Surprisingly, Arrwin’s beside me and he had finished the paper so I grabbed his paper and started COPYING!!! Sighhhhhh… what crap… Woke up again, with that HUH look..

Nite, mum took me to aunty’s house to draw mehndi…First time in life, I drew for 8 hands non stop, for almost 4 hours.. My poor poor thumb… Was fun though… but still, ouchieeee.. painful!!!

Saturday was kinda bz though.. mum had this whole list of things to be done for cousin’s nalanggu and as usual, Mua was the victim of the day, going here and there to get things done… After the function at nite, again, it was mehndi time, this time it was for mum, arrwin and me… lol.. yeah, arrwin n his signature on his forearm.. weird but cant help it.. KIDDO!!! Looooooool….

Sunday was THE DAY!!! Morning was cousin’s wedding and nite was the reception… Was kinda tiring not to mention sleepy the entire day.. And to make matters worse, I had to sit in the same table with a cousin I fought 3 years back.. The same cousin I can’t even stand to look at.. so imagine that.. But somehow, as the nite went on, he said he’s sorry and etc and me being me, kinda forgave, yeah KINDA FORGAVE him… so yeah, was pretty bizarre after all…

But the weird thing this entire week was, NOT TALKING TO MY HERO!!! Oh yeah, I miss my hero… it’s like 10 days since I spoke to the HERO and I missssss him!!! Sob sob… Well, guess this is like a preview of how the future’s gonna be, when the hero finally goes away to save some other part of the world, but guess what, IT SUCKS!!! It sucks big time ya!!!

Now its back to my last week of this short sem..

Bye bye short sem, hello exams and holidays…

Phew.. that felt weird.. after so many posts of random stories and pseudonym filled tales, to finally write bout something I did from my vantage point feels awkward.. loooooool…

*grins* *giggles* *chiowz*

*Freaky Holidays*

2009-11-16T18:26:00.001+08:00

Unforgettable Phrases of the Week….

"What else can you do other than that...So 1 2 3 BLABBER"

Reply :- Loooooooooool.... *refuses to blabber anymore*

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"U know what, once is ok...More than that, its boring"

Reply :- *shrugs* wont tell that to ya next time....

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"What are you gonna do when i leave???"

Reply :- Hmm… Will think bout that with a box of tissue and a bar of chocolate when time comes…

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"I have an emotional problem and it feels nice to talk to you"

Reply :- Huggies.... Do come to me when u need to talk k...

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"Why are we always critizing and commenting about things.. We’re so mean la…"

Reply :- Coz we're two girls stuck in a cranky world that doesnt seem to go our way....

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"Promise me you wont answer his calls anymore"

Reply :- Ok i promise *fingers crossed behind*

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“Dei, what am I to think of ??? Suddenly, after so many years, she msges me and then my aunty dies”

Reply :- *rolfmao* That’s it, im officially dying out of laughter..

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“My heart is beating so fast…I threw up the moment you said you’re giving up on me”

Reply :- *sigh* Why do people think I’m so gullible???

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“Damm, we eat so much la”….“Yeah we eat like a pig but you know what, pigs eat lesser than us”

Reply :- This is what happens when you go out for late nite yamcha’s back to back….

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Note to myself :- “It’s dream, dream and nothing but a dream”

Reply :- But why does it feel so real then???

*etched on mind*

2009-11-15T17:56:00.002+08:00

*The Unexpected *

Thursdays are always the “so-so” days.. it’s not the weekend but it’s gonna be the weekend so people tend to doodle and laze around, hoping it will past real soon, right?? Well, at least that’s how she feels…Lol.. Poor Thursdays.. But THIS Thursday, this one specific Thursday that is 22^nd of August, is one Thursday, she’ll never forget…. A Thursday that brought yet another vicissitude in her life… The day she met her HERO…

Well, it was all like a dream.. It still is…. She remembered kissing facebook for that.. *giggles* Anyway, so this Hero… Well, she wont say he was her knight in shining armor. But he was more like a masked Zorro that danced his way into her heart…. *winks*

Anyway, what started with a simple “Hello” went on to a conversation that lasted for almost 7 hours plus… Such was the effect he had on her… Well, seeing that he was a Hero, oh yeah he was, kinda well known one too, she never thought he would even talk to her.. OK I mean the basic, “hi.. how are ya… thanks for being my fan” was sufficient enough but this, this was something so surreal…

She never knew a tv star could be so down to earth, let alone have such an aura of amicability…That alone blew her away and he being a total Hottie just added to it.. *blushes* ..That said, talking to him was so easy… It’s like despite knowing this person from the screen and chatting with him for the first time, she felt so at ease.. The one thing that struck her the most was he’s modesty and desire to learn and improve himself even more…. And best of all, he appreciated, and I mean really really appreciated her comments which made her admire him even more..

So that was the start of a relationship she never knew would come her way.. After all, she’s such a “professional” when it comes to relationships.. *giggles*… Well, I remember her being in a total euphoric mood the entire day.. She didn’t even sleep properly and the first thing she did was like msg her best friend and gave a total 411 about him… It was like going on non-stop bout him.. “He’s so hot… He’s so friendly.. Ahhhh He’s just so so so…” Yeah, you get the point….

As days passed, they did talk occasionally and somehow I dunno, things began getting a lil more warmer and fuzzier.. They started talking more often.. The Hero and her I mean… Somehow, somewhere, something just CLICKED!!!

It was more of friendship that took place, at least that what she thinks… They started talking and sharing their views, thoughts, experiences and even feelings.. I know!! It’s stupidity to trust someone so blindly, let alone a tv star who's first rule bout stardom is to be nice to people but that’s the thing.. He made her feel so comfortable and somehow, despite her initial reservations bout trusting somehow, she found herself trusting and liking him even more than a fan should..*spanks spanks*

Minutes of chat became hours, and the best part was, she didn’t even feel the time passing.. He took over her nights and made it soooo exciting.. *blushes*.. Well, come back to earth.. It wasn’t anything of that sort.. It was just plain chatting and talking yet it felt so good…

So much so, she started telling him things she never told anyone… By this time, she should have known, she was getting into something she could never save herself from…*poor gal*….Nevertheless, did she stop? Nah.. it was too good to stop…

It wasn’t all laugh and fun though.. They argued and fought and even cried (she did). So much so, there were days where they fought incessantly, like back to back.. But the nice part was, despite all that, they would still come back to one another.. *touchwood*…

So much of changes, most of them unexpected but still, it all feels so good and yet, still feels like a dream…. *pinches* ouch.. ok not a dream….. but hey, it does feel like she’s in utopia…

So, what created all this whole change??? This whole new thoughts, feelings and emotions??? Well, undoubtedly, it was him, her hot hot hero… But the question is, what about him that made her love him this much???

Hmm… where does she even began… The characteristics?? Personality??? Sense of humor??? Caring?? Ahhh, the list just goes on and on….

Let’s start with the description.. He’s HOT!! And I mean freakin hot… An unprecedented look for a tv star but nevertheless, still hot hot hot… Terrific dressing sense that’s sure to make any girl go weak in her knees, so she’s not an exception now, is she… :P

But that alone is good enough for a primacy effect… It’s the attitude that completes the package…His charm, the way he cares, the way he makes he so mad and then the next minute, he makes her smile and giggle…Best of all, he puts up with her attitude, her puerile, random crap, and though some of it's maybe coz he's too polite to tell her to shut up, but to a certain extent, it does show he's sweet....What can she say??? It’s so rare to find someone like this and I guess, she’s just plain lucky, extremely lucky that is….

To talk bout all he has done, one day wouldn’t be sufficient but I guess, she should stop.. Coz at the end of the day, it’s a dream.. A dream that though she doesn’t want but she knows will always remain as a dream... Even so, that’s just not gonna stop her from dreaming now, is it? *winks*

So till then, let the poor gal dwell in her dream world with the hero of her dreams ok… chiowz….

*DooDLinG In DreaMLanD*

2009-11-08T22:32:00.002+08:00

Bye Bye Baby....

No words can describe how i feel towards ya and i think you know that as well.. It's been almost 5 years since we've been together and no one can deny how much u have been there for me...

People say that a true friend is one that remains by your side when you're down and you've always been there for me whenever i needed u... It breaks my heart to let you go but we both know why i had to do this..

I admit, i'm a traitor.. I choose that baby over you but i have no choice, darling... I love both of you but i guess i love that baby just, just just an iota more than you and owing to that reason n that reason alone, you're now lying in the black garbage can outside...

Trust me, hun.. If there was any other way that i could have avoided this, i would have done that.. You know how much i love you na... But, i guess this is the end of the road for us... I miss you already and i don't know how i'm gonna live without u...But, nothing can be done now.. You're gone and i can just hope i'll be able to live without you...

Nevertheless, i still love you and will always love you... I can't thank you enough for what you've done for me especially during that couple of years but....*sigh*.. i'm so so sorry baby... If only...

Muaks Muaks Muaks My Darling Caffeine......

Love,

I, Me and Myself.....

2009-11-07T04:02:00.006+08:00

--- DreAmIng in ReaLiTy ---

It feels so good... So complete and best of all, so real.... But, and this is a big but, its NOT!!! It's dream, a dream that would come to an end anytime soon..

Then why does it feel so real???

Coz it's a freaking good dream ya....

Hence, she fell in love.... in love with a dream.. a dream that was never hers in the first place and yet, it made her feel on top of the world...

Obsessed? Addicted?

I dunno.... Ask her, ya'll.... But, i dont think she's in the right mind to tell you though.. She's too wrapped up in her dream bubble...

*earth earth to ya gal* wakey wakey...

A dream that came out of no where, swept her off her feet, made her feel so so happy, so loved and just so so.... *smiles* u get the point.... But still, a dream....

Well, let her savor it then... At least, till it lasts...

Nah, that's not rite.. It's gonna burst any time and then, the only thing we'll have is she bursting into tears.. And you know how good she is in doing that....

Oh yeahhhhhhh....... Well, can't help it.. She's too addicted.. She refuses to wake up and realize its a DREAM!!!! What am i to do?

Well, smack her on the head... spank her.. slap her.. do something!!!! I don't want her to repeat history again!!!! You know how bad it was last time now, dont you...

But but what can i do.. that damm gal's addicted to the core..

*sigh*

Well, all i can hope is, this time at least,she should know its a dream and only savor n enjoy it till it lasts.. When its time to let go, she should, i mean she really really should LET GO..

You think that's gonna happen??? *wonders*

NAHHH!!! Knowing her, its best we get lots n lots of tissue coz she's gonna need it, and i mean really need it....

*LiVinG In DreamLaNd*

2009-11-03T20:20:00.005+08:00

*VoiCeS*

"It's never wise to be possessive... You know the consequences later"

"What's bothering you? Tell me before it's too late"

"Why are you comparing yourself with others"

"Please have a checklist and be more mindful"

"Speak slower"

"Do something more effective than sitting in front your pc"

"Don't repeat your mistakes"

"Mika, please forget and move on.. i don't wanna hear anymore"

"You should control your temper"

"Stop thinking too much"

"STUDY!!!"

"Don't advice me anymore"

"Talk to me. I like disturbing you"

"Just don't answer his calls"

and the best of all,

"You be who you are and let me be who i am.. Possessiveness kills"

So many voices, so many orders.. How can a poor soul with a dented brain perceive all this, let alone follow them??? *sigh*

*space out*

2009-10-29T20:01:00.007+08:00

Hey baby,

How's the new fishes coming along? Well, guess they're doing good since you seem to be really happy these days... *winks* Anyway, shown the real facet yet? I don't think so coz you're still happy baby.... I'm rite na...*giggles*

Anyway, you seem to have forgotten me.. It's been weeks or even months i guess since we spoke...I missed ya, hun... Do update me sometimes ok..

So, hows the new found happiness going on? Someone seems to be smiling all the time...Good for u baby.. So is this finally the hello to happiness and goodbye to tears? Please dont tell me you're gonna come and bore me with more heart breaking stories... i kinda ran out of tissues ya know... :P

OK OK stop giving me that look.. i should stop else u might just vanish n never come back to me again... But hun, listen... this happiness you're having now, sorry to say this but it's not gonna last baby... i know it hurts but its best you hear it from me than another person.... This whole thing is like a dream bubble..Its just waiting to burst anytime... Though for your sake, i wish, really really wish it doesnt....

Just remember this... enjoy every second of it but when it finally comes to an end, be ready to let go.. dont hold on coz it's never gonna do you any good, baby... and come back to me, coz u know ill be there for u... Love ya babez....

Love,

Your Darling Blog....

2009-09-01T05:44:00.004+08:00

-- JinXeD --

I'm JINXED by the sLeeP FairY...

Oh yeah, i so so am!!!

I can't sleep..

Well, ok... Maybe not that i cannot sleep but i CANT sleep at NIGHT!!!

Nocturnal??? Yeah...

Insomniac??? Check that too...

But, lying on the bed, staring at the wall and yet not being able to sleep??? WEIRD!!!

And before assumptions start flying,

NO IM NOT IN LOVE!!!

and

NO IM NOT UNDER CAFFEINE INFLUENCE TOO!!!

So, what's the freaking bloody reason???

I DUNNO!!!!

And damm, if it isnt driving me nuts..

Well, at least if mademoiselle is studying, then its accepted..

But what do i do???

MOVIES....oh yeah, LATE NITE YOU TUBE MOVIES...

WHY am i doing this???

I DUNNO!!!

Gosh Sham, GROW UP!!! or at least, SLEEP!!!

*zzzzzzzzz time*

2009-08-28T22:05:00.003+08:00

*The SCARLET Letter*

Dear SmartyPants,

The roller coaster ride has been great despite the ups and downs to it... It's a memory i guess i'll cherish forever.. But like all good things, this too has come to an end.. Blame to roller coaster or its operator, NOT ME!!!

Anyway, 3 years has passed so fast rite.. Like you said, "you didnt feel it passing by", but i sure did.. Maybe its due to the fact that i'm terrified of roller coasters... Anyway, all i wanna say is, thank you for finally showing me a direction to head to unlike the "hanging" in the mid air feeling you've been giving for the past 3 years....

What i learned?? Well, for starters, never trust a non-decisive fella like you.. Also, never put my life into the hands of a JERK!!! *chuckles*.. Nah, actually, its a lesson that once someone says DUNNO or NOT SURE, that means, RUNNN and i mean RUNN towards the opposite direction... Like a great guy once told me, always DECIDE else you'll end up being the stupid one.. Guess, it took me 3 years to learn that.. But hey, better late than never rite..

Nevertheless, the time with ya has been great.. Not always though, and i think you know that as well.. Though i wished we had "the talk" way earlier, than i wouldnt have wasted more than 1000 days but no probs... I wish you nothing but the best in life and hopefully, when you come upon another junction in your life, you'll know which road to take, and you'll be SURE about it...

Before i sign off, let me just say, thank you for everything... The chappathis and movies were definitely something memorable and worth telling my grandkids.. hahahaha.... But yeah, u're unforgettable, yes yes u r SmartyPants.. Though its sad to lose you, i guess, this ending is actually a beginning for both of us... All the best darlin...

Yours lovingly,

The So Called MORON

2009-08-22T02:20:00.004+08:00

*History Repeats*

Once upon a time, in a faraway land, there lived a gal...

*sigh* Are you gonna start ranting and crapping again???

Hellllooo!! This is my blog after all.. i get to say whatever i want, ya know...

Fine fine... go ahead... So, whats so different bout this gal that she gets a post in your blog???

Well, this gal, lets just call her GirL, had a weakness.. she wore her heart on her sleeves..

WHAT??? You mean she's some kinda Frankenstein wannabe??? Eeeuuu that's gross...

Nooo.. Just hear me out, will ya...

Then, just get to the point instead of rambling...

So, like i said, she wears her heart on her sleeves.. Imagine how fragile that made her.. But did she learn??

Let me guess, NO??

Exactly... So, one fine day, there she was, strolling as usual when she met this man..

*whistles* another boy meets gal story???

haha.. NO!!! This man was way way older than her.. But he was such a sweetheart...

Gross, girl... Never liked old man-young gal romance.. I'm outta here...

Damm, wait.. I'm not done yet.. Who told ya its bout romance???

*sigh*... this betta be good, else im sooo gonna knock ya head...

Then, shuddup and just listen... So, she met this guy, more like stumbled upon and the first meeting was great.. Despite him pointing out to her that she was such a PIA, suprisingly she felt comfy with him.. And before you get any weird ideas up that crooked mind of urs, no, its not romance... the guy's married ya...

OH MY GOSH!!! She's gonna break up a family and u wanna write bout her??? Are you out of your mind???

Damm, just shuddup!!! Well, the thing was, she felt so comfy with this guy and it felt so much easier to share her thoughts, despite the fact that he was a total stranger....

Send her to me and ill teach her how dangerous is it to talk to strangers, let alone share details...

Gosh, u're getting on my nerves.... Just listen... So, here she was, getting to know this guy when all of a sudden, he left her...

Left?? whatcha mean???

I mean, he left her.. he STOPPED talking to her.. and she didint know why...

Might have been, he got sick of her... You said she was a PIA...

Well, yeah maybe... but im curious... i mean, all she did was leave for a few days and when she came back, he just stopped talking to her.. does that make any sense to u??

Your whole story doesnt make sense.. let alone this question...

hmm.. anyway, the thing is, she came to me and asked for advice, so here i am, asking you what to tell..

Just ask her, to forget this whole thing and go on with life..

Told her that.. But she says, she wants to know what's her mistake.. According to her, she didnt do anything to cause this whole communication meltdown..

Some things are best left unexplained... Just ask her to treasure the memory and go on..

Easier said than done, babez... she's a total wreck now.. she can't stop bawling her eyes out..

Crying? For some random guy she met???

Unfortunately, she really likes him...

aaha.... that explains...

no, not in a romantic manner.. but as a friend... well, i guess all good things come to an end rite.. poor gal.. i'll pass her the msg.. thanks babez..

yeah rite... u just wasted 15 minutes talking to the mirror... go n do something worthwhile, sham.. goooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*and it ends*

2009-07-23T14:56:00.004+08:00

--- INFIDELITY ---

Hey darling, I've got something to tell ya...I've been doing something real bad behind your back.. I..I.. Hmm.. I had another fling..PROMISE!! It was nothing intentional.. It just Happened... You see, for the past few months, you've been really temperemental.. And its been testing my patience..But with him, its different...He may not be as attractive as you and i dont think im in love with him, YET.. But its just that he's such a breath of fresh air..

But, But im not leaving you baby...And with him, its not a one night stand either.. So ill just keep both of you k, for the TIME BEING... please baby, i hope you'll understand.. After all, he has the same name like you... *smiles*

You've been with me all this years..I'm sure you'll understand... This is not permanent, baby..I promise i'll be back, all for you k..Muaks i know you'll understand...

Oh btw, you can find him at :- http://chocafeinoholic.spaces.live.com/

muaks n huggies for now darling.. love ya my dear blog :)

*Goodbye for now, baby*

2009-07-15T13:56:00.007+08:00

Mysterious Figure!!!

There was this piece of news/advert in The Star yesterday bout a mysterious figure found in KL... According to the witnesses, it was bout 12 feet tall and had many heads....

*That's the pic in the papers...*

*EUREKA!!!*

i think i have just discovered the real identity of that "mysterious figure" i think it is FLAME carrying two girls on his hips.. Well, it's a known fact that he is a Casanova to the core.. So, maybe he got sick of keeping all his conquest a secret and decided to shed light on it.. Thus, he strutted around the roads of KL, carrying his two girlfriends on his hips.. Makes sense rite... since the figure had two legs and many heads... FLAME's two legs and the girls' + his head = 3 heads... I guess it will look something like this...

*Chocafeinoholic's doodles*

Hehe.. that's the best art that i could do... but i guess it gives some kinda impression rite... So there you go.. Mystery's solved!!! The next time anyone sees this "figure", just ask them to go do it in private and stop strutting around like it's some kinda free show or something.. Helps save all the unnecessary energy and publicity... *giggles*

*Random Scribblings*

2009-07-04T03:20:00.007+08:00

-- When LigHt TaKeS OveR DarkNeSS --

Dedicated to :- Madam, Darlin, Eve, YY & The Others.... :)

Adversity is Men's Best friend!!! Weird??? Well at a first glance, it does look pretty weird in fact looks like i'm totally out of my mind to say something like that but when experiences sets in, that's when the truth hits home as well and only then will one realize that Adversity is truly men's best friend. Simply because more often than not, it ends up creating a vicissitude...

The only questions is :- Is it for the good or the bad???

Well, 2 years back, i remember sitting on the floor, in my room, where darkness was my only companion, bawling my hearts out... To be truthful, it was neither once nor twice but actually countless times where i had such meltdowns..

And the REASON??? - *smiles*

Now, its more than 2 years and yes, i wouldn't deny that i still have such meltdowns. (old habits die hard) but this time, there's one different thing... I have learned to see the world, my world that is from a different vantage point.

Gone were the days where the incessant self regret clouded and clogged my cerebellum... These days, despite the occasional visits by Mr. Self Regret himself, i've learn that life is too short to dwell in the past...

Who ever said that vicissitudes were bad.. Well, coz for me,despite the freaking fact that my turbulence had blew me off course and caused me to land in a desert of no man nor help, i cant help but agree that that the turbulence had created a vicissitude with suprisingly positive implications...

Not only have i been blessed with certain accomplishments, but the one i'm most proud of is :- Knowing these few great people that i cant help but love and treasure.

People who have i got to know over the year and the same exact people who have played a significant role in making my life betta... People or should i say, FRIENDS that not only sit with me through boring classes and sonorous tutorials, but also friends who eat, laugh, work and joke together.. Most importantly, a set of friends who i'll treasure and a lifetime and who, if not for the freaking turbulence, i would have never come to know...

So there u go, thank u fLaMe... Thank you for the turbulence and a special thank you to my stupidity and the ever low self confidence coz if not for these adversities, i would have never met such terrific people...

So tell me people, isnt adversity men's best friend? For only after an adversity, can one learn to cherish life on a better scale....

*Cherished Foreva*

2009-06-28T12:34:00.009+08:00

ReMinisCinG My FirSt ExPeRienCe Of SnoW....

I MISS THE SNOW!!!!

Well, i dunno if it's the heat in Malaysia or the lack of greenery around me, but i had this dream yesterday where i was actually playing in the snow... Sweet old memories...

Then i discovered i haven't posted any pictures or video bout snow.. Weird rite...

Anyway, i found the picture of my first experience of snow... both DAY n NITE on the same day...

Here goes....

That was the firsttttt time i ever saw snow... Lol.. I remember calling m family and showing them via webcam.. hehe.. And taking soooo many pictures to send to them especially to Arrwin...

*sigh*.. good old times...

It continued to snow for bout 3 days i think...

Seeing snow for the first time was such a fantastic experience.Something i wont forget till i die..

BUT, gotta admit, i was like such a JAKUN... hehehe.. well can't blame the gal k... I have always wanted to see snow since young so imagine one of my oldest dreams coming through.. hehe..

HOWEVER, though the view's nice, but the weather suck.. lol.. it's was soooo freaking cold that at times, i wished it would be SUNNY.. I even started walking under the sun, finding places where the sun shined brightly just to feel at least a lil warm... Such an opposite when I'm in Malaysia where i think majority of us will try to find shaded places to walk...

*giggles*

Anyway, that was the first video i took during the day n this one is during night time..

P/S :- I actually ran out to see n take this videos/pictures in my bedroom slippers n pyjamas.. So, it was evennnn colder... hehehe...

And the grand finale of my first day out in the snow is :- DA GIRL WITH HER FOOTPRINTS IN THE SNOW...

I just wanted to feel like u know Christopher Columbus who first discovered America n stepped on her land for the first time or even Neil Armstrong.. hehehehehehe....

Nah, it was just this weird desire that i had.. wanting to place my feet in snow.. There you go....

P/S :- It aint big foot's leg k.. it's MINE!!! n i cant help being a size 10... *grins*

Anyway, i really really miss the snow.. Walking in the snow with hot chocolate n whipping cream to classes would be one of the things i miss the most bout US...

*white white snow*

2009-06-18T12:46:00.005+08:00

Facebook aka My Astrologer

Who ever knew Facebook would be sooooo accurate in predicting my future, specifically my soul mate???

Gotta say, Facebook deserves a standing ovation for being this veracious!!!

It all started late one night when boredom struck and I decided to surf facebook only to stumble upon this quiz :-

Which celebrity should you marry???

There were about 5-6 questions and upon answering them, the result that i got was :-

*takes a deep breathe*

TADAAAA!!!

JOHNNY DEPP!!!! My JOHNNY DEPP is the PERFECT CELEBRITY for me??? Yippieeeee!!!!

*jumps in joy*

Hehehe..

So its fated now.. My soulmate's Johnny Depp!!!

hahaha..

Muaks Muaks Facebook for making my day!!!

*Floating On Cloud 9*

2009-06-13T00:00:00.049+08:00

--- TAGGED - PiCTuRe MaNia ---

I'm TaGGeD!!! Ahhhhh... Where's the exit door???? *giggles* Hehe... Anyway, this is kinda fun.. Viji ka tagged me..Gracias Ka... So, all i'm supposed to do is read and answer the following questions.. Sounds easy aite??? hehe.. But nah.. the catch here is to answer with images and hope that those images can actually convey my thoughts...

So here goes....

My Answers... :-

1. My age on my next birthday...

I just turned 22 and now 23??? Ahhhhh...

2. A place that i'd like to travel...

Milan + Venice + Rome + Florence = ITALY...

3. My favourite place...

My room specifically MY BED...

4. My favourite food/drink...

Chocolate and a triple shot Latte makes my day :P

5. My favourite pet...

My darling babies, Hyper n Snowy...

6. My favourite color combination...

The perfect combo :- THAT purple, white and black...

7.My favourite piece of clothing...

Army prints and denim.. .

8.My all time favourite song...

The ultimate beat of my heart... :P

9.My favourite TV show...

Yeah yeah i'm a reality tv addict.. .

10. Full name of my significant other...

John Christopher "Johnny" Depp II... *giggles*

11. The town in which i live...

None other than the great Georgetown...

12.My screen name/nickname

Apparently, Mimi was the name i told everyone who attended my 1st birthday and so it kinda just stucked..However, for my brother and the other younger ones, its MiKa.. .

13. My First Job...

Remembering those times where i thought tuition for my juniors... ahh.. fond memories :P

14. My Dream Job...

Always always an actuary...

15. The bad habit that i have...

Oh yeah, i have a short temper... Especially when it comes to my brother.. hehe.. Sorry Arrwin :P

16. My worst fear...

Loneliness!!!

17. The one thing that i'll like to do before i die...

Just for a day, people :P

18. The first thing that i'll buy when i get $1,000,000...

I'll book a tombstone n grave right next to Johnny Depp... Hehehe..

19. My Favourite Credo in Life...

Cool yet inspiring :)

20. The Best Of Me (I think :P)...

Well, its a toss between these two... Since my eyes are constantly hidden behind my glasses and my hair aint naturally that straight nor is it in that color, i just dont know... LOL...

Finallyyyyy.... I'm DONE!!!

And it took me more than 3 hours to get it done....

*phewww*

But now i get to tag others...

Here goes :- I TAG Ash, Prema ka, Andrew and Khirul...

*A picture speaks a thousand words*

2009-06-03T00:44:00.011+08:00

//-- The UgLy DuCkLinG --//

Once upon a time, in a faraway land, there lived a little girl who thought life was nothing but full of happiness. Never once did she imagined a sad life. Tears was a taboo and so was frowns. She was the perfect little girl, loved by her family to the core.

When it was time to go to school, the little girl was nothing less than happy. School was yet another place just like home. She had teachers who liked her, friends who wanted to be with her and best of all, studies was something she found easy and enjoyed. That said, her results were good if not the best.

Life was nothing short than perfect. From kindergarden to primary school she went. Again, this was just like her kindergarden. But something didn't seem right. Unlike in kindergarden, primary school was a little different. Each time she looked around, all the girls around her seemed so cute and tiny but she was just the opposite.

"It's all in the genes" said her mum... "You'll lose all the baby fat when you grow up" said her aunt... Little did she know that those were all lies, lies and nothing other than lies...

Apart from her physical attributes, life in primary school was fun. There was something to learn everyday, new friends to make and games to play with. As days passed, it was time for her first major examination. And that's when she learnt the meaning of expectations and stress. Being among the top always was like a drug. She didnt wanna let her parents down and neither did she wanna let that bubble of happiness that she had from her results burst. So she worked hard, and i mean really really hard.

Just like the saying, hard work never goes unnoticed, she passed the exam with straight A's and thus earned her entry to the school of her dreams. Now, this is where she faced reality. 6 years had passed and the baby-fat had become kid-fat n now it was teen-fat.

"Why am i so big and ugly compared to the rest? ", she asked her mum... This time, her mum had no ready answers...

Instead, she was told to exercise and cut down her food intake... Not being able to find clothes and her uncles n aunts pointing it out only seemed to make matters worst. But, no diet in the world nor exercise could make the ugly duckling pretty so she focused her energy on something that she could actually succeed - her studies...

It was back to the comfort zone that she knew - her studies... or like her brother and friends like to say= "Her NERD Life".. But that was peripheral.. It was something she was good at and unlike all those failed diets and exercise, she could actually excel in this.. So again, she started working hard... But this time, not as hard as last time...

There were other things in life and studies had to share the top spot in life with other activities... Major exams came and went and again, she scored straight A's in all of them.. And then came the turning point in life... She had to leave her nest..

Yes, it was time to say goodbye to the "home-school-tuition-home" routine and leave home for higher studies...

This is when the poor little girl had reality hit her right between her nose. She began to realise that though she was happy with her results and studies but there was this empty feeling in her.. Girls her age seemed to have fun. They went out with the opposite sex, had flowers n gifts showered upon them, their cell phones ringing non stop and phones buzzing with SMS's..

But the poor little girl could only watch all this.. Nobody noticed her... It was only during exams that people noticed her but other than that, she was alone.. Oh, dont get me wrong.. It's not like this girl had no friends.. SHE DID!!!

She had heaps of friends but that was what they were.. FRIENDS!!! Friends who talked and laughed with her but when it came to going out on dates, she was left behind...

But it didnt really bother her... She had her books to turn to.. THEY LOVED HER and SHE LOVED THEM!!!

So, once again, she went back to her books...

THE XY bearers did notice her occasionally.. Oh yeah the sure did.. But all with a hidden agenda.. All they wanted from her was that famous four letter word :- HELP!!!

It was either HELP with studies, HELP with life, HELP to listen to their problems, HELP to solve it.. HELP HELP HELP... nothing other than HELP... And once given, POOFFF!!! The disappeared...

Now, more than two decades have passed... She is still the same old UGLY DUCKLING!!! A lot larger and uglier than last time, but life's the same...

Everyone around her seems to move on to something betta in life.. Her best friend has found her other half... Almost all her friends have paved their own path in life.. She has a path too, but all she can see is her family, her books and a long journey of loneliness there... Is that what life holds for her???

She knows she has her books and her family to turn to.. But, what is there beyond that??? She doesnt need a XY partner, but why couldnt anyone see beyond this ponderous self??? Why do people who find it so easy to ask HELP from her find it so hard to not take her for granted???

Being gargantuan isnt a crime! Or, IS IT????

Her biggest fear :- LONELINESS seems to seep bit by bit into her daily life...

She is CLUELESS!!! She is DEJECTED!!! She is DEPRESSED!!!

Why does it always has to be like this??? Why cant anyone take the effort to look beyond that corpulent self of her??? Is it too much to ask for???

As she cried her eyes out, hoping and wishing for a solution, she realised, changing mankind's mindset to look beyond the outer layer was almose near to impossible but changing herself might work...

So she tried once again.. Going down the same path that she had tried again n again :- DIETS, EXERCISE and BEAUTY SALOONS.. But all in VAIN!!!

Maybe, she was destined to live a life alone... So, why waste time crying?? Just go n read a book.. So off went the little girl, wiping her never ending tears to bury her nose in yet another book....

After all, when the whole world seems to reject you for your outer looks, than the best way to excape would be to enter your comfort zone where you are certain failure will be given the BOOT!!!

But it it healthy??? *wonders*

*Hefty Roly-Poly*

2009-05-18T13:10:00.003+08:00

How WeiRd CouLD It GeT???

Im JINXED!!! Someone's put a AbraCaDabRa-WeiRdo-ZZZ SpeLL On Me!!! Else why on earth would i have weird dreams sooo frequently?

Two More additions for Weird Dream Diary :-

Three Days back :-

My mum and I were in some dress shop in US. It didnt even look like US..We were trying out summer dresses...I wanted one particular dress which had this funky looking motifs on it when a group of chinese gals with their mum walked in and took the dress from me.. My mum on the other hand's trying out some black dress that has a totally see-through thin material on the back.. The weird part :- I have never seen the shop in my life and neither have i seen that three chinese gals and their mother before... Why on earth am i dreaming of people and places that i have never seen before??? *wonders*

Yesterday :-

I'm in a bookshop and there's this huge crowd of people..I walk towards it only to find late actor,Sivaji Ganesan standing there and handing out his autographs..I can even see his autograph..His signing his full name and it is a lil bit cursive with a line below the sign.. (don't know is that's his real signature or not) but when it comes to my turn, instead of his full name, he only signs as Sivaji and im dissapointed.. *giggles* I turn around to leave the place when i see another late actor, MGR also giving out his autographs.. This time, when it comes to my turn, he signs his full name and I'm like jumping with joy only to have my mum wake me up later.. Hmm.. i wonder who the next actor would be if only my mum hadn't woke me up.. hehehe..

I guess all these weird dreams are a result of my weird sleeping time.. But again, is it really due to that???

*Mystery movie sound playing in the background*

hehehehe...

*BaCk To SnooZyLaND*

2009-05-14T12:27:00.003+08:00

DawDy OutFit + TripS To MaLL = Major MisFit

Mum :- Sham, please change your clothes and hurry up. Appa will be waiting..

Me :- No need to change la Mummy... Just to go n pick up also wanna change ah? Im only sitting outside the airport rite?

Mum :- Still, change la.. At least change your tshirt.. Don't wear sleeping tshirt all and follow me..

Me : Ish.. no need la.. Nobody's gonna see me..

Note to Myself :- Next time, listen when mummy asks to change... Stop being lazy and stubbotn, sham...

After dropping Arrwin in tuition, we went to pick up my dad who then, suggested we go and have dinner...

*checks my clothes* <-- Still acceptable to eat in mamak shops...

Dad :- Where you all wanna eat? Arrwin's tuition's finishing at what time???

Mum :- 10pm only.. Now still early...

Dad :- You wanna go back home and come back ah? No need la..Go to Queensbay..Can eat and kill time there...

Me :- Yeah la mummy, we'll go to Queensbay.. Long time since i when...

Mum :- But you're wearing like this??? That's why i told you to change rite...

And that's when reality struck me right on my face!!!

ALERT ALERT!!! Sleeping tshirt and shorts with slippers to Queensbay???? Ahhh SHAM, majot majot fashion alert....

Well, to be truthful, i dont really mind going out like that.. It's way more comfy but i wished i had worn at least a more presentable tshirt than the self-tiedyed-old tshirt i had on...

Seeing that it was my mum's bday and dad just came back from his lecture, both of them had nice clothes on..

So, it was Sham being the LONE RANGER in PLANET DRESS DAWDY!!!

In Queensbay Mall

Then came the BEST PART... We finished our dinner and we had to "tapau" food for Arrwin.. This means, it was down to me to carry the plastic bag..

As if one pink plastic bag filled with styrefoam wasnt's enough, my dad had to buy pizza and there went my right hand, carrying that bag as well..

Poor poor me.. *pets myself*

Walking in Queensbay, beside my mum who was wearing some new clothes, looking so dressed down, hair also tak sikat, with plastic bags in both my hands... The fact that my mum was laughing didnt help either...

Even more humiliating was when it was time to go back and we had to take the escalator..

I CANNOT TAKE THE ESCALATOR!!!

I AM SUFFERING FROM ESCALATOR-O-PHOBIA!!!

Me :- Mummy, come this side la..The life is there...

Dad :- The escalator is here.. Where are you two going?

Mummy :- She wants to take the life...

Dad :- Shamini you have to learn to use the escalator. Don't act stupid...

Me :- *blushing like a red tomato*

Well, all the scoldings in the world can never help me overcome my escalator-0-phobia.. So, it was back to the lift..

In the car

Dad :- She must learn la. Its all in the mind.. *bla bla bla* And please ah, learn to way something more decent when you come out of the house..

OPPS!!! There goes my day.... *sigh*

*Fashion Police, ARREST ME!!!*

2009-05-08T01:51:00.009+08:00

zz--WeiRd DreaMs--zz

Exams freak me out.. What more final exams but this time there was something even more weirder that even my Weird-O-Meter cant seem to scale.. I've had a string of weird dreams incessantly for the past 4 days just before my exams..

Dream 1 :-

Actor Surya was in my house.. hahaha.. n the best part was, we were like standing beside each other, his hands around my waist n vice versa.. he was clad in some olive green shirt with a ripped blue jeans.. And the best part was, we were standing in front of his dad, laughing... And somehow, the next scene was like I'm in my room searching for that autograph book and my camera to take a picture for my best fren n by the time i come out of the room, he's settled in my couch watching tv.. But, and this is a big but, by the time i was able to get a picture, my aunt woke me up.. *sob sob* And the weird part is, i'm not ever a Surya's fan... hmmmm...

Dream 2 :-

All i can remember is seing this VVIP of Malaysia being shot dead and lying on the bathroom floor.. There was like this huge pool of blood around his head and he was wearing a three piece suit.. And than there was his wife, and she was wearing this purple color baju kurung, sobbing.. Some guy was carrying an umbrella over her head and i dont think it was even raining.. Anyway the thing was, she was telling the press that she wants to remarry the VVIP's brother so that she wouldnt lose her post as a 1st Lady or sthing like that... And once again, i woke up... *sigh*

Dream 3 :-

I had a dream that my phone was ringing and it was an old friend's number.. The weird thing was that number was no longer in service... By the time i answered, the phone stopped ringing.. I wonder what would have been if i had actually answered the phone...

Dream 4 :-

This has gotta be the effect of doing Accounts i s'pose coz i dreamt i was on the phone with fLaMe n the funniest part was he was teaching me Accounts over the phone.. All i can remember was he asking me to put a certain amount and try to balance and I'm like arguing that the amount is wrong or something.. And then he tells me that i would have to pay him or something for his teaching.. Neway the details are kinda vague but that's pretty much one of the weirdest dream i had seing that i aint even in talking terms with fLaMe..

*smacks*

Thats why dad says :- eat less at night and mum's perception is :- stop dozing off in front the television..

But again, if my dreams are these "interesting", why change? Who knows, someday i might be able to produce a movie based on Dreams or in some far-fetched reality, write a book like JK Rowlings..

*giggles*

Aww, enough of DAY dreaming, gal..

Get back to DreamLand... Opps i mean SnoozyLand..... Adiozzzz....

*zzzzzzzzzzz*

2009-04-15T00:58:00.006+08:00

bLoGGinG :- a CriMe???

He :- Hey, I wanna ask you a something... What did you tell B-True?

She :- What??? I never said anything.. Why???

He :- Then how does he know that we met? He's telling me in detail. Ish you ah...

She:- Hello hello wait... I never said anything to anyone.. Why on earth will i go and tell him.. The only thing i did was to blog about it..

He :- (2-3 minutes of non stop accusations)

She :- Wei, please think and c... What do i get by telling him? i dont even talk to him... Wait, i'll ask him...

He :- No need to ask anything all.. Ish.. Just go and delete your blog la.. Bye..

She :- Fine.. Im sorry... Bye...

*Sends B-True a sms*

Excuse me, How do you know that i met fLaMe? Did i tell you anything? Coz ur brother says that i told you and as far as i know, i dont even talk to you.. So, how do you know what happened???

*Within 5 minutes, B-True Calls*

B-True :- Hello, what sms did you send me ah? You think i have no work ah??? Wanna talk about fLaMe and u for what? Lo Please la.. I have better things to do.. *bla bla bla* (rambles on for about 1 minute)

She :- Wait wait... I never accused you of anything. Im just wondering how u know.. I never told u anything and yet your brother's accusing me of telling you everything... That's why i'm asking. Dont shout.. Just tell...

(5- 6 minutes of arguing)

She :- Fine... I just wanted to know how u knew but since you're saying that you didn't say anything, ok than.. Thanks a lot.. Bye...

(ends the call)

Conclusion :-

Either fLaMe Or B-True is lying but the best part is, the victim of the day is none other than :- HER!!!... lol this is what i call buta dot com kes.. *sigh*

*Gemini Chatz*

What on the world just happened? Looks like blogging about what i feel is such a big mistake!!!

Nah, gal! It aint wrong. It's just that SOME PEOPLE cannot take face the fire when THEIR TRUE COLOR comes to light...

But, what if it has got to do with me? I'm suppose to bottle up whatever i feel just to safe their face??? That's absurd. This is my blog, after all...

Well, I know and you know that.. But, do others know???

You know, i dont even reveal identitities.. For heaven's sake, i use pseudonyms dammit.. What's so wrong with that????

Oi, are you that blur??? Havent you heard of the proverb " siapa makan lada, dia terasa pedas"??? Apply babez apply all thos BM lessons u took...

Well, im speechless... All i did was to blog what i felt and now, im the one to be blamed... Could life get any worse???

Well, babez.. Life aint fair... Just chill and follow the flow k.. All's well will end well...

Really? So you mean to say that time would mend all and everything would be back to normal???

Nah, i was just kidding... Life's a total b#tch... And no, nothing returns to normal.. You just have to make the best out of every situation you land... *laughs sarcastically*

*blog... blogging... blogged....*

2009-04-01T00:19:00.006+08:00

-- Last Year's TRICK--

The Beginning :-

SmS at 11.50pm, 31st March 2008

Im sorry to bother you but i need a favour. Are you free tomorrow? I need to go to the JPA's office in Putrajaya. I'll reach Pudu Bus Stop in the morning. Can you pls pick me up and send me there?

Within seconds, he calls her....

But, she declines the call...

He calls her again...

She declines...

She replies with a sms:- 11.58pm-ish...31st March 2008...

I'll call you in 5 minutes and explain the details k...

The Climax :-

Call at 12.03am-ish,1st Aprl 2008

She :- Hey flame...So, how? ur free?

He :- Yeah, im free.. What time do you need to be there?

She :- About 8am.. Can ah?

He :- Can... But, i need to send my brother about 7.30am.. So, ill sent u first to Putrajaya.. Than, ill go back n sent my brother before coming and picking you up again... Is that ok?

She :- Sure, no problem.. But you're sure its not a problem for you? Coz i don't wanna trouble you la pa..

He :- No la.. No problem..

She :- Thank you so much.. And one more thing, lol.. HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!! hahahaa.. i was just kidding.. i aint coming to KL all..

He :- Huh.. Wei.... aiyoooo...

*giggles*

So fast, a year has passed.. and once again, its 11.51pm,31st March 2009...

The only difference is, this time the joke is on her...

*smiles*

And, the best part is, he didnt need to wait for 1st of April to do so...

All he needed to do was to tell her the three letter phrase which she stupidly fell for...

So much for April Fools Day..

As of now, life as a whole had turned out to be a big joke for her....

*shrugs*

*Happy April Fools Day*

2009-03-24T14:03:00.005+08:00

Ж-Ж CheRishEd JouRneY WitH fLaMe Ж-Ж

As she stood there, waiting anxiously, she just couldn’t believe what she has just done. Even more, what she was doing at the moment. Here she was, standing in a totally unknown place, waiting for that one person who she swore she would never ever meet in life. Talk about fate!!!

*sigh*

As the minutes crept by, her heart beat started increasing. It was too late to back out now and yet, she was in such a dilemma. How on earth did she get tangled into such a sticky situation? Come to think of it, it was her own big mouth n rash decision that had led to such a situation.

*slaps*

Get a grip and concentrate. It was almost an hour and yet, she was still waiting by the road. Where on earth was fLaMe? Why on earth didn’t he know the meaning of punctuality? Already standing in a totally alien place shocked the daylights out of her, but being alone was even more terrifying.

As she spoke on the phone to her best friend, freaking out and getting excited all at once, she saw a car pass by and stop in front of her. But being so engrossed in the call, she didn’t realize that the person actually came out of the car and stood right beside her.

Holy Sh#t!!! It was fLaMe!!!

*screamssssssssssss*

Hahaha.. It was actually the tiny voice in the brain that was screaming. He was here, by blood flesh, right in front of her.

She :- Hi. Can you park the car and we could just walk there?

He :- Get into the car la.

She :- Hmm.. Can I sit at the back?

He :- Just come n sit in front.

And there she went, sitting right next to him. However, the whole nervousness has seemed to vanish into the thin air. Despite not seeing each other for more than 2 years, it seemed so comfortable being beside him. That was the speciality of fLaMe. He always made her feel so comfortable and herself with him.

On the way to the “destination” , they did exchange a few words. Upon reaching there though, she whose sole intention was to visit his mum, backed out knowing that the entire household was there. I mean, how could she just walk in n face the whole family??? She had to be out of her mind to do so..

*giggles*

Well, cutting the long story short, after like about 20 minutes, they left the place. She thanked him and asked if he could drop her back. But he refused saying that he had something to do but he would come back at bout 10.45pm to see her.

She :- Huh, Why???

He :- Coz I wanna lepak with you la.

She :- Its ok la. You just send me back please.

He :- Ish, just listen to me. I’ll send you to KLCC. They wont close the place till 12 or 1 am. Ill come back by 10.45pm k.

She :- Oi, you want me to wait till 10.45pm alone ah? No need la. Just send me back please

But, somehow, about 25 minutes later, there she was, standing right in front of Kinokuniya in KLCC. As she found a corner to settle down and read a book, she thought of him and the effect he had on her. Somehow, without realizing, she smiled.

fLaMe, her fLaMe…How much she missed him although she just saw him like half an hour ago…

fLaMe.. The guy who belonged to her, or at least she thought belonged to her once upon a time and here they were now, behaving like two friends who had nothing but a sweet friendship all along. How weird and at the same time, how nice…

*sigh*

It was about 8.45pm when he called her.

He :- I’m in front of KLCC already. You come now.

She :- Aiks why so fast?

He :- I’ll send you to my cousin’s house. I don’t feel nice leaving you alone.

She :- Are your cousins with you in the car?

He :- Yeah I still have to go out with them but I’ll leave you in my cousin’s house first k. You can chill there

She :- NO NEED la… I don’t like to go to people’s house all. I rather sit here alone. Its ok you carry on. I’ll get a cab and go back

He :- Don’t talk nonsense. It’s not safe. Fine wait for me till 10.45pm than.

She :- Nevermind its ok. I’ll find my way back

And then they argued and argued…Both trying to convince the other. Finally, they came to an agreement. She would go n watch a movie and he would come and pick her up when it ended.

At 11.40pm :-

She :-Where are you? The movie ended already.

He :- I’m on my way. I’ll be there in 10 minutes.

She :- Hurry up la. I have never waited outside at this time. Scared la.

He :- Wait wait. I’ll be right there

At 12.05am :-

He came and gosh, how glad she felt. Finally, it was safe.. Hallelujahhhh!!!

She :- So, are you sending me back?

He :- Your friends are only coming back at 2am plus rite. I’ll send you back than

She :- So, where are you taking me now?

Thus, began the ride she would never forget in her life.

From one place to another, he drove n drove n drove. All along, she felt so comfortable n yet there were butterflies in her tummy. They talked, laughed, teased, argued and yet, it was all so euphoric.

He took her from one place to another. They stopped to grab a bite and it was so fun to watch him eat. Cute, in fact.

He showed her the place he used to hang out last time, the playground he use to sit n watch people and even the pub he use to chill in.

At some point, he held her hand. And holy shit, if that didn’t feel great but at the same time, she knew that if she didn’t stop it, she would end up falling even more for him than she already had and she didn’t want that to happen.

So, somehow, she managed to free her hand away only to find it once again, in his grasp. Well, since it felt so good and she knew this was only a once in a lifetime chance, she decided to just go along with it.

*chuckles*

However, good times always come to an end real fast, aite.. Same here. It was as if, those two memorable hours just flew by and it was time for him to leave her back.

As she left the car, she couldn’t help wishing that time had just frozen and she could spend the entire day, if not life with him. But again, wishes like that remained as wishes.

He made sure she reached back safe and sound, asking her to message him when he reached.

Seeing fLaMe so caring, only made her heart weep even more. Why would the guy she loved so much but who hurt her so badly seem to be such a lovable, caring sweetheart? Guess, only time can answer that. For now, it’s only those sweet memories that kept her going. If only she could control time….

*WheN ParT Of A DreaM ComEs TruE*

2009-01-09T14:35:00.002+08:00

♠♠ The 2009 Calendar Quest ♠♠

“Mika, there’s a Johnny Depp calendar there. Wanna buy ah???

My response :- OBVIOUSLY!!!

Alas, the mere fact that I was not in Penang but in KL at that time and it was already 5pm which means = TRAFFIC and sooo, I have to get going, it meant a big evil “NO” to the calendar.

Thinking that I could still get it in Penang’s MPH, off I went, poor poor me *giggles* with high hopes only to see all those hopes dashed *sob sob* .

Guess, not only Johnny but even his calendars sells like hot cakes. It was out of stock. Despite trying to place an order with KL’s MPH, it was all in vain.

Would I give up?? Hellloo, we’re talking bout Johnny Depp here…

When it comes to Johnny, there’s no such thing as giving up.

Therefore, I set out to do my own calendar. What set out to be a simple calendar turned out to be quite wonderful at last. Even my brother, who at first scorned at the quality of my first attempt (gotta admit, it looked horrible) expressed his compliments when he saw this calendar.

After spending RM30 to refill my ink cartridge only to find out that refilled ink wouldn’t print out the image like I expected and than having to go on a search for any shops that would print color, I finally, FINALLY found one and forked out RM15 for it..

Finally, here I am, the proud owner of my darling Johnny’s home made calendar which cost me RM 45 ++ (the petrol, effort, etc) where else the one in MPH was only RM 36.90.. But the satisfying feeling- Now, that is priceless… lol…

Well, it’s a wonderful start to 2009… *winks*

Here’s a screen shot of my calendar from the month of January to December 2009..

*Aloha 2009*

2008-12-31T12:32:00.004+08:00

♣♣ YEAR 2008 :- Short Messaging Services (SMS) Mania ♣♣

This time last year, I probably blogged the longest blog ever..

The REASON???

To put my past behind and start of a new year with hopes and dreams.. But did it work???

The answer is, not at all.. Not only was it not like what I expected, it was so bizarre that it was beyond what I had even dreamed off..

In a good way?? Lol, I wish…

2008 for me is by far the worst year in my life.. Nicknamed “Roller Coaster Year”, I have been at the top n bottom of life that many times until 2008 came along…

But once again, here I am at the waiting for the stroke of midnight, just a few hours before the clock strikes 12 and its New Year once again.

Have I changed?? Maybe…Being a 21 year old, requires a few things from me but on as whole, frankly I know that I,m still hanging on to the thin thread called PAST and refusing to move on..

Why im doing so?? Simply because my heart fails to agree with the brain..

*sigh*

Anyway, for this New Year, its only fair if I reminisce 2008 with the hope that 2009 will be a better year if not the best for me..

So, I’ve decided to read all the SMS (important ones that is) in year 2007 and choose the TOP 10..

Some are so memorable that I can even recall it without even looking at my hp..

*chuckles*

Here goes, from number 10 to 1…

NUMBER 10 :- SMS that kept me wondering wont people ever change…

This message made it to my LIES folder in my handphone and it is from fLaMe on 4/7/08 at 9.40pm..

lol. Hi childish baby don’t worry 4 life long u cannot open ur mouth cz u cant stand on ur own feet J u will stand on my feet while im holding u da. darling

NUMBER 9 :- Probably the best response for a trick I played on my cousin

Sent by Ruben on 20th December 2008 at 12.12pm…

Whateva… I mean ok I will love ya…

NUMBER 8 :- SMS that knocked the daylight out of me…

This comes from fLaMe again at 10.01pm on 4th July 2006 and it is another proud owner of the LIES label…

I eat edy, u darling? If you want this great person 2 feed u, np anytime ready if my athai give permission more better I can feed u n take care of u 4 life long da syg rather than just dream about you in sleep only. Give me reality. darling

NUMBER 7:- SMS that woke me up and yet made me laugh…

PCK sends me this 1.45am on 4th October 2008..

Oh phone is working… good..lol…

NUMBER 6 :- SMS that made me wanna slap the person…

The proud author of this message is Illusions and I received it at 9.44pm on 26th of December 2008.

Woi u take so serious I play play je I talk u take so serious

NUMBER 5 :- The most irritating message (the same message sent to me more than 10 times)

Again, this sms was sent by none other than Illusions for more than 10 times on different days at different times.

On 17th November 2008 at 12.01am

Wanna go clubbing?

On 13th December 2008 at 11.49pm

Wanna go clubbing?

NUMBER 4 :- SMS that I thought was true.. my bad.. Another sms for the LIES folder…

Illusions on 8th December 2008 at 1.27am.

Ok la mungkin I play play wit u kan im sorry hw…

Im sori wat happen last time k..

NUMBER 3 :- SMS or should I say SMSes that I have received from my best friend that despite it was funny or whatsoever, just showed that no matter what, she will always be there for me… This is just the tip of the iceberg... If I start listing all her sms’es, my entire blog wouldn’t be enough. J

At 3.10pm, 29th September 2008 :-

Sham wanna clarify something. Astro is very clear rite nw in my hse..Hw clear it is in ur hse? Any distortion? Lol..

At 2.41pm, 1st October 2008 :-

Shammmm u knw smthg ah? Ystdy my mum cuk mutton..2day she cuk ayam masam merah.so spicy n tasty lah. Den jz cme 2 my grandma hse. Here they cuk nasi briyani n ayam rending. Forcing me 2 eat lah. Anbu tholai lah. Hmm wat kirai u eat 2dy? Wakakaka… Ok ok I wana mkn.. Bye bye..

At 11.37pm, 28th December 2008 :-

Dey vidu vidu.. Dis bloody b*stards al no work 2 do.. Tats y messing up our life..Hmm 4 wat they did 2 sure they will kena teruk teruk in future…Dun worry la dey…

Number 2 :- SMS that made me realize some things and some people can never be changed

SMS by fLaMe at 9.28pm on 5th July 2008

k fine. They ask me y I don’t have gf or hate luv. I told them I don’t hate luv or gf. I already have someone special in my heart n its u.

NUMBER 1 :- The SMS that I can probably never forget in life..

The winner of the number 1 spot is none other than fLaMe for the message sent on 16th December 2008 at 12.56pm

I m sorry pa. its true I don’t send it cz so long edy I join internet. Me also will always think abt u. 4 months 22 days huh. Its better if you forget this fickle minded person. But ur wrong. I never thought would like this bramachari life than anything. Lol.. I’m have hurt you so much. I m just decide to avoid cz wanted u 2 b happy. In previous its wasnt lie hope so u understand. I know what ru doing just doesn’t want to disturb ur peaceful n happy life again.

And the reason this sms won the 1st place is because of the just one word :- BRAMACHARI… loooooool…

Well it will year 2009 in exactly 12 hours and I guess a New Year calls for new dreams, hopes and resolutions. Well, all I can hope for this new year is that hopefully I wont cry as much as I did this year (2008) and if possible, I would like to experience more HAPPINESS.. With that, its adios to 2008, the roller coaster year in my life…

*Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009*

2008-12-16T11:10:00.000+08:00

§-- VacaTioN??? I DouBt -- §

“This is the same road that he walks almost everyday”, her mind told her..

“Get a grip and stop hallucinating. You don’t wanna create a scene, much worse a breakdown right in front of your family. For heaven sake, please get a grip and start walking”, her senses told her.

But yet, why was it so difficult?

Forgetting him and moving on was already a herculean task, but now being in the place or should I say places he had been or even worst, still is, just makes it a lot more difficult. It is as if, god’s just pushed you down a memory trip you never wanna take.

As she stared from the window, she could see

The place he used to stay, his home in fact…

The roads he travelled everyday..

The shop he usually stops by to have a drink…

And even the police station that she was sure he had been…

All this just proved to be more than she could handle, and yet here she was, trying to put up a brave front, smiling and acting as if there was nothing wrong, as if everything was perfect, but in reality, it was far from perfect.

The thoughts killed her so much, that she couldn’t even bear to step out of the hotel. This was by far the last place she wanted to come, at least not in this generation I s’pose…

The next morning, instead of being in the sanctuary of her car, the family decided to walk. GREAT!!! Now she would be walking down the same road he uses everyday..

*sigh*

As they walked towards the stall that he visit occasionally, her hear beat was so loud that even a passerby could have heard. Half of her was praying and wishing she would never meet him. Another tiny lil’ part of her just wondered how would it be to come face to face with him after such a long time..

Fate played its part and she never came across him, but that didn’t stop her from being paranoid. They went to the mall, and even there, she kept on thinking, how often this mall was visited by him.

*arghhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Seriously, how could one person feel so tortured like this? If it was me, I would have long ago succumbed to the torture and checked myself into the nearest mental hospital.. But, she.. she was different. She just went out, crying inside but smiling outside..

Three days, three nights later…

It was time to go back home.

“Vacation” was over, and so was the “Journey down memory lane”…

As she sat in the car, she made up her mind, never ever to think or even say his name anymore.. If ever she did, than she would reprimand herself by pinching herself..

*chuckles*

Not an effective way to forget you Ex-Love, but someone has to start somewhere rite..

All the best, gal…

*ReSt In PeaCe*

2008-12-02T11:17:00.000+08:00

?? - - OF REHAB AND SELF SEARCHIN’ - - ??

2 months gone just like that.. wowie… n here I was, dreaming and jubilating bout the three months ill have just for myself..

In just a glimps, im left with only one month for me, me and only me..

*pinchs myself*

Ouch.. ok that was like dreaming or should I say hoping for a miracle.. one whole month just for me?? Lol.. to get one week itself would be miracle, let alone a month..

Neway, to say that these two months have passed by fruitlessly will be extremely far fetched.. true, I haven’t blogged and that’s coz I haven’t had nething interesting or ramblings to do..

BUT, and this is a big BUT, a lot of soul searching was taking place.. for instance, I got checked in a self-created rehab centre for internet addicts.. lol.. and thankfully, actually its hopefully, I’ve finally kicked off the bad bad addiction..

The other realization point??? – No matter how hard you try, and I really mean very very hard, its onerous or should I say almost impossible to forget people who have hurt you in the most unexpected manner in the most painful place – HEART…

Wowie.. for a moment, I sounded so poetic.. lol..

*pats myself*

But yeah, that’s the down and dirty, no holds barred truth…

Sounds simple aite?? But hell no, it took a lot of energy to overcome the self denial state and actually move on.. 1 year 8 months to be exact.. lol..

Nevertheless, “kumbang bukan seekor” aite.. hehehe..

Not to forget my practical experience.. phew.. who ever thought working was this tiring not to mention boring.. *sighs*

Howeverrrrrrrr, today is the first day of my so called ONE WHOLE MONTH FOR ME DAY.. so far, I’ve watched tv, blogged, played trivia (yes, online – im under rehab not meditation), and now with a nice cup of milo, im off to date my loyal boyfriend, STORY BOOK.. adios peeps..

*the journey continues*

2008-10-25T13:45:00.002+08:00

¤ SonG-O-ItIs ¤

Listening to the same song more than 10 times a day??? Driving your mum mad by humming and TRYING to sing the song over and over again??? While in the car, offing the radio and playing the same song over n over again using your hp??? Your phone's ringtone plays that SAME song??? Than, CONGRATS!!! You're diagonized with Song-O-ItiS!!! *giggles* I'm addicted to yet another song.. It has the same tune like rihanna's UNFAITHFUL, one of my favorite songs too... Thus, it's no suprise that this song has become the latest addition to my favourites.. But truly, its KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. im in love, in love with this song.. Hence, this is my choice of song for this month…. Here Goes...

Unakkena Naan

Movie :- Kathalil Vizhunden

unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil innikudhae udallena naan uyirenna nee iruppadhu pidikkudhae unadhuyiraai enadhuyirum ulavida thudikkudhae thani oru naan thani oru nee ninaikkavum valikkudhae idhayaththai idhu kaadhalaai idhu kaadhalaai idamaatrugiraai irukkumoru thunbaththai kudi aetrinaai pudhumaigaL thandhu maghizchchiyil ennai aazhththa parisugaL thaedi pidippaai kasandhidum seidhi vandhaal pagirndhida pakkam nee iruppaai noi yena konjam paduththaal thaai ena maari aNaippaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaynae aruginil vaa aruginil vaa iru vizhi valikkudhae unadhuyiril enadhuyirai ootrida thudikkudhae naanena nee nee ena naan iNaindhida pidikkudhae pudhu ulagam pudhu saragam valiththida thavikkudhae mazhaigaiyil kaatrOdu boogambam vandhaalumae unadhumadi naan thoongum veedagumae aruginil vandhu madiyinil saaindhu paduthaal melliya kuralil isaipaai maarbinil mugaththai pudhaiththaal koondhalai kOdhi koduppaai aruginil mayangi kidandhaal asaindhida kooda maruppaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen maRanamay bayandhidum dhooraththil naamum vaazhgindrOm manidha nilai thaandi pOgirOm ini nammakendrum pirivillaiyae ohohoohooho... pirivillaiyae enakkena edhuvum seidhaai unakkena enna naan seivaen? pongidum nenjin uNarvai sollavum vaarththai pOdhaadhae vizhigaLin oaram thuLirkkum oru thuLi neerae sollattum unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil inikkudhae udalenna naan uyirenna nee irupadhu pidikkudhae hey hey hey.

It’s the same beat with Rihanna’s Unfaithful…

“Unfaithful”

Album :- A girl Like Me

Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong really loves my company Hes more than a man and this is more than love the reason that this guy is blue the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair preparing for another day A kiss up on my cheek He's here reluctantly as if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A liar didn't have to tell Because we both know where I'm about to go and we know it very well cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer His trust I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer) No no no no Yeah yeah yeah

*melts*

*on cloud nine*

Hehehe..

*lalala tarum-pum-pum lalalal*

2008-09-30T13:58:00.002+08:00

--DeLeTinG SpRee--

Click the X…Click Yes.. n POOF!!! It”s GONE!!!

How easy to delete rite?

YES???

Well, NOOOO!!!!!!!

Adding a friend in your Friendster list is easy but deleting a bunch of them takes a whole lot of time and PATIENCE…

But someone’s gotta do it at some point aite..

Hence began my deleting spree…

After almost 3 hours plus, I finally filtered my friendster’s friend list from almost 700 to 189 people NOW…

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Its better to know who is in ur list rather than just add for the sake of it..

*pets my poor tired fingers*

2008-09-29T12:39:00.004+08:00

O Baking Feat!!! O

I BAKED A CAKE!!!!

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Really really I did bake a banana cake.. Well, it was not 100% my work but still, I did the most of it.. After pestering mum for like 2 whole days (she never liked me in the kitchen, thanks to my CULINERY SKILLS), she finally succumbed and took me to buy the ingredients..

I bought everything except for the bananas…What to do aite, I aint experienced… lol.. So, the plan had to be postponed to the next day..

After buying the bananas, I got down to work..

Almost 40 minutes of beating and mixing the flour, finally the cake was ready to be baked… Oh yeah, my mum helped to prepare the batter too..

*giggles*

It was all up to the oven and my darling cake.. 1 hour later, the product was :-

*Skips happily*

It looked reallyyyyyyyyyyy good…

And then I remembered :-

Sean Paul :- Cutieeeeeee I want chocolate cake…

When uncle asks, sure I’ll bake for him.. But I haven’t really learned chocolate cake yet.. So, for now, its banana cake first k, uncle..

Bon appetite!!!

*yum yum yum*

2008-09-29T12:13:00.000+08:00

--Tagged by KhiruL--

Here I am, innocently reading blogs when I just realized that Khirul has a set of Q n A and the best part is, I’m tagged to answer it..(gracias Khi).. Just hope it’s the right tagged post :P

*giggles*

Anyway this is my version of the Answers… :P

If I could vote for the US Presidential Election (Nov 4th 2008)... Obama has my vote…Simply coz, he has the “presidential look”.. lol My favorite drink is.. Milo ais from the milo van… Ideally, my life after graduation.. Get on the earliest flight to Hollywood and search for Johnny Depp before tying the knot with him and ill live happily ever after like Cinderella….

But realistically.. I’ll be working my ass off, trying to earn money, climb up the career ladder and at the same time, continue my masters n doctorate..

The color of my.. hair is black + blonde +copper brown + reddish brown + light brown + a lil streaks of normal brown and white (sadly)

If I weren't in college.. I’d be off to india to find either Kamal/Maddy or Vishal to get married and settle down as an Indian Princess… *giggles**

When men reach their hands down to 'fix the parking'.. It sends a huge WARNING sign… -à Move 10 steps away from him… But when women fix their bras.. Someone’s gotta do it at some time.. Best do it before it creates even more revealing @ ignominy

I go to the gym.. when the moon turns blue.. The most disturbing movie I've seen is..

A list of horror movies… I can never watch a horror movie.. it gives me sleepless nights and headaches the next morning.. poor poor me :P With a dollar.. Ill but myself a packet of choki-choki.. yum yum

With 10 dollars.. I’ll reload my digi/maxis hp.. both lines are in desperate need of a top-up.. :P Girls open their mouths when they apply mascara because.. no idea.. never applied nor observed anyone wearing mascara YET…but maybe its because they wanna c how will they eye lashes look when they are kissing…

*You ask and I ShaLL aNsweR*

2008-09-25T13:45:00.001+08:00

Predictable…Hmm… When???

Ever reached an end of a road that u never thought would have an end? Even worst, if the end was abrupt and came out of no where??? Lol.. Well, in that case, can you imagine how one might feel when reaching that specific stop? Confused? Devastated? Or just plain shock? I gotta say, it’s a mixture of all the three and even more…

“Life is unpredictable”. That’s one hackneyed cliché that no matter how many times or how often you use it, the meaning remains untainted.. But as unpredictable as it is, one question that boggle my mind is, at what point of life does the unpredictability turns to predictable??? In a better way, at what juncture can you start trusting someone?

I guess, even Hitler nor Bill Gates can answer that query.. What more a simpleton, still in the midst of her adolescence like me come up with an answer for that million dollar question…

However, being an adolescent doesn’t make me INCAPABLE or like many like to say, IMMATURED to discuss this question. Simply because, I have had my share of the cake when it came to TRUST…

Knowing a person for a year long before trusting him with your deepest secrets, dreams and going on step further with your life, only to see that person walk away, turning his back at you, dashing all those dreams and trust, would have surely taught me a lesson. Even I thought I would be more wary of who I mixed and specifically trusted.. But no no no, I just had to go on trusting people.

Call it a good character or my downfall, I just cant help but trust people. So much so, people tend to take me for granted. And at some point of life, when I finally decide to retaliate, they just cant take it. Talk about a fair world..

*sigh*

The list of people in this list just goes on and on… from fLaMe, to Big-B than iLLusIonS followed by SmartyPants.. it just keeps on growing. Nevertheless, the one thing that bewilders me is, how different each of them has betrayed my trust.. Each one in its own way, but each leaving an impact or should I say teaching me an experience that HOPEFULLY prepares me for the future..

*shrugs*

Out of all the various breaking up reasons, I think the one reason that tops the list of the MOST WEIRDEST REASON would be :-

“I got involved in a gang fight and accidentally stabbed someone. He is in a very critical state and im on the run. The cops are after me. I cant even talk on the phone coz they are tabbing my line”

For heaven sake, grow up! The cops in Malaysia have better things to do than get embroiled in a goose chase behind some petty criminal like u. Criminal you are, but not a murdered. Criminal coz u murdered people’s hearts but as far as I know, that doesn’t entitle you for a life long sentence now, does it fLaMe?

So the next time you wanna come up with a reason, use that coconut head of yours coz you end up making a fool out of yourself.

The worst part is, it’s been 1 and a half year since this SCENARIO took place, but I can never seem to erase it out of my mind. Talk bout superglue. I think my brain works way better than UHU when it comes to remembering stuff like this…

One would have thought I knew better than trust an XY again but nah, I just had to make a complete fool out of myself again. This time, in the form of Big-B. A whole new relationship (bro-sis ß make it online bro-sis) and to make matters worst, I had to get my best fren involved.. (no matter how many sorry’s or talk thrashing we do, I can never forgive myself for pulling her into this)

Big-B’s reasons for breaking up with my best buddy :-

To Nagma :- I have to concentrate on my career. I cant get married until I buy a BMW..

To Me :- Her character is very difficult la, aunty. She needs me to be there all the time. She loses temper and even scolded my office staff. Difficult la aunty.

To Sean Paul :- She asked me not to call or sms her again la bro.

Three various reasons to three different people, all just to explain one bloody mistake. Would class acting, aite. In case the tamil cinema runs out of story writers or even actors, they know who to ask now..

Almost three years knowing Big-B, not in my wildest dream did I imagine him succumbing to such cheap tricks. The trust and praises I had for him :-

“Dei, if there’s one person who knows the meaning of love, than it is tata la.. He is one of the people I trust the most”.

Hahahaha… How stupid of me…

Big-B, next time you decide to come up with a story to cover your acts, the least you can do is get it standardized. Only then will it take a little more time and effort to see right through your lies.

As for iLLusIOnS, that’s a whole different story for ya. Until I met iLLusIonS, never did I know that you have to flirt and cheat someone just to get them to help you. Weird ideology but according to him, it works.. What can I say, I was the guinea pig who tested out the hypothesis of that theory and in case any of you are eager to try it out, let me assure you that you can be guaranteed of a 90% success.. (the 10% depends on how well you can flirt and cloy your way around)

Lol.. The more I ponder bout this, the more worked up I get but trying to erase this whole thing from my hard disk in my brain seems like a Herculean task.

Bak kata pepatah, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih, I think at some point in life, I would have to forgive (ya right) this jerks and move on.. But for now,

let me have a gala time bitching and talk thrashing this people. After all, compared to the damages they have done, this is miniscule..

*giggles*

*Trusting Homosapiens remains a DreaM*

2008-09-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

FreaKy FriDay aLa sHaMz’s VerSioN

1.00am :- Sean Paul (SP) calls me and gives the bad news :- the PLAN back fired thanks to some unpredictable people.. Sad to hear, after all the high hopes we had. Anyway since it was already late, the convo was brief and I told him i’ll come online in the morning for the 411 on the story..

2.30am :- Messaged Nagma and told her briefly that the than backfired and will update her bout it tomorrow..

2.36am :- Nagma (being the usual kaypo… hehehe) msg’s back asking for the higlights at least..

3am :- Messaged her a short description of what happened and promised to get back to her in the morning

9am :- Suprisingly woke up early and the first thing to do :- LOG ON IRC… Only to find a memo telling me off… Well if getting a reprimanding memo from a stranger is disturbing, think again.. If only I had any inkling of what was waiting for me.. but nah, there was more waiting specially for me..

10.15am :- Nagma calls and we start our usual “updating” (this is how she phrases it. I call it analyzing the important points.. hehe)

Now comes the surprise :-

10.45am :- THE Big-B calls Nagma. Imagine that. *shrugs*

Nagma:- “ Sham.. Sham.. the Big-B is calling me.. Aiyo what am I to do la? *freaks*

Me :- Huh? Calling you? Acho.. Never mind answer la.. See what he has to say…

Nagma :- Sham, ill answer and call u back k..

10.52am :- Got impatient waiting for her to call back. So i gave her a ring only to find my call waiting. After a few tries, she answered but spoke in a rush.

Nagma :- Shammmmmm… He is shouting la.. Scolding you to the max. Wanna come to your house all.. Wait wait he is calling back..

Me :- Huh.. Oi.. Wei What??

And the line goes dead…

10.54am :- Calles Sean Paul and freaks out..I mean seriously, I cannot imagine the Big-B standing in front my house aite.. *shudders at the mere thought of it*.. Lol.. Imagine my parents’ reaction… Sean Paul tries to calm me down when I get a call from another person.. thinking its Nagma calling back, I hang up only to find some other dufus calling at the wrong time.

11.10am :- Checks my other phone and finds a miss call from The Big-B.. Well its always wise to face problems head on rather than beat around the bush aites.. SO, poor shamzy calls Big-B back, hoping to clear the air but what I received was something totally unexpected…

11.20am – 12.30pm :- The UNFORGETTABLE CONVERSATION

A few highlights from it were :-

The call started by Big-B shouting profanities non-stop for easily 10 minutes… The entire scolding speech (or karangan like how Sean Paul calls is) was only interjected by my occasional unfinished sentences like – “But, let me… Can I pls…You have to hear me…”

When Big-B finally decided to hear me out, I did my best trying to tell him why I had to succumb to the plan.. it was a retribution for what he did to Nagma and also for taking me for granted, always thinking he could say anything and I would belief…

Anyway with Big-B, admitting mistake was a mere dream.. Thus, it was scolding me over n over again, with his side of the story.. Anyway before we could reach to a consensus, my parents came back and I had to hang up.

1pm-5pm :- My worst ever car ride to Kampar.. Nagma was smsing me while I sat in the car, totally blank. Never did I expect things to blow out of proportion in such a major way. All I wanted to do was to go back to my room and call Nagma ASAP..

6pm :- My parents sent me back and left to Penang. It was raining heavily and the line in my room was really bad. So I had to come out to the porch to talk to Nagma. As we were busy doing a post-mortem on the whole issue, I felt something at the back of my neck. Brushing it away, I found a huge bee on the floor. Gosh, if only I had not brushed it away.. *sigh*

6.45pm :- Finish talking to Nagma and went inside my room. Sat on the bad and Lo n Behold, I felt a sharp stinging pain right above my ankle. Trust me, it was stinging to the max. Waking up, I found the stupid farking bee had actually crept inside my pants near the ankle and waited to sting me.. With the stinging leg, I called my parents who were even more shocked to hear. Since there were no clinics near by and I OBVIOSLY didn’t know what to do ( I have never been stung by a bee before) they decided to turn back.

7pm :- Locked my room and limped my way to the stairs. Stupid bee was still in my room. Sat and waited there for my parents to come.

7.15pm :- Called Sean Paul as he was still waiting for my call but couldn’t talk much thanks to the stupid bee who chose the wrong victim.

8pm :- Still sitting on the stairs waiting for my parents. When I called them, they were already approaching Taiping and had to make a turn back to Kampar…

9 pm :- My parents arrive and dad kills the stupid freaking bee which I hate to the MAX. Putting the bee in a plastic, they took me to the nearest clinic available (bout 25 minutes drive)

9.50pm :- I am told that I need to put an injection since the stung had caused my leg to swell like a balloon. (thank you, stupid bee).

9.55pm :- I enter the doctor’s room and once again, I manage to embarrass myself. I have always had a phobia for injections. So, it was back to the screaming n crying, while the doctor laughed. Poor me.

10.40pm :- Back to my hostel to take my school bag and the things needed for my exam. Yes, my exams started the next day. What a timing rite!

11pm :- Checked into the hotel since it was too late for my parents to drive back.

11.20pm :- Finally, with my balloon sized leg settled on the chair, I opened the book to start studying. Thankfully, it was English for Business paper. Imagine if it had been Business Law or QT.

P/s := Within 45 minutes, my poor feet and ankle became swollen like a balloon.. (pic below)

Talk about an eventful day.. No doubt, this is by far, the one day I can never forget. From bad news to bad scolding to bad bee biting my leg badly, could it get any worst??? 5th September 2008 certainly takes the award for being a totally farked up day… But on the bright side, I learnt a lot…

First being learning the true colors of Big-B and next being the hackneyed lesson – Never procrastinate and keep studying for exam to the very last minute coz we never know hat might happen aite.. *grins*

*Freakishly Freaking Friday*

2008-09-13T23:39:00.003+08:00

♫ 7 ThiNgS ♫

Never did I imagine there would be a song that just takes the words out of my brain, add some beats and a dash of music n TADA- it’s an epitome of my life..

*giggles*

so for that, its kudos to Miley Cyrus @ Hannah Montana for the song “7 things”

This song is dedicated to fLaMe.. lol…

p/s :- check out the bold, white lines.. it just fits so perfectly.. :P

7 Things…

I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get so scared When I think about the previous Relationship we shared It was awesome but we lost it It's not possible for me not to care And now we're standing in the rain But nothings ever gonna change Until you hear, my dear The 7 things I hate about you The 7 things I hate about you, oh you You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say What I need to hear now is your sincere apology When you mean it I'll believe it If you text it I'll delete it Let's be clear Oh I'm not coming back Your taking seven steps here The 7 things I hate about you You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you Compared to all the great things That would take too long to write I probably should mention the 7 that I like The 7 things I like about you Your hair Your eyes Your old Levi's When we kiss I'm hypnotized You make me laugh, you make me cry But I guess that's both I'll have to buy Your hands in mine when we're intertwined Everything's alright I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I like the most that you do You make me love you You do, oh Oohhhh oooooooooohhh...

Hmm.. on second thoughts, 7 seems too minimal… be it the good or the bad, it just aint sufficient…

But what can I say, half of me just advocates to c only the good part but the devilish side is on a journey to cancel out every single good thought n spawn nothing but all the bad characteristics..

Anyway, back to the main point, this songs totally rawks…not to forget, its so apt with what I feel…

Thus, its my choice of song for the month of September..

*seven aint enough*

2008-08-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

-- A GuY I KnoW --

There was once a guy I know who had this radiating flirtatious aura around him. Everywhere he went, he conquered the place with his flirting manner. Although he conquered many hearts especially the hearts of the same species like him, but during the process many other hearts were broken too..

But was he bothered??? NAHHH…

The guys looked up at him simply because of his gift of gab when it came to lies.. He could wriggle his way out of any sticky situations with never ending string of lies. The XY Species was one hell of a proud of him. After all, why shouldn’t they be??? He was like a guru who thought them the art of breaking women’s hearts…

As for the women, they shuddered at the mere thought of him, let alone talk bout him.. Such were his legacy…

Now, there is this saying that a pride comes before a fall..

While some people believed in it, this guy dismissed it. After all, he was the King of Queens. He has a well tested strategy when it came to playing with woman.

“Been there, done that and I ain’t gonna get caught” ß- that was his motto of life…

But his downfall came in the form of a girl who had had her own share of flirting guys who always showered her with nothing but cloying fabrications..

He was a flirt.. She was a girl. Can I make anything more obvious???

Without wasting a split second, he tried his maneuvers on her. Starting off with the usual sweet words and than moving on to act like he cared about her..

Now the one drawback here was the girl was just in the process of recuperating from her break up with her ex-bf. Seeing that this guy was actually her ex-bf’s friend and that he seemed to look like he really cared, she welcomed his help and caring words with open hands..

But who ever knew that the guy was even worst than her playboy bf. He was an incurable flirt addicted to flirting..

However, one notable thing bout him was he was a smart guy who knew how to move his pawns.. He realized that the girl was gullible being in that state of mind and also that she could not say NO when someone asked her for help.

Using that characteristic, to his advantage, he played his game well. Always acting as if he cared bout her n her well being but at the same time, tricking her to do little things for him like correcting his work or helping with his assignments..

Nevertheless, there came one fine day when she saw his true face behind the mask he used to disguise himself..

And thus began his downfall.

Not only did she confront him but she made sure almost everyone in his circle of acquaintance knew his true color. Abashed and ashamed that his true color was now no longer a secret, the guy took to confinement. He started separating himself from the others not being able to face them.

But like the saying that goes, old habits die hard, he decided to come back with a new trick up his sleeves. This time the objective was not girls but FAME.

Lol.. Trying to come up with a new niche that spelled PERSONAL GLORY, he once again went back to that girl trying to brag and boast as if he was the only one who could have achieved such great heights.

But again, she proved him wrong. Showing him that he wasn’t the first person to have created that particular niche but others have already done so. When she substantiated her stand with proof, it was the final straw for him.

He couldn’t stand that someone he thought was so gullible and could have been eating out of his hands actually proved to be a tough match, thwarting him time and again.

So what else could he do to save that tiny weeny lil bit of self respect and ego he had?

Resolve to calling her names, of course…

Hahaha.. Poor poor guy.. Not only did he lack in maturity and conscience, but he was seriously deprived of a properly functioning brain… Hopefully, he finds one ASAP if he wants to save himself from further ignominies.

*chuckles*

P/S :- If ya’ll wondering who is that fellow, than here’s a clue:-

If ya smart, decode it.. hehehe…

After all, life is full of suprises and magic... :P

*giggles*

*Of eGo N FooLishNeSS*

2008-08-20T14:01:00.008+08:00

 ObSeSSiOn 

From a couch potato to a storybook-holic…Moving to Hand phone-crazy and than an IRC-junkie, you name it, I have been ADDICTED to it…

Well, guess the latest addiction to make to the TOP 10 LIST OF CHRONIC ADDICTION is Editing Photos Using My Hand phone…

Whoever knew that hand phones can be such a marvel.. lol actually I guess at the pace of our world today, everyone knows.. BUT and this is a BIG BUT, I never explored the options my darling Nokia N73 offered until one boring lecture day..

*grins*

It was such a marvel to see what a few clicks can do to enhance a picture… And thus ignited the spark to edit n modify pictures.. Sometimes even making movies…So much so, it helped a great deal when it came to my English assignment…

*giggles*

gracias Nokie peeps…

Some of the best edited pics that I like are…

SketChiNg DurInG BuSiNeSS LaW LeCtuRe...

WheN I wAs SuPPoSeDLy DoInG MeRa HoMeWorK...

TeStinG My HaNdWriTinG... MeRa DarLinG BaBiEs..

UiTM MeMoRieS...

And last but not least, the GRAND FINALE...

The ViDeO We DiD For My EngLisH AssIgnMeNt PreSenTatIOn....

I suppose it was all those fooling around creating mini muvee (that's how they spell it in my hand phone) that led to actually creating a proper short movie for my presentation... Guess i's a COOL ObSeSSioN after all.. :P *grins*

*A PicTuRe SpeaKs 1000 WoRdS*

2008-08-13T14:03:00.003+08:00

∫ The THREE WorDs PsychoLogy ∫

TribuTe To fLaMe..

I LoveD You???

I HatE You...

It is OVER!!!

I've MOVED On …

I'm OveR You!!!

I've ForGotteN You…

Who aRe YoU???

PLeaSe FuCk oFF!!!

*May YoU GeT ThE MuCh NeeDeD BraInS ASAP*

2008-07-03T21:31:00.001+08:00

…VISCISSITUDE…

Walking down the road, she could see her destination closer n closer with each step taken…She swelled in happiness, after all this is what she had wanted ever since she entered high school… Now, all her dreams and patience of waiting for 7 years would finally come to a reality…“Thank you, god!” she uttered..

Her legs ached, transmitting a message to her brain, begging her to stop. But she couldn’t do that. Not after all she had gone through. Just a few more steps and she would be there. She cajoled her legs, which had seemed to take a strong stand n refused to even budge a lil..

Gosh, come on guys, you can do this. As she stood there, persuading her body and legs to step forward, suddenly there was a bind of light.

Startled, she looked up to c what had caused such a blinding radiance.

OH NO!!! NOT THAT!!!

No no no.. this wasn’t happening to her.. not after the long road thaqt she had painstakingly taken. Please someone something just do anything, she cried helplessly but in vain. Her voice was drowned by that light which had now seemed to pick up the momentum, coming at her direct on with a loud piercing noise.

She knew that if she didn’t do something now, she would be drowned and pushed of course, back to the beginning of the road. She was not gonna give up without a fight. Why did she have to go through this, after all the sacrifices and rock bottom ends that she had painstakingly endured.

GO AWAY, BIG BAD MONSTER!!! This time I am not gonna give in without a fight, she yelled. Finally it was the time of showdown. She stood there, standing right at the monster, looking at him right in the eye.

WHY me? Don’t u have any other person to pick on???,” she asked. Despite the intrepid look that she had put on, she herself could sense fear creeping inside her.

The SOURCE of ALL looked down at her. “MONSTER??? YOU CALL ME A MONSTER???”, the booming voice of IT made her retreat a few steps, yet she held her poise.

Well, what else do you call someone who not only destroys one’s hopes and dreams, but also pushes the person back to the start of the journey??? Don’t tell me you expected a better name?”, she snorted, sarcasm starting to rear its head…

HAHAHA… Oh come on gal. After all the slacking and warily wasting time, even you cant deny that you were not expecting my arrival. So stop with the drama and be prepared for this time, the impact is even greater than you can imagine, darling…

“But.. but…”, she stammered. I know I had my shortcomings, but now, im a changed person. You know im working hard to improve things. So, what bout giving me another chance? Please even you know what is at stake here. All I ask is for a lil humanity from your part and I promise I won’t disappoint you.

“TOO LATE!!!” came the booming voice once again. So, just close your eyes and prepare for this journey. But remember, life doesn’t end hear. Just think that this road was never meant for you. And now, for the moment…

OH MY GOD!!! This wasn’t happening to her.. All she needed was one more chance. Just one tiny weeny lil chance and everything could be rectified. Please please pleaseeeee she wailed.. But….

The big black monster swept her off her feet, dragging her back to the start of the journey. All her tears and pleading fell on deaf ears.

When she opened her eyes, she found herself back from the point she started. She cried and cried cursing her fate and luck. But when all the sorrow came out and there were no more tears to shed, she started thinking over what the monster had told her. She looked around and saw that even though she was at the start of the road once again, her surroundings weren’t that bad.

Even more, she realized, just beside the road that she had traveled, there was another road. That was weird. Never did she see other roads the earlier time. Hmmm…

Well, the monster was right. The road she traveled wasn’t meant for her. And in the journey called LIFE, when one road closed, there is always another road to travel.

She got up, picked herself up and walked towards the other road. This time, she told herself, she would take it slow and steady. While she promised to work even harder to reach her destination-SUCCESS, she would not let other things influence her. After all, she was lucky to be given a second chance. Although the chance was not what she had imagined earlier, but making the most out of it would be the wisest thing to do. This VICISSITUDE had been an eye opener.

Off she went, down a new road of life, once again aiming for the destination known as SUCCESS and this time, strongly determined never to let the MONSTER LAZINESS or his twin brother LIL MONSTER SLACKER to even get anywhere near her…

*there’s always a 2nd chance*

2008-06-29T01:33:00.001+08:00

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