--DeLeTinG SpRee--

Click the X…Click Yes.. n POOF!!! It”s GONE!!!

How easy to delete rite?

YES???

Well, NOOOO!!!!!!!

Adding a friend in your Friendster list is easy but deleting a bunch of them takes a whole lot of time and PATIENCE…

But someone’s gotta do it at some point aite..

Hence began my deleting spree…

After almost 3 hours plus, I finally filtered my friendster’s friend list from almost 700 to 189 people NOW…

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Its better to know who is in ur list rather than just add for the sake of it..

*pets my poor tired fingers*

O Baking Feat!!! O

I BAKED A CAKE!!!!

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Really really I did bake a banana cake.. Well, it was not 100% my work but still, I did the most of it.. After pestering mum for like 2 whole days (she never liked me in the kitchen, thanks to my CULINERY SKILLS), she finally succumbed and took me to buy the ingredients..

I bought everything except for the bananas…What to do aite, I aint experienced… lol.. So, the plan had to be postponed to the next day..

After buying the bananas, I got down to work..

Almost 40 minutes of beating and mixing the flour, finally the cake was ready to be baked… Oh yeah, my mum helped to prepare the batter too..

*giggles*

It was all up to the oven and my darling cake.. 1 hour later, the product was :-

*Skips happily*

It looked reallyyyyyyyyyyy good…

And then I remembered :-

Sean Paul :- Cutieeeeeee I want chocolate cake…

When uncle asks, sure I’ll bake for him.. But I haven’t really learned chocolate cake yet.. So, for now, its banana cake first k, uncle..

Bon appetite!!!

*yum yum yum*

--Tagged by KhiruL--

Here I am, innocently reading blogs when I just realized that Khirul has a set of Q n A and the best part is, I’m tagged to answer it..(gracias Khi).. Just hope it’s the right tagged post :P

*giggles*

Anyway this is my version of the Answers… :P

If I could vote for the US Presidential Election (Nov 4th 2008)... Obama has my vote…Simply coz, he has the “presidential look”.. lol My favorite drink is.. Milo ais from the milo van… Ideally, my life after graduation.. Get on the earliest flight to Hollywood and search for Johnny Depp before tying the knot with him and ill live happily ever after like Cinderella….

But realistically.. I’ll be working my ass off, trying to earn money, climb up the career ladder and at the same time, continue my masters n doctorate..

The color of my.. hair is black + blonde +copper brown + reddish brown + light brown + a lil streaks of normal brown and white (sadly)

If I weren't in college.. I’d be off to india to find either Kamal/Maddy or Vishal to get married and settle down as an Indian Princess… *giggles**

When men reach their hands down to 'fix the parking'.. It sends a huge WARNING sign… -à Move 10 steps away from him… But when women fix their bras.. Someone’s gotta do it at some time.. Best do it before it creates even more revealing @ ignominy

I go to the gym.. when the moon turns blue.. The most disturbing movie I've seen is..

A list of horror movies… I can never watch a horror movie.. it gives me sleepless nights and headaches the next morning.. poor poor me :P With a dollar.. Ill but myself a packet of choki-choki.. yum yum

With 10 dollars.. I’ll reload my digi/maxis hp.. both lines are in desperate need of a top-up.. :P Girls open their mouths when they apply mascara because.. no idea.. never applied nor observed anyone wearing mascara YET…but maybe its because they wanna c how will they eye lashes look when they are kissing…

*You ask and I ShaLL aNsweR*

Predictable…Hmm… When???

Ever reached an end of a road that u never thought would have an end? Even worst, if the end was abrupt and came out of no where??? Lol.. Well, in that case, can you imagine how one might feel when reaching that specific stop? Confused? Devastated? Or just plain shock? I gotta say, it’s a mixture of all the three and even more…

“Life is unpredictable”. That’s one hackneyed cliché that no matter how many times or how often you use it, the meaning remains untainted.. But as unpredictable as it is, one question that boggle my mind is, at what point of life does the unpredictability turns to predictable??? In a better way, at what juncture can you start trusting someone?

I guess, even Hitler nor Bill Gates can answer that query.. What more a simpleton, still in the midst of her adolescence like me come up with an answer for that million dollar question…

However, being an adolescent doesn’t make me INCAPABLE or like many like to say, IMMATURED to discuss this question. Simply because, I have had my share of the cake when it came to TRUST…

Knowing a person for a year long before trusting him with your deepest secrets, dreams and going on step further with your life, only to see that person walk away, turning his back at you, dashing all those dreams and trust, would have surely taught me a lesson. Even I thought I would be more wary of who I mixed and specifically trusted.. But no no no, I just had to go on trusting people.

Call it a good character or my downfall, I just cant help but trust people. So much so, people tend to take me for granted. And at some point of life, when I finally decide to retaliate, they just cant take it. Talk about a fair world..

*sigh*

The list of people in this list just goes on and on… from fLaMe, to Big-B than iLLusIonS followed by SmartyPants.. it just keeps on growing. Nevertheless, the one thing that bewilders me is, how different each of them has betrayed my trust.. Each one in its own way, but each leaving an impact or should I say teaching me an experience that HOPEFULLY prepares me for the future..

*shrugs*

Out of all the various breaking up reasons, I think the one reason that tops the list of the MOST WEIRDEST REASON would be :-

“I got involved in a gang fight and accidentally stabbed someone. He is in a very critical state and im on the run. The cops are after me. I cant even talk on the phone coz they are tabbing my line”

For heaven sake, grow up! The cops in Malaysia have better things to do than get embroiled in a goose chase behind some petty criminal like u. Criminal you are, but not a murdered. Criminal coz u murdered people’s hearts but as far as I know, that doesn’t entitle you for a life long sentence now, does it fLaMe?

So the next time you wanna come up with a reason, use that coconut head of yours coz you end up making a fool out of yourself.

The worst part is, it’s been 1 and a half year since this SCENARIO took place, but I can never seem to erase it out of my mind. Talk bout superglue. I think my brain works way better than UHU when it comes to remembering stuff like this…

One would have thought I knew better than trust an XY again but nah, I just had to make a complete fool out of myself again. This time, in the form of Big-B. A whole new relationship (bro-sis ß make it online bro-sis) and to make matters worst, I had to get my best fren involved.. (no matter how many sorry’s or talk thrashing we do, I can never forgive myself for pulling her into this)

Big-B’s reasons for breaking up with my best buddy :-

To Nagma :- I have to concentrate on my career. I cant get married until I buy a BMW..

To Me :- Her character is very difficult la, aunty. She needs me to be there all the time. She loses temper and even scolded my office staff. Difficult la aunty.

To Sean Paul :- She asked me not to call or sms her again la bro.

Three various reasons to three different people, all just to explain one bloody mistake. Would class acting, aite. In case the tamil cinema runs out of story writers or even actors, they know who to ask now..

Almost three years knowing Big-B, not in my wildest dream did I imagine him succumbing to such cheap tricks. The trust and praises I had for him :-

“Dei, if there’s one person who knows the meaning of love, than it is tata la.. He is one of the people I trust the most”.

Hahahaha… How stupid of me…

Big-B, next time you decide to come up with a story to cover your acts, the least you can do is get it standardized. Only then will it take a little more time and effort to see right through your lies.

As for iLLusIOnS, that’s a whole different story for ya. Until I met iLLusIonS, never did I know that you have to flirt and cheat someone just to get them to help you. Weird ideology but according to him, it works.. What can I say, I was the guinea pig who tested out the hypothesis of that theory and in case any of you are eager to try it out, let me assure you that you can be guaranteed of a 90% success.. (the 10% depends on how well you can flirt and cloy your way around)

Lol.. The more I ponder bout this, the more worked up I get but trying to erase this whole thing from my hard disk in my brain seems like a Herculean task.

Bak kata pepatah, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih, I think at some point in life, I would have to forgive (ya right) this jerks and move on.. But for now,

let me have a gala time bitching and talk thrashing this people. After all, compared to the damages they have done, this is miniscule..

*giggles*

*Trusting Homosapiens remains a DreaM*

FreaKy FriDay aLa sHaMz’s VerSioN

1.00am :- Sean Paul (SP) calls me and gives the bad news :- the PLAN back fired thanks to some unpredictable people.. Sad to hear, after all the high hopes we had. Anyway since it was already late, the convo was brief and I told him i’ll come online in the morning for the 411 on the story..

2.30am :- Messaged Nagma and told her briefly that the than backfired and will update her bout it tomorrow..

2.36am :- Nagma (being the usual kaypo… hehehe) msg’s back asking for the higlights at least..

3am :- Messaged her a short description of what happened and promised to get back to her in the morning

9am :- Suprisingly woke up early and the first thing to do :- LOG ON IRC… Only to find a memo telling me off… Well if getting a reprimanding memo from a stranger is disturbing, think again.. If only I had any inkling of what was waiting for me.. but nah, there was more waiting specially for me..

10.15am :- Nagma calls and we start our usual “updating” (this is how she phrases it. I call it analyzing the important points.. hehe)

Now comes the surprise :-

10.45am :- THE Big-B calls Nagma. Imagine that. *shrugs*

Nagma:- “ Sham.. Sham.. the Big-B is calling me.. Aiyo what am I to do la? *freaks*

Me :- Huh? Calling you? Acho.. Never mind answer la.. See what he has to say…

Nagma :- Sham, ill answer and call u back k..

10.52am :- Got impatient waiting for her to call back. So i gave her a ring only to find my call waiting. After a few tries, she answered but spoke in a rush.

Nagma :- Shammmmmm… He is shouting la.. Scolding you to the max. Wanna come to your house all.. Wait wait he is calling back..

Me :- Huh.. Oi.. Wei What??

And the line goes dead…

10.54am :- Calles Sean Paul and freaks out..I mean seriously, I cannot imagine the Big-B standing in front my house aite.. *shudders at the mere thought of it*.. Lol.. Imagine my parents’ reaction… Sean Paul tries to calm me down when I get a call from another person.. thinking its Nagma calling back, I hang up only to find some other dufus calling at the wrong time.

11.10am :- Checks my other phone and finds a miss call from The Big-B.. Well its always wise to face problems head on rather than beat around the bush aites.. SO, poor shamzy calls Big-B back, hoping to clear the air but what I received was something totally unexpected…

11.20am – 12.30pm :- The UNFORGETTABLE CONVERSATION

A few highlights from it were :-

The call started by Big-B shouting profanities non-stop for easily 10 minutes… The entire scolding speech (or karangan like how Sean Paul calls is) was only interjected by my occasional unfinished sentences like – “But, let me… Can I pls…You have to hear me…”

When Big-B finally decided to hear me out, I did my best trying to tell him why I had to succumb to the plan.. it was a retribution for what he did to Nagma and also for taking me for granted, always thinking he could say anything and I would belief…

Anyway with Big-B, admitting mistake was a mere dream.. Thus, it was scolding me over n over again, with his side of the story.. Anyway before we could reach to a consensus, my parents came back and I had to hang up.

1pm-5pm :- My worst ever car ride to Kampar.. Nagma was smsing me while I sat in the car, totally blank. Never did I expect things to blow out of proportion in such a major way. All I wanted to do was to go back to my room and call Nagma ASAP..

6pm :- My parents sent me back and left to Penang. It was raining heavily and the line in my room was really bad. So I had to come out to the porch to talk to Nagma. As we were busy doing a post-mortem on the whole issue, I felt something at the back of my neck. Brushing it away, I found a huge bee on the floor. Gosh, if only I had not brushed it away.. *sigh*

6.45pm :- Finish talking to Nagma and went inside my room. Sat on the bad and Lo n Behold, I felt a sharp stinging pain right above my ankle. Trust me, it was stinging to the max. Waking up, I found the stupid farking bee had actually crept inside my pants near the ankle and waited to sting me.. With the stinging leg, I called my parents who were even more shocked to hear. Since there were no clinics near by and I OBVIOSLY didn’t know what to do ( I have never been stung by a bee before) they decided to turn back.

7pm :- Locked my room and limped my way to the stairs. Stupid bee was still in my room. Sat and waited there for my parents to come.

7.15pm :- Called Sean Paul as he was still waiting for my call but couldn’t talk much thanks to the stupid bee who chose the wrong victim.

8pm :- Still sitting on the stairs waiting for my parents. When I called them, they were already approaching Taiping and had to make a turn back to Kampar…

9 pm :- My parents arrive and dad kills the stupid freaking bee which I hate to the MAX. Putting the bee in a plastic, they took me to the nearest clinic available (bout 25 minutes drive)

9.50pm :- I am told that I need to put an injection since the stung had caused my leg to swell like a balloon. (thank you, stupid bee).

9.55pm :- I enter the doctor’s room and once again, I manage to embarrass myself. I have always had a phobia for injections. So, it was back to the screaming n crying, while the doctor laughed. Poor me.

10.40pm :- Back to my hostel to take my school bag and the things needed for my exam. Yes, my exams started the next day. What a timing rite!

11pm :- Checked into the hotel since it was too late for my parents to drive back.

11.20pm :- Finally, with my balloon sized leg settled on the chair, I opened the book to start studying. Thankfully, it was English for Business paper. Imagine if it had been Business Law or QT.

P/s := Within 45 minutes, my poor feet and ankle became swollen like a balloon.. (pic below)

Talk about an eventful day.. No doubt, this is by far, the one day I can never forget. From bad news to bad scolding to bad bee biting my leg badly, could it get any worst??? 5th September 2008 certainly takes the award for being a totally farked up day… But on the bright side, I learnt a lot…

First being learning the true colors of Big-B and next being the hackneyed lesson – Never procrastinate and keep studying for exam to the very last minute coz we never know hat might happen aite.. *grins*

*Freakishly Freaking Friday*

♫ 7 ThiNgS ♫

Never did I imagine there would be a song that just takes the words out of my brain, add some beats and a dash of music n TADA- it’s an epitome of my life..

*giggles*

so for that, its kudos to Miley Cyrus @ Hannah Montana for the song “7 things”

This song is dedicated to fLaMe.. lol…

p/s :- check out the bold, white lines.. it just fits so perfectly.. :P

7 Things…

I probably shouldn't say this But at times I get so scared When I think about the previous Relationship we shared It was awesome but we lost it It's not possible for me not to care And now we're standing in the rain But nothings ever gonna change Until you hear, my dear The 7 things I hate about you The 7 things I hate about you, oh you You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you It's awkward and silent as I wait for you to say What I need to hear now is your sincere apology When you mean it I'll believe it If you text it I'll delete it Let's be clear Oh I'm not coming back Your taking seven steps here The 7 things I hate about you You're vain Your games You're insecure You love me you like her You made me laugh, you made me cry I don't know which side to buy Your friends they're jerks when you act like them Just know it hurts I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do You make me love you Compared to all the great things That would take too long to write I probably should mention the 7 that I like The 7 things I like about you Your hair Your eyes Your old Levi's When we kiss I'm hypnotized You make me laugh, you make me cry But I guess that's both I'll have to buy Your hands in mine when we're intertwined Everything's alright I want to be with the one I know And the 7th thing I like the most that you do You make me love you You do, oh Oohhhh oooooooooohhh...

Hmm.. on second thoughts, 7 seems too minimal… be it the good or the bad, it just aint sufficient…

But what can I say, half of me just advocates to c only the good part but the devilish side is on a journey to cancel out every single good thought n spawn nothing but all the bad characteristics..

Anyway, back to the main point, this songs totally rawks…not to forget, its so apt with what I feel…

Thus, its my choice of song for the month of September..

*seven aint enough*

-- A GuY I KnoW --

There was once a guy I know who had this radiating flirtatious aura around him. Everywhere he went, he conquered the place with his flirting manner. Although he conquered many hearts especially the hearts of the same species like him, but during the process many other hearts were broken too..

But was he bothered??? NAHHH…

The guys looked up at him simply because of his gift of gab when it came to lies.. He could wriggle his way out of any sticky situations with never ending string of lies. The XY Species was one hell of a proud of him. After all, why shouldn’t they be??? He was like a guru who thought them the art of breaking women’s hearts…

As for the women, they shuddered at the mere thought of him, let alone talk bout him.. Such were his legacy…

Now, there is this saying that a pride comes before a fall..

While some people believed in it, this guy dismissed it. After all, he was the King of Queens. He has a well tested strategy when it came to playing with woman.

“Been there, done that and I ain’t gonna get caught” ß- that was his motto of life…

But his downfall came in the form of a girl who had had her own share of flirting guys who always showered her with nothing but cloying fabrications..

He was a flirt.. She was a girl. Can I make anything more obvious???

Without wasting a split second, he tried his maneuvers on her. Starting off with the usual sweet words and than moving on to act like he cared about her..

Now the one drawback here was the girl was just in the process of recuperating from her break up with her ex-bf. Seeing that this guy was actually her ex-bf’s friend and that he seemed to look like he really cared, she welcomed his help and caring words with open hands..

But who ever knew that the guy was even worst than her playboy bf. He was an incurable flirt addicted to flirting..

However, one notable thing bout him was he was a smart guy who knew how to move his pawns.. He realized that the girl was gullible being in that state of mind and also that she could not say NO when someone asked her for help.

Using that characteristic, to his advantage, he played his game well. Always acting as if he cared bout her n her well being but at the same time, tricking her to do little things for him like correcting his work or helping with his assignments..

Nevertheless, there came one fine day when she saw his true face behind the mask he used to disguise himself..

And thus began his downfall.

Not only did she confront him but she made sure almost everyone in his circle of acquaintance knew his true color. Abashed and ashamed that his true color was now no longer a secret, the guy took to confinement. He started separating himself from the others not being able to face them.

But like the saying that goes, old habits die hard, he decided to come back with a new trick up his sleeves. This time the objective was not girls but FAME.

Lol.. Trying to come up with a new niche that spelled PERSONAL GLORY, he once again went back to that girl trying to brag and boast as if he was the only one who could have achieved such great heights.

But again, she proved him wrong. Showing him that he wasn’t the first person to have created that particular niche but others have already done so. When she substantiated her stand with proof, it was the final straw for him.

He couldn’t stand that someone he thought was so gullible and could have been eating out of his hands actually proved to be a tough match, thwarting him time and again.

So what else could he do to save that tiny weeny lil bit of self respect and ego he had?

Resolve to calling her names, of course…

Hahaha.. Poor poor guy.. Not only did he lack in maturity and conscience, but he was seriously deprived of a properly functioning brain… Hopefully, he finds one ASAP if he wants to save himself from further ignominies.

*chuckles*

P/S :- If ya’ll wondering who is that fellow, than here’s a clue:-

If ya smart, decode it.. hehehe…

After all, life is full of suprises and magic... :P

*giggles*

*Of eGo N FooLishNeSS*

 ObSeSSiOn 

From a couch potato to a storybook-holic…Moving to Hand phone-crazy and than an IRC-junkie, you name it, I have been ADDICTED to it…

Well, guess the latest addiction to make to the TOP 10 LIST OF CHRONIC ADDICTION is Editing Photos Using My Hand phone…

Whoever knew that hand phones can be such a marvel.. lol actually I guess at the pace of our world today, everyone knows.. BUT and this is a BIG BUT, I never explored the options my darling Nokia N73 offered until one boring lecture day..

*grins*

It was such a marvel to see what a few clicks can do to enhance a picture… And thus ignited the spark to edit n modify pictures.. Sometimes even making movies…So much so, it helped a great deal when it came to my English assignment…

*giggles*

gracias Nokie peeps…

Some of the best edited pics that I like are…

SketChiNg DurInG BuSiNeSS LaW LeCtuRe...

WheN I wAs SuPPoSeDLy DoInG MeRa HoMeWorK...

TeStinG My HaNdWriTinG... MeRa DarLinG BaBiEs..

UiTM MeMoRieS...

And last but not least, the GRAND FINALE...

The ViDeO We DiD For My EngLisH AssIgnMeNt PreSenTatIOn....

I suppose it was all those fooling around creating mini muvee (that's how they spell it in my hand phone) that led to actually creating a proper short movie for my presentation... Guess i's a COOL ObSeSSioN after all.. :P *grins*

*A PicTuRe SpeaKs 1000 WoRdS*

∫ The THREE WorDs PsychoLogy ∫

TribuTe To fLaMe..

I LoveD You???

I HatE You...

It is OVER!!!

I've MOVED On …

I'm OveR You!!!

I've ForGotteN You…

Who aRe YoU???

PLeaSe FuCk oFF!!!

*May YoU GeT ThE MuCh NeeDeD BraInS ASAP*

…VISCISSITUDE…

Walking down the road, she could see her destination closer n closer with each step taken…She swelled in happiness, after all this is what she had wanted ever since she entered high school… Now, all her dreams and patience of waiting for 7 years would finally come to a reality…“Thank you, god!” she uttered..

Her legs ached, transmitting a message to her brain, begging her to stop. But she couldn’t do that. Not after all she had gone through. Just a few more steps and she would be there. She cajoled her legs, which had seemed to take a strong stand n refused to even budge a lil..

Gosh, come on guys, you can do this. As she stood there, persuading her body and legs to step forward, suddenly there was a bind of light.

Startled, she looked up to c what had caused such a blinding radiance.

OH NO!!! NOT THAT!!!

No no no.. this wasn’t happening to her.. not after the long road thaqt she had painstakingly taken. Please someone something just do anything, she cried helplessly but in vain. Her voice was drowned by that light which had now seemed to pick up the momentum, coming at her direct on with a loud piercing noise.

She knew that if she didn’t do something now, she would be drowned and pushed of course, back to the beginning of the road. She was not gonna give up without a fight. Why did she have to go through this, after all the sacrifices and rock bottom ends that she had painstakingly endured.

GO AWAY, BIG BAD MONSTER!!! This time I am not gonna give in without a fight, she yelled. Finally it was the time of showdown. She stood there, standing right at the monster, looking at him right in the eye.

WHY me? Don’t u have any other person to pick on???,” she asked. Despite the intrepid look that she had put on, she herself could sense fear creeping inside her.

The SOURCE of ALL looked down at her. “MONSTER??? YOU CALL ME A MONSTER???”, the booming voice of IT made her retreat a few steps, yet she held her poise.

Well, what else do you call someone who not only destroys one’s hopes and dreams, but also pushes the person back to the start of the journey??? Don’t tell me you expected a better name?”, she snorted, sarcasm starting to rear its head…

HAHAHA… Oh come on gal. After all the slacking and warily wasting time, even you cant deny that you were not expecting my arrival. So stop with the drama and be prepared for this time, the impact is even greater than you can imagine, darling…

“But.. but…”, she stammered. I know I had my shortcomings, but now, im a changed person. You know im working hard to improve things. So, what bout giving me another chance? Please even you know what is at stake here. All I ask is for a lil humanity from your part and I promise I won’t disappoint you.

“TOO LATE!!!” came the booming voice once again. So, just close your eyes and prepare for this journey. But remember, life doesn’t end hear. Just think that this road was never meant for you. And now, for the moment…

OH MY GOD!!! This wasn’t happening to her.. All she needed was one more chance. Just one tiny weeny lil chance and everything could be rectified. Please please pleaseeeee she wailed.. But….

The big black monster swept her off her feet, dragging her back to the start of the journey. All her tears and pleading fell on deaf ears.

When she opened her eyes, she found herself back from the point she started. She cried and cried cursing her fate and luck. But when all the sorrow came out and there were no more tears to shed, she started thinking over what the monster had told her. She looked around and saw that even though she was at the start of the road once again, her surroundings weren’t that bad.

Even more, she realized, just beside the road that she had traveled, there was another road. That was weird. Never did she see other roads the earlier time. Hmmm…

Well, the monster was right. The road she traveled wasn’t meant for her. And in the journey called LIFE, when one road closed, there is always another road to travel.

She got up, picked herself up and walked towards the other road. This time, she told herself, she would take it slow and steady. While she promised to work even harder to reach her destination-SUCCESS, she would not let other things influence her. After all, she was lucky to be given a second chance. Although the chance was not what she had imagined earlier, but making the most out of it would be the wisest thing to do. This VICISSITUDE had been an eye opener.

Off she went, down a new road of life, once again aiming for the destination known as SUCCESS and this time, strongly determined never to let the MONSTER LAZINESS or his twin brother LIL MONSTER SLACKER to even get anywhere near her…

*there’s always a 2nd chance*