DawDy OutFit + TripS To MaLL = Major MisFit

Mum :- Sham, please change your clothes and hurry up. Appa will be waiting..

Me :- No need to change la Mummy... Just to go n pick up also wanna change ah? Im only sitting outside the airport rite?

Mum :- Still, change la.. At least change your tshirt.. Don't wear sleeping tshirt all and follow me.. 

Me : Ish.. no need la.. Nobody's gonna see me.. 

Note to Myself :- Next time, listen when mummy asks to change... Stop being lazy and stubbotn, sham...

After dropping Arrwin in tuition, we went to pick up my dad who then, suggested we go and have dinner... 

*checks my clothes* <-- Still acceptable to eat in mamak shops... 

Dad :- Where you all wanna eat? Arrwin's tuition's finishing at what time???

Mum :- 10pm only.. Now still early...

Dad :- You wanna go back home and come back ah? No need la..Go to Queensbay..Can eat and kill time there...

Me :- Yeah la mummy, we'll go to Queensbay.. Long time since i when...

Mum :- But you're wearing like this??? That's why i told you to change rite...

And that's when reality struck me right on my face!!!

ALERT ALERT!!! Sleeping tshirt and shorts with slippers to Queensbay???? Ahhh SHAM, majot majot fashion alert....

Well, to be truthful, i dont really mind going out like that.. It's way more comfy but i wished i had worn at least a more presentable tshirt than the self-tiedyed-old tshirt i had on...

Seeing that it was my mum's bday and dad just came back from his lecture, both of them had nice clothes on..

So, it was Sham being the LONE RANGER in PLANET DRESS DAWDY!!!

In Queensbay Mall

Then came the BEST PART... We finished our dinner and we had to "tapau" food for Arrwin.. This means, it was down to me to carry the plastic bag..  

As if one pink plastic bag filled with styrefoam wasnt's enough, my dad had to buy pizza and there went my right hand, carrying that bag as well..

Poor poor me.. *pets myself*

Walking in Queensbay, beside my mum who was wearing some new clothes, looking so dressed down, hair also tak sikat, with plastic bags in both my hands... The fact that my mum was laughing didnt help either...

Even more humiliating was when it was time to go back and we had to take the escalator..

I CANNOT TAKE THE ESCALATOR!!!

I AM SUFFERING FROM ESCALATOR-O-PHOBIA!!!

Me :- Mummy, come this side la..The life is there...

Dad :- The escalator is here.. Where are you two going?

Mummy :- She wants to take the life...

Dad :- Shamini you have to learn to use the escalator. Don't act stupid...

Me :- *blushing like a red tomato* 

Well, all the scoldings in the world can never help me overcome my escalator-0-phobia.. So, it was back to the lift..

In the car

Dad :- She must learn la. Its all in the mind.. *bla bla bla*  And please ah, learn to way something more decent when you come out of the house..

OPPS!!! There goes my day.... *sigh*

*Fashion Police, ARREST ME!!!*

zz--WeiRd DreaMs--zz

Exams freak me out.. What more final exams but this time there was something even more weirder that even my Weird-O-Meter cant seem to scale.. I've had a string of weird dreams incessantly for the past 4 days just before my exams..

Dream 1 :-

Actor Surya was in my house.. hahaha.. n the best part was, we were like standing beside each other, his hands around my waist n vice versa.. he was clad in some olive green shirt with a ripped blue jeans.. And the best part was, we were standing in front of his dad, laughing... And somehow, the next scene was like I'm in my room searching for that autograph book and my camera to take a picture for my best fren n by the time i come out of the room, he's settled in my couch watching tv.. But, and this is a big but, by the time i was able to get a picture, my aunt woke me up.. *sob sob* And the weird part is, i'm not ever a Surya's fan... hmmmm...

Dream 2 :-

All i can remember is seing this VVIP of Malaysia being shot dead and lying on the bathroom floor.. There was like this huge pool of blood around his head and he was wearing a three piece suit.. And than there was his wife, and she was wearing this purple color baju kurung, sobbing.. Some guy was carrying an umbrella over her head and i dont think it was even raining.. Anyway the thing was, she was telling the press that she wants to remarry the VVIP's brother so that she wouldnt lose her post as a 1st Lady or sthing like that... And once again, i woke up... *sigh*

Dream 3 :-

I had a dream that my phone was ringing and it was an old friend's number.. The weird thing was that number was no longer in service... By the time i answered, the phone stopped ringing.. I wonder what would have been if i had actually answered the phone...

Dream 4 :-

This has gotta be the effect of doing Accounts i s'pose coz i dreamt i was on the phone with fLaMe n the funniest part was he was teaching me Accounts over the phone.. All i can remember was he asking me to put a certain amount and try to balance and I'm like arguing that the amount is wrong or something.. And then he tells me that i would have to pay him or something for his teaching.. Neway the details are kinda vague but that's pretty much one of the weirdest dream i had seing that i aint even in talking terms with fLaMe..

*smacks*

Thats why dad says :- eat less at night and mum's perception is :- stop dozing off in front the television..

But again, if my dreams are these "interesting", why change? Who knows, someday i might be able to produce a movie based on Dreams or in some far-fetched reality, write a book like JK Rowlings..

*giggles*

Aww, enough of DAY dreaming, gal..

Get back to DreamLand... Opps i mean SnoozyLand..... Adiozzzz....

*zzzzzzzzzzz*

bLoGGinG :- a CriMe???

He :- Hey, I wanna ask you a something... What did you tell B-True?

She :- What??? I never said anything.. Why???

He :- Then how does he know that we met? He's telling me in detail. Ish you ah...

She:- Hello hello wait... I never said anything to anyone.. Why on earth will i go and tell him.. The only thing i did was to blog about it..

He :- (2-3 minutes of non stop accusations)

She :- Wei, please think and c... What do i get by telling him? i dont even talk to him... Wait, i'll ask him...

He :- No need to ask anything all.. Ish.. Just go and delete your blog la.. Bye..

She :- Fine.. Im sorry... Bye...

*Sends B-True a sms*

Excuse me, How do you know that i met fLaMe? Did i tell you anything? Coz ur brother says that i told you and as far as i know, i dont even talk to you.. So, how do you know what happened???

*Within 5 minutes, B-True Calls*

B-True :- Hello, what sms did you send me ah? You think i have no work ah??? Wanna talk about fLaMe and u for what? Lo Please la.. I have better things to do.. *bla bla bla* (rambles on for about 1 minute)

She :- Wait wait... I never accused you of anything. Im just wondering how u know.. I never told u anything and yet your brother's accusing me of telling you everything... That's why i'm asking. Dont shout.. Just tell...

(5- 6 minutes of arguing)

She :- Fine... I just wanted to know how u knew but since you're saying that you didn't say anything, ok than.. Thanks a lot.. Bye...

(ends the call)

Conclusion :-

Either fLaMe Or B-True is lying but the best part is, the victim of the day is none other than :- HER!!!... lol this is what i call buta dot com kes.. *sigh*

*Gemini Chatz*

What on the world just happened? Looks like blogging about what i feel is such a big mistake!!!

Nah, gal! It aint wrong. It's just that SOME PEOPLE cannot take face the fire when THEIR TRUE COLOR comes to light...

But, what if it has got to do with me? I'm suppose to bottle up whatever i feel just to safe their face??? That's absurd. This is my blog, after all...

Well, I know and you know that.. But, do others know???

You know, i dont even reveal identitities.. For heaven's sake, i use pseudonyms dammit.. What's so wrong with that????

Oi, are you that blur??? Havent you heard of the proverb " siapa makan lada, dia terasa pedas"??? Apply babez apply all thos BM lessons u took...

Well, im speechless... All i did was to blog what i felt and now, im the one to be blamed... Could life get any worse???

Well, babez.. Life aint fair... Just chill and follow the flow k.. All's well will end well...

Really? So you mean to say that time would mend all and everything would be back to normal???

Nah, i was just kidding... Life's a total b#tch... And no, nothing returns to normal.. You just have to make the best out of every situation you land... *laughs sarcastically*

*blog... blogging... blogged....*

-- Last Year's TRICK--

The Beginning :-

SmS at 11.50pm, 31st March 2008

Im sorry to bother you but i need a favour. Are you free tomorrow? I need to go to the JPA's office in Putrajaya. I'll reach Pudu Bus Stop in the morning. Can you pls pick me up and send me there?

Within seconds, he calls her....

But, she declines the call...

He calls her again...

She declines...

She replies with a sms:- 11.58pm-ish...31st March 2008...

I'll call you in 5 minutes and explain the details k...

The Climax :-

Call at 12.03am-ish,1st Aprl 2008

She :- Hey flame...So, how? ur free?

He :- Yeah, im free.. What time do you need to be there?

She :- About 8am.. Can ah?

He :- Can... But, i need to send my brother about 7.30am.. So, ill sent u first to Putrajaya.. Than, ill go back n sent my brother before coming and picking you up again... Is that ok?

She :- Sure, no problem.. But you're sure its not a problem for you? Coz i don't wanna trouble you la pa..

He :- No la.. No problem..

She :- Thank you so much.. And one more thing, lol.. HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!! hahahaa.. i was just kidding.. i aint coming to KL all..

He :- Huh.. Wei.... aiyoooo...

*giggles*

So fast, a year has passed.. and once again, its 11.51pm,31st March 2009...

The only difference is, this time the joke is on her...

*smiles*

And, the best part is, he didnt need to wait for 1st of April to do so...

All he needed to do was to tell her the three letter phrase which she stupidly fell for...

So much for April Fools Day..

As of now, life as a whole had turned out to be a big joke for her....

*shrugs*

*Happy April Fools Day*

Ж-Ж CheRishEd JouRneY WitH fLaMe Ж-Ж

As she stood there, waiting anxiously, she just couldn’t believe what she has just done. Even more, what she was doing at the moment. Here she was, standing in a totally unknown place, waiting for that one person who she swore she would never ever meet in life. Talk about fate!!!

*sigh*

As the minutes crept by, her heart beat started increasing. It was too late to back out now and yet, she was in such a dilemma. How on earth did she get tangled into such a sticky situation? Come to think of it, it was her own big mouth n rash decision that had led to such a situation.

*slaps*

Get a grip and concentrate. It was almost an hour and yet, she was still waiting by the road. Where on earth was fLaMe? Why on earth didn’t he know the meaning of punctuality? Already standing in a totally alien place shocked the daylights out of her, but being alone was even more terrifying.

As she spoke on the phone to her best friend, freaking out and getting excited all at once, she saw a car pass by and stop in front of her. But being so engrossed in the call, she didn’t realize that the person actually came out of the car and stood right beside her.

Holy Sh#t!!! It was fLaMe!!!

*screamssssssssssss*

Hahaha.. It was actually the tiny voice in the brain that was screaming. He was here, by blood flesh, right in front of her.

She :- Hi. Can you park the car and we could just walk there?

He :- Get into the car la.

She :- Hmm.. Can I sit at the back?

He :- Just come n sit in front.

And there she went, sitting right next to him. However, the whole nervousness has seemed to vanish into the thin air. Despite not seeing each other for more than 2 years, it seemed so comfortable being beside him. That was the speciality of fLaMe. He always made her feel so comfortable and herself with him.

On the way to the “destination” , they did exchange a few words. Upon reaching there though, she whose sole intention was to visit his mum, backed out knowing that the entire household was there. I mean, how could she just walk in n face the whole family??? She had to be out of her mind to do so..

*giggles*

Well, cutting the long story short, after like about 20 minutes, they left the place. She thanked him and asked if he could drop her back. But he refused saying that he had something to do but he would come back at bout 10.45pm to see her.

She :- Huh, Why???

He :- Coz I wanna lepak with you la.

She :- Its ok la. You just send me back please.

He :- Ish, just listen to me. I’ll send you to KLCC. They wont close the place till 12 or 1 am. Ill come back by 10.45pm k.

She :- Oi, you want me to wait till 10.45pm alone ah? No need la. Just send me back please

But, somehow, about 25 minutes later, there she was, standing right in front of Kinokuniya in KLCC. As she found a corner to settle down and read a book, she thought of him and the effect he had on her. Somehow, without realizing, she smiled.

fLaMe, her fLaMe…How much she missed him although she just saw him like half an hour ago…

fLaMe.. The guy who belonged to her, or at least she thought belonged to her once upon a time and here they were now, behaving like two friends who had nothing but a sweet friendship all along. How weird and at the same time, how nice…

*sigh*

It was about 8.45pm when he called her.

He :- I’m in front of KLCC already. You come now.

She :- Aiks why so fast?

He :- I’ll send you to my cousin’s house. I don’t feel nice leaving you alone.

She :- Are your cousins with you in the car?

He :- Yeah I still have to go out with them but I’ll leave you in my cousin’s house first k. You can chill there

She :- NO NEED la… I don’t like to go to people’s house all. I rather sit here alone. Its ok you carry on. I’ll get a cab and go back

He :- Don’t talk nonsense. It’s not safe. Fine wait for me till 10.45pm than.

She :- Nevermind its ok. I’ll find my way back

And then they argued and argued…Both trying to convince the other. Finally, they came to an agreement. She would go n watch a movie and he would come and pick her up when it ended.

At 11.40pm :-

She :-Where are you? The movie ended already.

He :- I’m on my way. I’ll be there in 10 minutes.

She :- Hurry up la. I have never waited outside at this time. Scared la.

He :- Wait wait. I’ll be right there

At 12.05am :-

He came and gosh, how glad she felt. Finally, it was safe.. Hallelujahhhh!!!

She :- So, are you sending me back?

He :- Your friends are only coming back at 2am plus rite. I’ll send you back than

She :- So, where are you taking me now?

Thus, began the ride she would never forget in her life.

From one place to another, he drove n drove n drove. All along, she felt so comfortable n yet there were butterflies in her tummy. They talked, laughed, teased, argued and yet, it was all so euphoric.

He took her from one place to another. They stopped to grab a bite and it was so fun to watch him eat. Cute, in fact.

He showed her the place he used to hang out last time, the playground he use to sit n watch people and even the pub he use to chill in.

At some point, he held her hand. And holy shit, if that didn’t feel great but at the same time, she knew that if she didn’t stop it, she would end up falling even more for him than she already had and she didn’t want that to happen.

So, somehow, she managed to free her hand away only to find it once again, in his grasp. Well, since it felt so good and she knew this was only a once in a lifetime chance, she decided to just go along with it.

*chuckles*

However, good times always come to an end real fast, aite.. Same here. It was as if, those two memorable hours just flew by and it was time for him to leave her back.

As she left the car, she couldn’t help wishing that time had just frozen and she could spend the entire day, if not life with him. But again, wishes like that remained as wishes.

He made sure she reached back safe and sound, asking her to message him when he reached.

Seeing fLaMe so caring, only made her heart weep even more. Why would the guy she loved so much but who hurt her so badly seem to be such a lovable, caring sweetheart? Guess, only time can answer that. For now, it’s only those sweet memories that kept her going. If only she could control time….

*WheN ParT Of A DreaM ComEs TruE*

♠♠ The 2009 Calendar Quest ♠♠

“Mika, there’s a Johnny Depp calendar there. Wanna buy ah???

My response :- OBVIOUSLY!!!

Alas, the mere fact that I was not in Penang but in KL at that time and it was already 5pm which means = TRAFFIC and sooo, I have to get going, it meant a big evil “NO” to the calendar.

Thinking that I could still get it in Penang’s MPH, off I went, poor poor me *giggles* with high hopes only to see all those hopes dashed *sob sob* .

Guess, not only Johnny but even his calendars sells like hot cakes. It was out of stock. Despite trying to place an order with KL’s MPH, it was all in vain.

Would I give up?? Hellloo, we’re talking bout Johnny Depp here…

When it comes to Johnny, there’s no such thing as giving up.

Therefore, I set out to do my own calendar. What set out to be a simple calendar turned out to be quite wonderful at last. Even my brother, who at first scorned at the quality of my first attempt (gotta admit, it looked horrible) expressed his compliments when he saw this calendar.

After spending RM30 to refill my ink cartridge only to find out that refilled ink wouldn’t print out the image like I expected and than having to go on a search for any shops that would print color, I finally, FINALLY found one and forked out RM15 for it..

Finally, here I am, the proud owner of my darling Johnny’s home made calendar which cost me RM 45 ++ (the petrol, effort, etc) where else the one in MPH was only RM 36.90.. But the satisfying feeling- Now, that is priceless… lol…

Well, it’s a wonderful start to 2009… *winks*

Here’s a screen shot of my calendar from the month of January to December 2009..

*Aloha 2009*

♣♣ YEAR 2008 :- Short Messaging Services (SMS) Mania ♣♣

This time last year, I probably blogged the longest blog ever..

The REASON???

To put my past behind and start of a new year with hopes and dreams.. But did it work???

The answer is, not at all.. Not only was it not like what I expected, it was so bizarre that it was beyond what I had even dreamed off..

In a good way?? Lol, I wish…

2008 for me is by far the worst year in my life.. Nicknamed “Roller Coaster Year”, I have been at the top n bottom of life that many times until 2008 came along…

But once again, here I am at the waiting for the stroke of midnight, just a few hours before the clock strikes 12 and its New Year once again.

Have I changed?? Maybe…Being a 21 year old, requires a few things from me but on as whole, frankly I know that I,m still hanging on to the thin thread called PAST and refusing to move on..

Why im doing so?? Simply because my heart fails to agree with the brain..

*sigh*

Anyway, for this New Year, its only fair if I reminisce 2008 with the hope that 2009 will be a better year if not the best for me..

So, I’ve decided to read all the SMS (important ones that is) in year 2007 and choose the TOP 10..

Some are so memorable that I can even recall it without even looking at my hp..

*chuckles*

Here goes, from number 10 to 1…

NUMBER 10 :- SMS that kept me wondering wont people ever change…

This message made it to my LIES folder in my handphone and it is from fLaMe on 4/7/08 at 9.40pm..

lol. Hi childish baby don’t worry 4 life long u cannot open ur mouth cz u cant stand on ur own feet J u will stand on my feet while im holding u da. darling

NUMBER 9 :- Probably the best response for a trick I played on my cousin

Sent by Ruben on 20th December 2008 at 12.12pm…

Whateva… I mean ok I will love ya…

NUMBER 8 :- SMS that knocked the daylight out of me…

This comes from fLaMe again at 10.01pm on 4th July 2006 and it is another proud owner of the LIES label…

I eat edy, u darling? If you want this great person 2 feed u, np anytime ready if my athai give permission more better I can feed u n take care of u 4 life long da syg rather than just dream about you in sleep only. Give me reality. darling

NUMBER 7:- SMS that woke me up and yet made me laugh…

PCK sends me this 1.45am on 4th October 2008..

Oh phone is working… good..lol…

NUMBER 6 :- SMS that made me wanna slap the person…

The proud author of this message is Illusions and I received it at 9.44pm on 26th of December 2008.

Woi u take so serious I play play je I talk u take so serious

NUMBER 5 :- The most irritating message (the same message sent to me more than 10 times)

Again, this sms was sent by none other than Illusions for more than 10 times on different days at different times.

On 17th November 2008 at 12.01am

Wanna go clubbing?

On 13th December 2008 at 11.49pm

Wanna go clubbing?

NUMBER 4 :- SMS that I thought was true.. my bad.. Another sms for the LIES folder…

Illusions on 8th December 2008 at 1.27am.

Ok la mungkin I play play wit u kan im sorry hw…

Im sori wat happen last time k..

NUMBER 3 :- SMS or should I say SMSes that I have received from my best friend that despite it was funny or whatsoever, just showed that no matter what, she will always be there for me… This is just the tip of the iceberg... If I start listing all her sms’es, my entire blog wouldn’t be enough. J

At 3.10pm, 29th September 2008 :-

Sham wanna clarify something. Astro is very clear rite nw in my hse..Hw clear it is in ur hse? Any distortion? Lol..

At 2.41pm, 1st October 2008 :-

Shammmm u knw smthg ah? Ystdy my mum cuk mutton..2day she cuk ayam masam merah.so spicy n tasty lah. Den jz cme 2 my grandma hse. Here they cuk nasi briyani n ayam rending. Forcing me 2 eat lah. Anbu tholai lah. Hmm wat kirai u eat 2dy? Wakakaka… Ok ok I wana mkn.. Bye bye..

At 11.37pm, 28th December 2008 :-

Dey vidu vidu.. Dis bloody b*stards al no work 2 do.. Tats y messing up our life..Hmm 4 wat they did 2 sure they will kena teruk teruk in future…Dun worry la dey…

Number 2 :- SMS that made me realize some things and some people can never be changed

SMS by fLaMe at 9.28pm on 5th July 2008

k fine. They ask me y I don’t have gf or hate luv. I told them I don’t hate luv or gf. I already have someone special in my heart n its u.

NUMBER 1 :- The SMS that I can probably never forget in life..

The winner of the number 1 spot is none other than fLaMe for the message sent on 16th December 2008 at 12.56pm

I m sorry pa. its true I don’t send it cz so long edy I join internet. Me also will always think abt u. 4 months 22 days huh. Its better if you forget this fickle minded person. But ur wrong. I never thought would like this bramachari life than anything. Lol.. I’m have hurt you so much. I m just decide to avoid cz wanted u 2 b happy. In previous its wasnt lie hope so u understand. I know what ru doing just doesn’t want to disturb ur peaceful n happy life again.

And the reason this sms won the 1st place is because of the just one word :- BRAMACHARI… loooooool…

Well it will year 2009 in exactly 12 hours and I guess a New Year calls for new dreams, hopes and resolutions. Well, all I can hope for this new year is that hopefully I wont cry as much as I did this year (2008) and if possible, I would like to experience more HAPPINESS.. With that, its adios to 2008, the roller coaster year in my life…

*Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009*

§-- VacaTioN??? I DouBt -- §

“This is the same road that he walks almost everyday”, her mind told her..

“Get a grip and stop hallucinating. You don’t wanna create a scene, much worse a breakdown right in front of your family. For heaven sake, please get a grip and start walking”, her senses told her.

But yet, why was it so difficult?

Forgetting him and moving on was already a herculean task, but now being in the place or should I say places he had been or even worst, still is, just makes it a lot more difficult. It is as if, god’s just pushed you down a memory trip you never wanna take.

As she stared from the window, she could see

The place he used to stay, his home in fact…

The roads he travelled everyday..

The shop he usually stops by to have a drink…

And even the police station that she was sure he had been…

All this just proved to be more than she could handle, and yet here she was, trying to put up a brave front, smiling and acting as if there was nothing wrong, as if everything was perfect, but in reality, it was far from perfect.

The thoughts killed her so much, that she couldn’t even bear to step out of the hotel. This was by far the last place she wanted to come, at least not in this generation I s’pose…

The next morning, instead of being in the sanctuary of her car, the family decided to walk. GREAT!!! Now she would be walking down the same road he uses everyday..

*sigh*

As they walked towards the stall that he visit occasionally, her hear beat was so loud that even a passerby could have heard. Half of her was praying and wishing she would never meet him. Another tiny lil’ part of her just wondered how would it be to come face to face with him after such a long time..

Fate played its part and she never came across him, but that didn’t stop her from being paranoid. They went to the mall, and even there, she kept on thinking, how often this mall was visited by him.

*arghhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Seriously, how could one person feel so tortured like this? If it was me, I would have long ago succumbed to the torture and checked myself into the nearest mental hospital.. But, she.. she was different. She just went out, crying inside but smiling outside..

Three days, three nights later…

It was time to go back home.

“Vacation” was over, and so was the “Journey down memory lane”…

As she sat in the car, she made up her mind, never ever to think or even say his name anymore.. If ever she did, than she would reprimand herself by pinching herself..

*chuckles*

Not an effective way to forget you Ex-Love, but someone has to start somewhere rite..

All the best, gal…

*ReSt In PeaCe*

?? - - OF REHAB AND SELF SEARCHIN’ - - ??

2 months gone just like that.. wowie… n here I was, dreaming and jubilating bout the three months ill have just for myself..

In just a glimps, im left with only one month for me, me and only me..

*pinchs myself*

Ouch.. ok that was like dreaming or should I say hoping for a miracle.. one whole month just for me?? Lol.. to get one week itself would be miracle, let alone a month..

Neway, to say that these two months have passed by fruitlessly will be extremely far fetched.. true, I haven’t blogged and that’s coz I haven’t had nething interesting or ramblings to do..

BUT, and this is a big BUT, a lot of soul searching was taking place.. for instance, I got checked in a self-created rehab centre for internet addicts.. lol.. and thankfully, actually its hopefully, I’ve finally kicked off the bad bad addiction..

The other realization point??? – No matter how hard you try, and I really mean very very hard, its onerous or should I say almost impossible to forget people who have hurt you in the most unexpected manner in the most painful place – HEART…

Wowie.. for a moment, I sounded so poetic.. lol..

*pats myself*

But yeah, that’s the down and dirty, no holds barred truth…

Sounds simple aite?? But hell no, it took a lot of energy to overcome the self denial state and actually move on.. 1 year 8 months to be exact.. lol..

Nevertheless, “kumbang bukan seekor” aite.. hehehe..

Not to forget my practical experience.. phew.. who ever thought working was this tiring not to mention boring.. *sighs*

Howeverrrrrrrr, today is the first day of my so called ONE WHOLE MONTH FOR ME DAY.. so far, I’ve watched tv, blogged, played trivia (yes, online – im under rehab not meditation), and now with a nice cup of milo, im off to date my loyal boyfriend, STORY BOOK.. adios peeps..

*the journey continues*

¤ SonG-O-ItIs ¤

Listening to the same song more than 10 times a day??? Driving your mum mad by humming and TRYING to sing the song over and over again??? While in the car, offing the radio and playing the same song over n over again using your hp??? Your phone's ringtone plays that SAME song??? Than, CONGRATS!!! You're diagonized with Song-O-ItiS!!! *giggles* I'm addicted to yet another song.. It has the same tune like rihanna's UNFAITHFUL, one of my favorite songs too... Thus, it's no suprise that this song has become the latest addition to my favourites.. But truly, its KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. im in love, in love with this song.. Hence, this is my choice of song for this month…. Here Goes...

Unakkena Naan

Movie :- Kathalil Vizhunden

unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil innikudhae udallena naan uyirenna nee iruppadhu pidikkudhae unadhuyiraai enadhuyirum ulavida thudikkudhae thani oru naan thani oru nee ninaikkavum valikkudhae idhayaththai idhu kaadhalaai idhu kaadhalaai idamaatrugiraai irukkumoru thunbaththai kudi aetrinaai pudhumaigaL thandhu maghizchchiyil ennai aazhththa parisugaL thaedi pidippaai kasandhidum seidhi vandhaal pagirndhida pakkam nee iruppaai noi yena konjam paduththaal thaai ena maari aNaippaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaynae aruginil vaa aruginil vaa iru vizhi valikkudhae unadhuyiril enadhuyirai ootrida thudikkudhae naanena nee nee ena naan iNaindhida pidikkudhae pudhu ulagam pudhu saragam valiththida thavikkudhae mazhaigaiyil kaatrOdu boogambam vandhaalumae unadhumadi naan thoongum veedagumae aruginil vandhu madiyinil saaindhu paduthaal melliya kuralil isaipaai maarbinil mugaththai pudhaiththaal koondhalai kOdhi koduppaai aruginil mayangi kidandhaal asaindhida kooda maruppaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen maRanamay bayandhidum dhooraththil naamum vaazhgindrOm manidha nilai thaandi pOgirOm ini nammakendrum pirivillaiyae ohohoohooho... pirivillaiyae enakkena edhuvum seidhaai unakkena enna naan seivaen? pongidum nenjin uNarvai sollavum vaarththai pOdhaadhae vizhigaLin oaram thuLirkkum oru thuLi neerae sollattum unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil inikkudhae udalenna naan uyirenna nee irupadhu pidikkudhae hey hey hey.

It’s the same beat with Rihanna’s Unfaithful…

“Unfaithful”

Album :- A girl Like Me

Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong really loves my company Hes more than a man and this is more than love the reason that this guy is blue the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair preparing for another day A kiss up on my cheek He's here reluctantly as if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A liar didn't have to tell Because we both know where I'm about to go and we know it very well cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer His trust I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer) No no no no Yeah yeah yeah

*melts*

*on cloud nine*

Hehehe..

*lalala tarum-pum-pum lalalal*