Ж-Ж CheRishEd JouRneY WitH fLaMe Ж-Ж

As she stood there, waiting anxiously, she just couldn’t believe what she has just done. Even more, what she was doing at the moment. Here she was, standing in a totally unknown place, waiting for that one person who she swore she would never ever meet in life. Talk about fate!!!

*sigh*

As the minutes crept by, her heart beat started increasing. It was too late to back out now and yet, she was in such a dilemma. How on earth did she get tangled into such a sticky situation? Come to think of it, it was her own big mouth n rash decision that had led to such a situation.

*slaps*

Get a grip and concentrate. It was almost an hour and yet, she was still waiting by the road. Where on earth was fLaMe? Why on earth didn’t he know the meaning of punctuality? Already standing in a totally alien place shocked the daylights out of her, but being alone was even more terrifying.

As she spoke on the phone to her best friend, freaking out and getting excited all at once, she saw a car pass by and stop in front of her. But being so engrossed in the call, she didn’t realize that the person actually came out of the car and stood right beside her.

Holy Sh#t!!! It was fLaMe!!!

*screamssssssssssss*

Hahaha.. It was actually the tiny voice in the brain that was screaming. He was here, by blood flesh, right in front of her.

She :- Hi. Can you park the car and we could just walk there?

He :- Get into the car la.

She :- Hmm.. Can I sit at the back?

He :- Just come n sit in front.

And there she went, sitting right next to him. However, the whole nervousness has seemed to vanish into the thin air. Despite not seeing each other for more than 2 years, it seemed so comfortable being beside him. That was the speciality of fLaMe. He always made her feel so comfortable and herself with him.

On the way to the “destination” , they did exchange a few words. Upon reaching there though, she whose sole intention was to visit his mum, backed out knowing that the entire household was there. I mean, how could she just walk in n face the whole family??? She had to be out of her mind to do so..

*giggles*

Well, cutting the long story short, after like about 20 minutes, they left the place. She thanked him and asked if he could drop her back. But he refused saying that he had something to do but he would come back at bout 10.45pm to see her.

She :- Huh, Why???

He :- Coz I wanna lepak with you la.

She :- Its ok la. You just send me back please.

He :- Ish, just listen to me. I’ll send you to KLCC. They wont close the place till 12 or 1 am. Ill come back by 10.45pm k.

She :- Oi, you want me to wait till 10.45pm alone ah? No need la. Just send me back please

But, somehow, about 25 minutes later, there she was, standing right in front of Kinokuniya in KLCC. As she found a corner to settle down and read a book, she thought of him and the effect he had on her. Somehow, without realizing, she smiled.

fLaMe, her fLaMe…How much she missed him although she just saw him like half an hour ago…

fLaMe.. The guy who belonged to her, or at least she thought belonged to her once upon a time and here they were now, behaving like two friends who had nothing but a sweet friendship all along. How weird and at the same time, how nice…

*sigh*

It was about 8.45pm when he called her.

He :- I’m in front of KLCC already. You come now.

She :- Aiks why so fast?

He :- I’ll send you to my cousin’s house. I don’t feel nice leaving you alone.

She :- Are your cousins with you in the car?

He :- Yeah I still have to go out with them but I’ll leave you in my cousin’s house first k. You can chill there

She :- NO NEED la… I don’t like to go to people’s house all. I rather sit here alone. Its ok you carry on. I’ll get a cab and go back

He :- Don’t talk nonsense. It’s not safe. Fine wait for me till 10.45pm than.

She :- Nevermind its ok. I’ll find my way back

And then they argued and argued…Both trying to convince the other. Finally, they came to an agreement. She would go n watch a movie and he would come and pick her up when it ended.

At 11.40pm :-

She :-Where are you? The movie ended already.

He :- I’m on my way. I’ll be there in 10 minutes.

She :- Hurry up la. I have never waited outside at this time. Scared la.

He :- Wait wait. I’ll be right there

At 12.05am :-

He came and gosh, how glad she felt. Finally, it was safe.. Hallelujahhhh!!!

She :- So, are you sending me back?

He :- Your friends are only coming back at 2am plus rite. I’ll send you back than

She :- So, where are you taking me now?

Thus, began the ride she would never forget in her life.

From one place to another, he drove n drove n drove. All along, she felt so comfortable n yet there were butterflies in her tummy. They talked, laughed, teased, argued and yet, it was all so euphoric.

He took her from one place to another. They stopped to grab a bite and it was so fun to watch him eat. Cute, in fact.

He showed her the place he used to hang out last time, the playground he use to sit n watch people and even the pub he use to chill in.

At some point, he held her hand. And holy shit, if that didn’t feel great but at the same time, she knew that if she didn’t stop it, she would end up falling even more for him than she already had and she didn’t want that to happen.

So, somehow, she managed to free her hand away only to find it once again, in his grasp. Well, since it felt so good and she knew this was only a once in a lifetime chance, she decided to just go along with it.

*chuckles*

However, good times always come to an end real fast, aite.. Same here. It was as if, those two memorable hours just flew by and it was time for him to leave her back.

As she left the car, she couldn’t help wishing that time had just frozen and she could spend the entire day, if not life with him. But again, wishes like that remained as wishes.

He made sure she reached back safe and sound, asking her to message him when he reached.

Seeing fLaMe so caring, only made her heart weep even more. Why would the guy she loved so much but who hurt her so badly seem to be such a lovable, caring sweetheart? Guess, only time can answer that. For now, it’s only those sweet memories that kept her going. If only she could control time….

*WheN ParT Of A DreaM ComEs TruE*

♠♠ The 2009 Calendar Quest ♠♠

“Mika, there’s a Johnny Depp calendar there. Wanna buy ah???

My response :- OBVIOUSLY!!!

Alas, the mere fact that I was not in Penang but in KL at that time and it was already 5pm which means = TRAFFIC and sooo, I have to get going, it meant a big evil “NO” to the calendar.

Thinking that I could still get it in Penang’s MPH, off I went, poor poor me *giggles* with high hopes only to see all those hopes dashed *sob sob* .

Guess, not only Johnny but even his calendars sells like hot cakes. It was out of stock. Despite trying to place an order with KL’s MPH, it was all in vain.

Would I give up?? Hellloo, we’re talking bout Johnny Depp here…

When it comes to Johnny, there’s no such thing as giving up.

Therefore, I set out to do my own calendar. What set out to be a simple calendar turned out to be quite wonderful at last. Even my brother, who at first scorned at the quality of my first attempt (gotta admit, it looked horrible) expressed his compliments when he saw this calendar.

After spending RM30 to refill my ink cartridge only to find out that refilled ink wouldn’t print out the image like I expected and than having to go on a search for any shops that would print color, I finally, FINALLY found one and forked out RM15 for it..

Finally, here I am, the proud owner of my darling Johnny’s home made calendar which cost me RM 45 ++ (the petrol, effort, etc) where else the one in MPH was only RM 36.90.. But the satisfying feeling- Now, that is priceless… lol…

Well, it’s a wonderful start to 2009… *winks*

Here’s a screen shot of my calendar from the month of January to December 2009..

*Aloha 2009*

♣♣ YEAR 2008 :- Short Messaging Services (SMS) Mania ♣♣

This time last year, I probably blogged the longest blog ever..

The REASON???

To put my past behind and start of a new year with hopes and dreams.. But did it work???

The answer is, not at all.. Not only was it not like what I expected, it was so bizarre that it was beyond what I had even dreamed off..

In a good way?? Lol, I wish…

2008 for me is by far the worst year in my life.. Nicknamed “Roller Coaster Year”, I have been at the top n bottom of life that many times until 2008 came along…

But once again, here I am at the waiting for the stroke of midnight, just a few hours before the clock strikes 12 and its New Year once again.

Have I changed?? Maybe…Being a 21 year old, requires a few things from me but on as whole, frankly I know that I,m still hanging on to the thin thread called PAST and refusing to move on..

Why im doing so?? Simply because my heart fails to agree with the brain..

*sigh*

Anyway, for this New Year, its only fair if I reminisce 2008 with the hope that 2009 will be a better year if not the best for me..

So, I’ve decided to read all the SMS (important ones that is) in year 2007 and choose the TOP 10..

Some are so memorable that I can even recall it without even looking at my hp..

*chuckles*

Here goes, from number 10 to 1…

NUMBER 10 :- SMS that kept me wondering wont people ever change…

This message made it to my LIES folder in my handphone and it is from fLaMe on 4/7/08 at 9.40pm..

lol. Hi childish baby don’t worry 4 life long u cannot open ur mouth cz u cant stand on ur own feet J u will stand on my feet while im holding u da. darling

NUMBER 9 :- Probably the best response for a trick I played on my cousin

Sent by Ruben on 20th December 2008 at 12.12pm…

Whateva… I mean ok I will love ya…

NUMBER 8 :- SMS that knocked the daylight out of me…

This comes from fLaMe again at 10.01pm on 4th July 2006 and it is another proud owner of the LIES label…

I eat edy, u darling? If you want this great person 2 feed u, np anytime ready if my athai give permission more better I can feed u n take care of u 4 life long da syg rather than just dream about you in sleep only. Give me reality. darling

NUMBER 7:- SMS that woke me up and yet made me laugh…

PCK sends me this 1.45am on 4th October 2008..

Oh phone is working… good..lol…

NUMBER 6 :- SMS that made me wanna slap the person…

The proud author of this message is Illusions and I received it at 9.44pm on 26th of December 2008.

Woi u take so serious I play play je I talk u take so serious

NUMBER 5 :- The most irritating message (the same message sent to me more than 10 times)

Again, this sms was sent by none other than Illusions for more than 10 times on different days at different times.

On 17th November 2008 at 12.01am

Wanna go clubbing?

On 13th December 2008 at 11.49pm

Wanna go clubbing?

NUMBER 4 :- SMS that I thought was true.. my bad.. Another sms for the LIES folder…

Illusions on 8th December 2008 at 1.27am.

Ok la mungkin I play play wit u kan im sorry hw…

Im sori wat happen last time k..

NUMBER 3 :- SMS or should I say SMSes that I have received from my best friend that despite it was funny or whatsoever, just showed that no matter what, she will always be there for me… This is just the tip of the iceberg... If I start listing all her sms’es, my entire blog wouldn’t be enough. J

At 3.10pm, 29th September 2008 :-

Sham wanna clarify something. Astro is very clear rite nw in my hse..Hw clear it is in ur hse? Any distortion? Lol..

At 2.41pm, 1st October 2008 :-

Shammmm u knw smthg ah? Ystdy my mum cuk mutton..2day she cuk ayam masam merah.so spicy n tasty lah. Den jz cme 2 my grandma hse. Here they cuk nasi briyani n ayam rending. Forcing me 2 eat lah. Anbu tholai lah. Hmm wat kirai u eat 2dy? Wakakaka… Ok ok I wana mkn.. Bye bye..

At 11.37pm, 28th December 2008 :-

Dey vidu vidu.. Dis bloody b*stards al no work 2 do.. Tats y messing up our life..Hmm 4 wat they did 2 sure they will kena teruk teruk in future…Dun worry la dey…

Number 2 :- SMS that made me realize some things and some people can never be changed

SMS by fLaMe at 9.28pm on 5th July 2008

k fine. They ask me y I don’t have gf or hate luv. I told them I don’t hate luv or gf. I already have someone special in my heart n its u.

NUMBER 1 :- The SMS that I can probably never forget in life..

The winner of the number 1 spot is none other than fLaMe for the message sent on 16th December 2008 at 12.56pm

I m sorry pa. its true I don’t send it cz so long edy I join internet. Me also will always think abt u. 4 months 22 days huh. Its better if you forget this fickle minded person. But ur wrong. I never thought would like this bramachari life than anything. Lol.. I’m have hurt you so much. I m just decide to avoid cz wanted u 2 b happy. In previous its wasnt lie hope so u understand. I know what ru doing just doesn’t want to disturb ur peaceful n happy life again.

And the reason this sms won the 1st place is because of the just one word :- BRAMACHARI… loooooool…

Well it will year 2009 in exactly 12 hours and I guess a New Year calls for new dreams, hopes and resolutions. Well, all I can hope for this new year is that hopefully I wont cry as much as I did this year (2008) and if possible, I would like to experience more HAPPINESS.. With that, its adios to 2008, the roller coaster year in my life…

*Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009*

§-- VacaTioN??? I DouBt -- §

“This is the same road that he walks almost everyday”, her mind told her..

“Get a grip and stop hallucinating. You don’t wanna create a scene, much worse a breakdown right in front of your family. For heaven sake, please get a grip and start walking”, her senses told her.

But yet, why was it so difficult?

Forgetting him and moving on was already a herculean task, but now being in the place or should I say places he had been or even worst, still is, just makes it a lot more difficult. It is as if, god’s just pushed you down a memory trip you never wanna take.

As she stared from the window, she could see

The place he used to stay, his home in fact…

The roads he travelled everyday..

The shop he usually stops by to have a drink…

And even the police station that she was sure he had been…

All this just proved to be more than she could handle, and yet here she was, trying to put up a brave front, smiling and acting as if there was nothing wrong, as if everything was perfect, but in reality, it was far from perfect.

The thoughts killed her so much, that she couldn’t even bear to step out of the hotel. This was by far the last place she wanted to come, at least not in this generation I s’pose…

The next morning, instead of being in the sanctuary of her car, the family decided to walk. GREAT!!! Now she would be walking down the same road he uses everyday..

*sigh*

As they walked towards the stall that he visit occasionally, her hear beat was so loud that even a passerby could have heard. Half of her was praying and wishing she would never meet him. Another tiny lil’ part of her just wondered how would it be to come face to face with him after such a long time..

Fate played its part and she never came across him, but that didn’t stop her from being paranoid. They went to the mall, and even there, she kept on thinking, how often this mall was visited by him.

*arghhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Seriously, how could one person feel so tortured like this? If it was me, I would have long ago succumbed to the torture and checked myself into the nearest mental hospital.. But, she.. she was different. She just went out, crying inside but smiling outside..

Three days, three nights later…

It was time to go back home.

“Vacation” was over, and so was the “Journey down memory lane”…

As she sat in the car, she made up her mind, never ever to think or even say his name anymore.. If ever she did, than she would reprimand herself by pinching herself..

*chuckles*

Not an effective way to forget you Ex-Love, but someone has to start somewhere rite..

All the best, gal…

*ReSt In PeaCe*

?? - - OF REHAB AND SELF SEARCHIN’ - - ??

2 months gone just like that.. wowie… n here I was, dreaming and jubilating bout the three months ill have just for myself..

In just a glimps, im left with only one month for me, me and only me..

*pinchs myself*

Ouch.. ok that was like dreaming or should I say hoping for a miracle.. one whole month just for me?? Lol.. to get one week itself would be miracle, let alone a month..

Neway, to say that these two months have passed by fruitlessly will be extremely far fetched.. true, I haven’t blogged and that’s coz I haven’t had nething interesting or ramblings to do..

BUT, and this is a big BUT, a lot of soul searching was taking place.. for instance, I got checked in a self-created rehab centre for internet addicts.. lol.. and thankfully, actually its hopefully, I’ve finally kicked off the bad bad addiction..

The other realization point??? – No matter how hard you try, and I really mean very very hard, its onerous or should I say almost impossible to forget people who have hurt you in the most unexpected manner in the most painful place – HEART…

Wowie.. for a moment, I sounded so poetic.. lol..

*pats myself*

But yeah, that’s the down and dirty, no holds barred truth…

Sounds simple aite?? But hell no, it took a lot of energy to overcome the self denial state and actually move on.. 1 year 8 months to be exact.. lol..

Nevertheless, “kumbang bukan seekor” aite.. hehehe..

Not to forget my practical experience.. phew.. who ever thought working was this tiring not to mention boring.. *sighs*

Howeverrrrrrrr, today is the first day of my so called ONE WHOLE MONTH FOR ME DAY.. so far, I’ve watched tv, blogged, played trivia (yes, online – im under rehab not meditation), and now with a nice cup of milo, im off to date my loyal boyfriend, STORY BOOK.. adios peeps..

*the journey continues*

¤ SonG-O-ItIs ¤

Listening to the same song more than 10 times a day??? Driving your mum mad by humming and TRYING to sing the song over and over again??? While in the car, offing the radio and playing the same song over n over again using your hp??? Your phone's ringtone plays that SAME song??? Than, CONGRATS!!! You're diagonized with Song-O-ItiS!!! *giggles* I'm addicted to yet another song.. It has the same tune like rihanna's UNFAITHFUL, one of my favorite songs too... Thus, it's no suprise that this song has become the latest addition to my favourites.. But truly, its KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. im in love, in love with this song.. Hence, this is my choice of song for this month…. Here Goes...

Unakkena Naan

Movie :- Kathalil Vizhunden

unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil innikudhae udallena naan uyirenna nee iruppadhu pidikkudhae unadhuyiraai enadhuyirum ulavida thudikkudhae thani oru naan thani oru nee ninaikkavum valikkudhae idhayaththai idhu kaadhalaai idhu kaadhalaai idamaatrugiraai irukkumoru thunbaththai kudi aetrinaai pudhumaigaL thandhu maghizchchiyil ennai aazhththa parisugaL thaedi pidippaai kasandhidum seidhi vandhaal pagirndhida pakkam nee iruppaai noi yena konjam paduththaal thaai ena maari aNaippaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaynae aruginil vaa aruginil vaa iru vizhi valikkudhae unadhuyiril enadhuyirai ootrida thudikkudhae naanena nee nee ena naan iNaindhida pidikkudhae pudhu ulagam pudhu saragam valiththida thavikkudhae mazhaigaiyil kaatrOdu boogambam vandhaalumae unadhumadi naan thoongum veedagumae aruginil vandhu madiyinil saaindhu paduthaal melliya kuralil isaipaai maarbinil mugaththai pudhaiththaal koondhalai kOdhi koduppaai aruginil mayangi kidandhaal asaindhida kooda maruppaai unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen maRanamay bayandhidum dhooraththil naamum vaazhgindrOm manidha nilai thaandi pOgirOm ini nammakendrum pirivillaiyae ohohoohooho... pirivillaiyae enakkena edhuvum seidhaai unakkena enna naan seivaen? pongidum nenjin uNarvai sollavum vaarththai pOdhaadhae vizhigaLin oaram thuLirkkum oru thuLi neerae sollattum unadhu kaadhalil vizhundhaen unakkena naan enakkena nee ninaikaiyil inikkudhae udalenna naan uyirenna nee irupadhu pidikkudhae hey hey hey.

It’s the same beat with Rihanna’s Unfaithful…

“Unfaithful”

Album :- A girl Like Me

Story of my life Searching for the right But it keeps avoiding me Sorrow in my soul cause it seems that wrong really loves my company Hes more than a man and this is more than love the reason that this guy is blue the clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again and to him I just can't be true and I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair preparing for another day A kiss up on my cheek He's here reluctantly as if I'm gonna be out late I say I won't be long Just hanging with the girls A liar didn't have to tell Because we both know where I'm about to go and we know it very well cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful and it kills him inside to know that I am happy with some other guy I can see him dying I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer His trust I might as well take a gun and put it to his head Get it over with I don't wanna do this Anymore (anymore) I don't wanna do this anymore I don't wanna be the reason why Everytime I walk out the door I see him die a little more inside I don't wanna hurt him anymore I don't wanna take away his life I don't wanna be... a murderer (a murderer) No no no no Yeah yeah yeah

*melts*

*on cloud nine*

Hehehe..

*lalala tarum-pum-pum lalalal*

--DeLeTinG SpRee--

Click the X…Click Yes.. n POOF!!! It”s GONE!!!

How easy to delete rite?

YES???

Well, NOOOO!!!!!!!

Adding a friend in your Friendster list is easy but deleting a bunch of them takes a whole lot of time and PATIENCE…

But someone’s gotta do it at some point aite..

Hence began my deleting spree…

After almost 3 hours plus, I finally filtered my friendster’s friend list from almost 700 to 189 people NOW…

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Its better to know who is in ur list rather than just add for the sake of it..

*pets my poor tired fingers*

O Baking Feat!!! O

I BAKED A CAKE!!!!

Yippieeeeeeeee…..

Really really I did bake a banana cake.. Well, it was not 100% my work but still, I did the most of it.. After pestering mum for like 2 whole days (she never liked me in the kitchen, thanks to my CULINERY SKILLS), she finally succumbed and took me to buy the ingredients..

I bought everything except for the bananas…What to do aite, I aint experienced… lol.. So, the plan had to be postponed to the next day..

After buying the bananas, I got down to work..

Almost 40 minutes of beating and mixing the flour, finally the cake was ready to be baked… Oh yeah, my mum helped to prepare the batter too..

*giggles*

It was all up to the oven and my darling cake.. 1 hour later, the product was :-

*Skips happily*

It looked reallyyyyyyyyyyy good…

And then I remembered :-

Sean Paul :- Cutieeeeeee I want chocolate cake…

When uncle asks, sure I’ll bake for him.. But I haven’t really learned chocolate cake yet.. So, for now, its banana cake first k, uncle..

Bon appetite!!!

*yum yum yum*

--Tagged by KhiruL--

Here I am, innocently reading blogs when I just realized that Khirul has a set of Q n A and the best part is, I’m tagged to answer it..(gracias Khi).. Just hope it’s the right tagged post :P

*giggles*

Anyway this is my version of the Answers… :P

If I could vote for the US Presidential Election (Nov 4th 2008)... Obama has my vote…Simply coz, he has the “presidential look”.. lol My favorite drink is.. Milo ais from the milo van… Ideally, my life after graduation.. Get on the earliest flight to Hollywood and search for Johnny Depp before tying the knot with him and ill live happily ever after like Cinderella….

But realistically.. I’ll be working my ass off, trying to earn money, climb up the career ladder and at the same time, continue my masters n doctorate..

The color of my.. hair is black + blonde +copper brown + reddish brown + light brown + a lil streaks of normal brown and white (sadly)

If I weren't in college.. I’d be off to india to find either Kamal/Maddy or Vishal to get married and settle down as an Indian Princess… *giggles**

When men reach their hands down to 'fix the parking'.. It sends a huge WARNING sign… -à Move 10 steps away from him… But when women fix their bras.. Someone’s gotta do it at some time.. Best do it before it creates even more revealing @ ignominy

I go to the gym.. when the moon turns blue.. The most disturbing movie I've seen is..

A list of horror movies… I can never watch a horror movie.. it gives me sleepless nights and headaches the next morning.. poor poor me :P With a dollar.. Ill but myself a packet of choki-choki.. yum yum

With 10 dollars.. I’ll reload my digi/maxis hp.. both lines are in desperate need of a top-up.. :P Girls open their mouths when they apply mascara because.. no idea.. never applied nor observed anyone wearing mascara YET…but maybe its because they wanna c how will they eye lashes look when they are kissing…

*You ask and I ShaLL aNsweR*

Predictable…Hmm… When???

Ever reached an end of a road that u never thought would have an end? Even worst, if the end was abrupt and came out of no where??? Lol.. Well, in that case, can you imagine how one might feel when reaching that specific stop? Confused? Devastated? Or just plain shock? I gotta say, it’s a mixture of all the three and even more…

“Life is unpredictable”. That’s one hackneyed cliché that no matter how many times or how often you use it, the meaning remains untainted.. But as unpredictable as it is, one question that boggle my mind is, at what point of life does the unpredictability turns to predictable??? In a better way, at what juncture can you start trusting someone?

I guess, even Hitler nor Bill Gates can answer that query.. What more a simpleton, still in the midst of her adolescence like me come up with an answer for that million dollar question…

However, being an adolescent doesn’t make me INCAPABLE or like many like to say, IMMATURED to discuss this question. Simply because, I have had my share of the cake when it came to TRUST…

Knowing a person for a year long before trusting him with your deepest secrets, dreams and going on step further with your life, only to see that person walk away, turning his back at you, dashing all those dreams and trust, would have surely taught me a lesson. Even I thought I would be more wary of who I mixed and specifically trusted.. But no no no, I just had to go on trusting people.

Call it a good character or my downfall, I just cant help but trust people. So much so, people tend to take me for granted. And at some point of life, when I finally decide to retaliate, they just cant take it. Talk about a fair world..

*sigh*

The list of people in this list just goes on and on… from fLaMe, to Big-B than iLLusIonS followed by SmartyPants.. it just keeps on growing. Nevertheless, the one thing that bewilders me is, how different each of them has betrayed my trust.. Each one in its own way, but each leaving an impact or should I say teaching me an experience that HOPEFULLY prepares me for the future..

*shrugs*

Out of all the various breaking up reasons, I think the one reason that tops the list of the MOST WEIRDEST REASON would be :-

“I got involved in a gang fight and accidentally stabbed someone. He is in a very critical state and im on the run. The cops are after me. I cant even talk on the phone coz they are tabbing my line”

For heaven sake, grow up! The cops in Malaysia have better things to do than get embroiled in a goose chase behind some petty criminal like u. Criminal you are, but not a murdered. Criminal coz u murdered people’s hearts but as far as I know, that doesn’t entitle you for a life long sentence now, does it fLaMe?

So the next time you wanna come up with a reason, use that coconut head of yours coz you end up making a fool out of yourself.

The worst part is, it’s been 1 and a half year since this SCENARIO took place, but I can never seem to erase it out of my mind. Talk bout superglue. I think my brain works way better than UHU when it comes to remembering stuff like this…

One would have thought I knew better than trust an XY again but nah, I just had to make a complete fool out of myself again. This time, in the form of Big-B. A whole new relationship (bro-sis ß make it online bro-sis) and to make matters worst, I had to get my best fren involved.. (no matter how many sorry’s or talk thrashing we do, I can never forgive myself for pulling her into this)

Big-B’s reasons for breaking up with my best buddy :-

To Nagma :- I have to concentrate on my career. I cant get married until I buy a BMW..

To Me :- Her character is very difficult la, aunty. She needs me to be there all the time. She loses temper and even scolded my office staff. Difficult la aunty.

To Sean Paul :- She asked me not to call or sms her again la bro.

Three various reasons to three different people, all just to explain one bloody mistake. Would class acting, aite. In case the tamil cinema runs out of story writers or even actors, they know who to ask now..

Almost three years knowing Big-B, not in my wildest dream did I imagine him succumbing to such cheap tricks. The trust and praises I had for him :-

“Dei, if there’s one person who knows the meaning of love, than it is tata la.. He is one of the people I trust the most”.

Hahahaha… How stupid of me…

Big-B, next time you decide to come up with a story to cover your acts, the least you can do is get it standardized. Only then will it take a little more time and effort to see right through your lies.

As for iLLusIOnS, that’s a whole different story for ya. Until I met iLLusIonS, never did I know that you have to flirt and cheat someone just to get them to help you. Weird ideology but according to him, it works.. What can I say, I was the guinea pig who tested out the hypothesis of that theory and in case any of you are eager to try it out, let me assure you that you can be guaranteed of a 90% success.. (the 10% depends on how well you can flirt and cloy your way around)

Lol.. The more I ponder bout this, the more worked up I get but trying to erase this whole thing from my hard disk in my brain seems like a Herculean task.

Bak kata pepatah, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih, I think at some point in life, I would have to forgive (ya right) this jerks and move on.. But for now,

let me have a gala time bitching and talk thrashing this people. After all, compared to the damages they have done, this is miniscule..

*giggles*

*Trusting Homosapiens remains a DreaM*