*The SCARLET Letter*

Dear SmartyPants,

The roller coaster ride has been great despite the ups and downs to it... It's a memory i guess i'll cherish forever.. But like all good things, this too has come to an end.. Blame to roller coaster or its operator, NOT ME!!!

Anyway, 3 years has passed so fast rite.. Like you said, "you didnt feel it passing by", but i sure did.. Maybe its due to the fact that i'm terrified of roller coasters... Anyway, all i wanna say is, thank you for finally showing me a direction to head to unlike the "hanging" in the mid air feeling you've been giving for the past 3 years....

What i learned?? Well, for starters, never trust a non-decisive fella like you.. Also, never put my life into the hands of a JERK!!! *chuckles*.. Nah, actually, its a lesson that once someone says DUNNO or NOT SURE, that means, RUNNN and i mean RUNN towards the opposite direction... Like a great guy once told me, always DECIDE else you'll end up being the stupid one.. Guess, it took me 3 years to learn that.. But hey, better late than never rite..

Nevertheless, the time with ya has been great.. Not always though, and i think you know that as well.. Though i wished we had "the talk" way earlier, than i wouldnt have wasted more than 1000 days but no probs... I wish you nothing but the best in life and hopefully, when you come upon another junction in your life, you'll know which road to take, and you'll be SURE about it...

Before i sign off, let me just say, thank you for everything... The chappathis and movies were definitely something memorable and worth telling my grandkids.. hahahaha.... But yeah, u're unforgettable, yes yes u r SmartyPants.. Though its sad to lose you, i guess, this ending is actually a beginning for both of us... All the best darlin...

Yours lovingly,

The So Called MORON

*History Repeats*

Once upon a time, in a faraway land, there lived a gal...

*sigh* Are you gonna start ranting and crapping again???

Hellllooo!! This is my blog after all.. i get to say whatever i want, ya know...

Fine fine... go ahead... So, whats so different bout this gal that she gets a post in your blog???

Well, this gal, lets just call her GirL, had a weakness.. she wore her heart on her sleeves..

WHAT??? You mean she's some kinda Frankenstein wannabe??? Eeeuuu that's gross...

Nooo.. Just hear me out, will ya...

Then, just get to the point instead of rambling...

So, like i said, she wears her heart on her sleeves.. Imagine how fragile that made her.. But did she learn??

Let me guess, NO??

Exactly... So, one fine day, there she was, strolling as usual when she met this man..

*whistles* another boy meets gal story???

haha.. NO!!! This man was way way older than her.. But he was such a sweetheart...

Gross, girl... Never liked old man-young gal romance.. I'm outta here...

Damm, wait.. I'm not done yet.. Who told ya its bout romance???

*sigh*... this betta be good, else im sooo gonna knock ya head...

Then, shuddup and just listen... So, she met this guy, more like stumbled upon and the first meeting was great.. Despite him pointing out to her that she was such a PIA, suprisingly she felt comfy with him.. And before you get any weird ideas up that crooked mind of urs, no, its not romance... the guy's married ya...

OH MY GOSH!!! She's gonna break up a family and u wanna write bout her??? Are you out of your mind???

Damm, just shuddup!!! Well, the thing was, she felt so comfy with this guy and it felt so much easier to share her thoughts, despite the fact that he was a total stranger....

Send her to me and ill teach her how dangerous is it to talk to strangers, let alone share details...

Gosh, u're getting on my nerves.... Just listen... So, here she was, getting to know this guy when all of a sudden, he left her...

Left?? whatcha mean???

I mean, he left her.. he STOPPED talking to her.. and she didint know why...

Might have been, he got sick of her... You said she was a PIA...

Well, yeah maybe... but im curious... i mean, all she did was leave for a few days and when she came back, he just stopped talking to her.. does that make any sense to u??

Your whole story doesnt make sense.. let alone this question...

hmm.. anyway, the thing is, she came to me and asked for advice, so here i am, asking you what to tell..

Just ask her, to forget this whole thing and go on with life..

Told her that.. But she says, she wants to know what's her mistake.. According to her, she didnt do anything to cause this whole communication meltdown..

Some things are best left unexplained... Just ask her to treasure the memory and go on..

Easier said than done, babez... she's a total wreck now.. she can't stop bawling her eyes out..

Crying? For some random guy she met???

Unfortunately, she really likes him...

aaha.... that explains...

no, not in a romantic manner.. but as a friend... well, i guess all good things come to an end rite.. poor gal.. i'll pass her the msg.. thanks babez..

yeah rite... u just wasted 15 minutes talking to the mirror... go n do something worthwhile, sham.. goooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*and it ends*

--- INFIDELITY ---

Hey darling, I've got something to tell ya...I've been doing something real bad behind your back.. I..I.. Hmm.. I had another fling..PROMISE!! It was nothing intentional.. It just Happened... You see, for the past few months, you've been really temperemental.. And its been testing my patience..But with him, its different...He may not be as attractive as you and i dont think im in love with him, YET.. But its just that he's such a breath of fresh air..

But, But im not leaving you baby...And with him, its not a one night stand either.. So ill just keep both of you k, for the TIME BEING... please baby, i hope you'll understand.. After all, he has the same name like you... *smiles*

You've been with me all this years..I'm sure you'll understand... This is not permanent, baby..I promise i'll be back, all for you k..Muaks i know you'll understand...

Oh btw, you can find him at :- http://chocafeinoholic.spaces.live.com/

muaks n huggies for now darling.. love ya my dear blog :)

*Goodbye for now, baby*

Mysterious Figure!!!

There was this piece of news/advert in The Star yesterday bout a mysterious figure found in KL... According to the witnesses, it was bout 12 feet tall and had many heads....

*That's the pic in the papers...*

*EUREKA!!!*

i think i have just discovered the real identity of that "mysterious figure" i think it is FLAME carrying two girls on his hips.. Well, it's a known fact that he is a Casanova to the core.. So, maybe he got sick of keeping all his conquest a secret and decided to shed light on it.. Thus, he strutted around the roads of KL, carrying his two girlfriends on his hips.. Makes sense rite... since the figure had two legs and many heads... FLAME's two legs and the girls' + his head = 3 heads... I guess it will look something like this...

*Chocafeinoholic's doodles*

Hehe.. that's the best art that i could do... but i guess it gives some kinda impression rite... So there you go.. Mystery's solved!!! The next time anyone sees this "figure", just ask them to go do it in private and stop strutting around like it's some kinda free show or something.. Helps save all the unnecessary energy and publicity... *giggles*

*Random Scribblings*

-- When LigHt TaKeS OveR DarkNeSS --

Dedicated to :- Madam, Darlin, Eve, YY & The Others.... :)

Adversity is Men's Best friend!!! Weird??? Well at a first glance, it does look pretty weird in fact looks like i'm totally out of my mind to say something like that but when experiences sets in, that's when the truth hits home as well and only then will one realize that Adversity is truly men's best friend. Simply because more often than not, it ends up creating a vicissitude...

The only questions is :- Is it for the good or the bad???

Well, 2 years back, i remember sitting on the floor, in my room, where darkness was my only companion, bawling my hearts out... To be truthful, it was neither once nor twice but actually countless times where i had such meltdowns..

And the REASON??? - *smiles*

Now, its more than 2 years and yes, i wouldn't deny that i still have such meltdowns. (old habits die hard) but this time, there's one different thing... I have learned to see the world, my world that is from a different vantage point.

Gone were the days where the incessant self regret clouded and clogged my cerebellum... These days, despite the occasional visits by Mr. Self Regret himself, i've learn that life is too short to dwell in the past...

Who ever said that vicissitudes were bad.. Well, coz for me,despite the freaking fact that my turbulence had blew me off course and caused me to land in a desert of no man nor help, i cant help but agree that that the turbulence had created a vicissitude with suprisingly positive implications...

Not only have i been blessed with certain accomplishments, but the one i'm most proud of is :- Knowing these few great people that i cant help but love and treasure.

People who have i got to know over the year and the same exact people who have played a significant role in making my life betta... People or should i say, FRIENDS that not only sit with me through boring classes and sonorous tutorials, but also friends who eat, laugh, work and joke together.. Most importantly, a set of friends who i'll treasure and a lifetime and who, if not for the freaking turbulence, i would have never come to know...

So there u go, thank u fLaMe... Thank you for the turbulence and a special thank you to my stupidity and the ever low self confidence coz if not for these adversities, i would have never met such terrific people...

So tell me people, isnt adversity men's best friend? For only after an adversity, can one learn to cherish life on a better scale....

*Cherished Foreva*

ReMinisCinG My FirSt ExPeRienCe Of SnoW....

I MISS THE SNOW!!!!

Well, i dunno if it's the heat in Malaysia or the lack of greenery around me, but i had this dream yesterday where i was actually playing in the snow... Sweet old memories...

Then i discovered i haven't posted any pictures or video bout snow.. Weird rite...

Anyway, i found the picture of my first experience of snow... both DAY n NITE on the same day...

Here goes....

That was the firsttttt time i ever saw snow... Lol.. I remember calling m family and showing them via webcam.. hehe.. And taking soooo many pictures to send to them especially to Arrwin...

*sigh*.. good old times...

It continued to snow for bout 3 days i think...

Seeing snow for the first time was such a fantastic experience.Something i wont forget till i die..

BUT, gotta admit, i was like such a JAKUN... hehehe.. well can't blame the gal k... I have always wanted to see snow since young so imagine one of my oldest dreams coming through.. hehe..

HOWEVER, though the view's nice, but the weather suck.. lol.. it's was soooo freaking cold that at times, i wished it would be SUNNY.. I even started walking under the sun, finding places where the sun shined brightly just to feel at least a lil warm... Such an opposite when I'm in Malaysia where i think majority of us will try to find shaded places to walk...

*giggles*

Anyway, that was the first video i took during the day n this one is during night time..

P/S :- I actually ran out to see n take this videos/pictures in my bedroom slippers n pyjamas.. So, it was evennnn colder... hehehe...

And the grand finale of my first day out in the snow is :- DA GIRL WITH HER FOOTPRINTS IN THE SNOW...

I just wanted to feel like u know Christopher Columbus who first discovered America n stepped on her land for the first time or even Neil Armstrong.. hehehehehehe....

Nah, it was just this weird desire that i had.. wanting to place my feet in snow.. There you go....

P/S :- It aint big foot's leg k.. it's MINE!!! n i cant help being a size 10... *grins*

Anyway, i really really miss the snow.. Walking in the snow with hot chocolate n whipping cream to classes would be one of the things i miss the most bout US...

*white white snow*

Facebook aka My Astrologer

Who ever knew Facebook would be sooooo accurate in predicting my future, specifically my soul mate???

Gotta say, Facebook deserves a standing ovation for being this veracious!!!

It all started late one night when boredom struck and I decided to surf facebook only to stumble upon this quiz :-

Which celebrity should you marry???

There were about 5-6 questions and upon answering them, the result that i got was :-

*takes a deep breathe*

TADAAAA!!!

JOHNNY DEPP!!!! My JOHNNY DEPP is the PERFECT CELEBRITY for me??? Yippieeeee!!!!

*jumps in joy*

Hehehe..

So its fated now.. My soulmate's Johnny Depp!!!

hahaha..

Muaks Muaks Facebook for making my day!!! 

*Floating On Cloud 9*

--- TAGGED - PiCTuRe MaNia ---

I'm TaGGeD!!! Ahhhhh... Where's the exit door???? *giggles* Hehe... Anyway, this is kinda fun.. Viji ka tagged me..Gracias Ka... So, all i'm supposed to do is read and answer the following questions.. Sounds easy aite??? hehe.. But nah.. the catch here is to answer with images and hope that those images can actually convey my thoughts...

So here goes....

My Answers... :-

1. My age on my next birthday...

I just turned 22 and now 23??? Ahhhhh...

2. A place that i'd like to travel...

Milan + Venice + Rome + Florence = ITALY...

3. My favourite place...

My room specifically MY BED...

4. My favourite food/drink...

Chocolate and a triple shot Latte makes my day :P

5. My favourite pet...

My darling babies, Hyper n Snowy...

6. My favourite color combination...

The perfect combo :- THAT purple, white and black...

7.My favourite piece of clothing...

Army prints and denim.. .

8.My all time favourite song...

The ultimate beat of my heart... :P

9.My favourite TV show...

Yeah yeah i'm a reality tv addict.. .

10. Full name of my significant other...

John Christopher "Johnny" Depp II... *giggles*

11. The town in which i live...

None other than the great Georgetown...

12.My screen name/nickname

Apparently, Mimi was the name i told everyone who attended my 1st birthday and so it kinda just stucked..However, for my brother and the other younger ones, its MiKa.. .

13. My First Job...

Remembering those times where i thought tuition for my juniors... ahh.. fond memories :P

14. My Dream Job...

Always always an actuary...

15. The bad habit that i have...

Oh yeah, i have a short temper... Especially when it comes to my brother.. hehe.. Sorry Arrwin :P

16. My worst fear...

Loneliness!!!

17. The one thing that i'll like to do before i die...

Just for a day, people :P

18. The first thing that i'll buy when i get $1,000,000...

I'll book a tombstone n grave right next to Johnny Depp... Hehehe..

19. My Favourite Credo in Life...

Cool yet inspiring :)

20. The Best Of Me (I think :P)...

Well, its a toss between these two... Since my eyes are constantly hidden behind my glasses and my hair aint naturally that straight nor is it in that color, i just dont know... LOL...

Finallyyyyy.... I'm DONE!!!

And it took me more than 3 hours to get it done....

*phewww*

But now i get to tag others...

Here goes :- I TAG Ash, Prema ka, Andrew and Khirul...

*A picture speaks a thousand words*

//-- The UgLy DuCkLinG --//

Once upon a time, in a faraway land, there lived a little girl who thought life was nothing but full of happiness. Never once did she imagined a sad life. Tears was a taboo and so was frowns. She was the perfect little girl, loved by her family to the core.

When it was time to go to school, the little girl was nothing less than happy. School was yet another place just like home. She had teachers who liked her, friends who wanted to be with her and best of all, studies was something she found easy and enjoyed. That said, her results were good if not the best.

Life was nothing short than perfect. From kindergarden to primary school she went. Again, this was just like her kindergarden. But something didn't seem right. Unlike in kindergarden, primary school was a little different. Each time she looked around, all the girls around her seemed so cute and tiny but she was just the opposite.

"It's all in the genes" said her mum... "You'll lose all the baby fat when you grow up" said her aunt... Little did she know that those were all lies, lies and nothing other than lies...

Apart from her physical attributes, life in primary school was fun. There was something to learn everyday, new friends to make and games to play with. As days passed, it was time for her first major examination. And that's when she learnt the meaning of expectations and stress. Being among the top always was like a drug. She didnt wanna let her parents down and neither did she wanna let that bubble of happiness that she had from her results burst. So she worked hard, and i mean really really hard.

Just like the saying, hard work never goes unnoticed, she passed the exam with straight A's and thus earned her entry to the school of her dreams. Now, this is where she faced reality. 6 years had passed and the baby-fat had become kid-fat n now it was teen-fat.

"Why am i so big and ugly compared to the rest? ", she asked her mum... This time, her mum had no ready answers...

Instead, she was told to exercise and cut down her food intake... Not being able to find clothes and her uncles n aunts pointing it out only seemed to make matters worst. But, no diet in the world nor exercise could make the ugly duckling pretty so she focused her energy on something that she could actually succeed - her studies...

It was back to the comfort zone that she knew - her studies... or like her brother and friends like to say= "Her NERD Life".. But that was peripheral.. It was something she was good at and unlike all those failed diets and exercise, she could actually excel in this.. So again, she started working hard... But this time, not as hard as last time...

There were other things in life and studies had to share the top spot in life with other activities... Major exams came and went and again, she scored straight A's in all of them.. And then came the turning point in life... She had to leave her nest..

Yes, it was time to say goodbye to the "home-school-tuition-home" routine and leave home for higher studies...

This is when the poor little girl had reality hit her right between her nose. She began to realise that though she was happy with her results and studies but there was this empty feeling in her.. Girls her age seemed to have fun. They went out with the opposite sex, had flowers n gifts showered upon them, their cell phones ringing non stop and phones buzzing with SMS's..

But the poor little girl could only watch all this.. Nobody noticed her... It was only during exams that people noticed her but other than that, she was alone.. Oh, dont get me wrong.. It's not like this girl had no friends.. SHE DID!!!

She had heaps of friends but that was what they were.. FRIENDS!!! Friends who talked and laughed with her but when it came to going out on dates, she was left behind...

But it didnt really bother her... She had her books to turn to.. THEY LOVED HER and SHE LOVED THEM!!!

So, once again, she went back to her books...

THE XY bearers did notice her occasionally.. Oh yeah the sure did.. But all with a hidden agenda.. All they wanted from her was that famous four letter word :- HELP!!!

It was either HELP with studies, HELP with life, HELP to listen to their problems, HELP to solve it.. HELP HELP HELP... nothing other than HELP... And once given, POOFFF!!! The disappeared...

Now, more than two decades have passed... She is still the same old UGLY DUCKLING!!! A lot larger and uglier than last time, but life's the same...

Everyone around her seems to move on to something betta in life.. Her best friend has found her other half... Almost all her friends have paved their own path in life.. She has a path too, but all she can see is her family, her books and a long journey of loneliness there... Is that what life holds for her???

She knows she has her books and her family to turn to.. But, what is there beyond that??? She doesnt need a XY partner, but why couldnt anyone see beyond this ponderous self??? Why do people who find it so easy to ask HELP from her find it so hard to not take her for granted???

Being gargantuan isnt a crime! Or, IS IT????

Her biggest fear :- LONELINESS seems to seep bit by bit into her daily life...

She is CLUELESS!!! She is DEJECTED!!! She is DEPRESSED!!!

Why does it always has to be like this??? Why cant anyone take the effort to look beyond that corpulent self of her??? Is it too much to ask for???

As she cried her eyes out, hoping and wishing for a solution, she realised, changing mankind's mindset to look beyond the outer layer was almose near to impossible but changing herself might work...

So she tried once again.. Going down the same path that she had tried again n again :- DIETS, EXERCISE and BEAUTY SALOONS.. But all in VAIN!!!

Maybe, she was destined to live a life alone... So, why waste time crying?? Just go n read a book.. So off went the little girl, wiping her never ending tears to bury her nose in yet another book....

After all, when the whole world seems to reject you for your outer looks, than the best way to excape would be to enter your comfort zone where you are certain failure will be given the BOOT!!!

But it it healthy??? *wonders*

*Hefty Roly-Poly*

How WeiRd CouLD It GeT???

Im JINXED!!! Someone's put a AbraCaDabRa-WeiRdo-ZZZ SpeLL On Me!!! Else why on earth would i have weird dreams sooo frequently?

Two More additions for Weird Dream Diary :-

Three Days back :-

My mum and I were in some dress shop in US. It didnt even look like US..We were trying out summer dresses...I wanted one particular dress which had this funky looking motifs on it when a group of chinese gals with their mum walked in and took the dress from me.. My mum on the other hand's trying out some black dress that has a totally see-through thin material on the back.. The weird part :- I have never seen the shop in my life and neither have i seen that three chinese gals and their mother before... Why on earth am i dreaming of people and places that i have never seen before??? *wonders*

Yesterday :-

I'm in a bookshop and there's this huge crowd of people..I walk towards it only to find late actor,Sivaji Ganesan standing there and handing out his autographs..I can even see his autograph..His signing his full name and it is a lil bit cursive with a line below the sign.. (don't know is that's his real signature or not) but when it comes to my turn, instead of his full name, he only signs as Sivaji and im dissapointed.. *giggles* I turn around to leave the place when i see another late actor, MGR also giving out his autographs.. This time, when it comes to my turn, he signs his full name and I'm like jumping with joy only to have my mum wake me up later.. Hmm.. i wonder who the next actor would be if only my mum hadn't woke me up.. hehehe..

I guess all these weird dreams are a result of my weird sleeping time.. But again, is it really due to that??? 

*Mystery movie sound playing in the background*

hehehehe...

*BaCk To SnooZyLaND*

DawDy OutFit + TripS To MaLL = Major MisFit

Mum :- Sham, please change your clothes and hurry up. Appa will be waiting..

Me :- No need to change la Mummy... Just to go n pick up also wanna change ah? Im only sitting outside the airport rite?

Mum :- Still, change la.. At least change your tshirt.. Don't wear sleeping tshirt all and follow me.. 

Me : Ish.. no need la.. Nobody's gonna see me.. 

Note to Myself :- Next time, listen when mummy asks to change... Stop being lazy and stubbotn, sham...

After dropping Arrwin in tuition, we went to pick up my dad who then, suggested we go and have dinner... 

*checks my clothes* <-- Still acceptable to eat in mamak shops... 

Dad :- Where you all wanna eat? Arrwin's tuition's finishing at what time???

Mum :- 10pm only.. Now still early...

Dad :- You wanna go back home and come back ah? No need la..Go to Queensbay..Can eat and kill time there...

Me :- Yeah la mummy, we'll go to Queensbay.. Long time since i when...

Mum :- But you're wearing like this??? That's why i told you to change rite...

And that's when reality struck me right on my face!!!

ALERT ALERT!!! Sleeping tshirt and shorts with slippers to Queensbay???? Ahhh SHAM, majot majot fashion alert....

Well, to be truthful, i dont really mind going out like that.. It's way more comfy but i wished i had worn at least a more presentable tshirt than the self-tiedyed-old tshirt i had on...

Seeing that it was my mum's bday and dad just came back from his lecture, both of them had nice clothes on..

So, it was Sham being the LONE RANGER in PLANET DRESS DAWDY!!!

In Queensbay Mall

Then came the BEST PART... We finished our dinner and we had to "tapau" food for Arrwin.. This means, it was down to me to carry the plastic bag..  

As if one pink plastic bag filled with styrefoam wasnt's enough, my dad had to buy pizza and there went my right hand, carrying that bag as well..

Poor poor me.. *pets myself*

Walking in Queensbay, beside my mum who was wearing some new clothes, looking so dressed down, hair also tak sikat, with plastic bags in both my hands... The fact that my mum was laughing didnt help either...

Even more humiliating was when it was time to go back and we had to take the escalator..

I CANNOT TAKE THE ESCALATOR!!!

I AM SUFFERING FROM ESCALATOR-O-PHOBIA!!!

Me :- Mummy, come this side la..The life is there...

Dad :- The escalator is here.. Where are you two going?

Mummy :- She wants to take the life...

Dad :- Shamini you have to learn to use the escalator. Don't act stupid...

Me :- *blushing like a red tomato* 

Well, all the scoldings in the world can never help me overcome my escalator-0-phobia.. So, it was back to the lift..

In the car

Dad :- She must learn la. Its all in the mind.. *bla bla bla*  And please ah, learn to way something more decent when you come out of the house..

OPPS!!! There goes my day.... *sigh*

*Fashion Police, ARREST ME!!!*

zz--WeiRd DreaMs--zz

Exams freak me out.. What more final exams but this time there was something even more weirder that even my Weird-O-Meter cant seem to scale.. I've had a string of weird dreams incessantly for the past 4 days just before my exams..

Dream 1 :-

Actor Surya was in my house.. hahaha.. n the best part was, we were like standing beside each other, his hands around my waist n vice versa.. he was clad in some olive green shirt with a ripped blue jeans.. And the best part was, we were standing in front of his dad, laughing... And somehow, the next scene was like I'm in my room searching for that autograph book and my camera to take a picture for my best fren n by the time i come out of the room, he's settled in my couch watching tv.. But, and this is a big but, by the time i was able to get a picture, my aunt woke me up.. *sob sob* And the weird part is, i'm not ever a Surya's fan... hmmmm...

Dream 2 :-

All i can remember is seing this VVIP of Malaysia being shot dead and lying on the bathroom floor.. There was like this huge pool of blood around his head and he was wearing a three piece suit.. And than there was his wife, and she was wearing this purple color baju kurung, sobbing.. Some guy was carrying an umbrella over her head and i dont think it was even raining.. Anyway the thing was, she was telling the press that she wants to remarry the VVIP's brother so that she wouldnt lose her post as a 1st Lady or sthing like that... And once again, i woke up... *sigh*

Dream 3 :-

I had a dream that my phone was ringing and it was an old friend's number.. The weird thing was that number was no longer in service... By the time i answered, the phone stopped ringing.. I wonder what would have been if i had actually answered the phone...

Dream 4 :-

This has gotta be the effect of doing Accounts i s'pose coz i dreamt i was on the phone with fLaMe n the funniest part was he was teaching me Accounts over the phone.. All i can remember was he asking me to put a certain amount and try to balance and I'm like arguing that the amount is wrong or something.. And then he tells me that i would have to pay him or something for his teaching.. Neway the details are kinda vague but that's pretty much one of the weirdest dream i had seing that i aint even in talking terms with fLaMe..

*smacks*

Thats why dad says :- eat less at night and mum's perception is :- stop dozing off in front the television..

But again, if my dreams are these "interesting", why change? Who knows, someday i might be able to produce a movie based on Dreams or in some far-fetched reality, write a book like JK Rowlings..

*giggles*

Aww, enough of DAY dreaming, gal..

Get back to DreamLand... Opps i mean SnoozyLand..... Adiozzzz....

*zzzzzzzzzzz*

bLoGGinG :- a CriMe???

He :- Hey, I wanna ask you a something... What did you tell B-True?

She :- What??? I never said anything.. Why???

He :- Then how does he know that we met? He's telling me in detail. Ish you ah...

She:- Hello hello wait... I never said anything to anyone.. Why on earth will i go and tell him.. The only thing i did was to blog about it..

He :- (2-3 minutes of non stop accusations)

She :- Wei, please think and c... What do i get by telling him? i dont even talk to him... Wait, i'll ask him...

He :- No need to ask anything all.. Ish.. Just go and delete your blog la.. Bye..

She :- Fine.. Im sorry... Bye...

*Sends B-True a sms*

Excuse me, How do you know that i met fLaMe? Did i tell you anything? Coz ur brother says that i told you and as far as i know, i dont even talk to you.. So, how do you know what happened???

*Within 5 minutes, B-True Calls*

B-True :- Hello, what sms did you send me ah? You think i have no work ah??? Wanna talk about fLaMe and u for what? Lo Please la.. I have better things to do.. *bla bla bla* (rambles on for about 1 minute)

She :- Wait wait... I never accused you of anything. Im just wondering how u know.. I never told u anything and yet your brother's accusing me of telling you everything... That's why i'm asking. Dont shout.. Just tell...

(5- 6 minutes of arguing)

She :- Fine... I just wanted to know how u knew but since you're saying that you didn't say anything, ok than.. Thanks a lot.. Bye...

(ends the call)

Conclusion :-

Either fLaMe Or B-True is lying but the best part is, the victim of the day is none other than :- HER!!!... lol this is what i call buta dot com kes.. *sigh*

*Gemini Chatz*

What on the world just happened? Looks like blogging about what i feel is such a big mistake!!!

Nah, gal! It aint wrong. It's just that SOME PEOPLE cannot take face the fire when THEIR TRUE COLOR comes to light...

But, what if it has got to do with me? I'm suppose to bottle up whatever i feel just to safe their face??? That's absurd. This is my blog, after all...

Well, I know and you know that.. But, do others know???

You know, i dont even reveal identitities.. For heaven's sake, i use pseudonyms dammit.. What's so wrong with that????

Oi, are you that blur??? Havent you heard of the proverb " siapa makan lada, dia terasa pedas"??? Apply babez apply all thos BM lessons u took...

Well, im speechless... All i did was to blog what i felt and now, im the one to be blamed... Could life get any worse???

Well, babez.. Life aint fair... Just chill and follow the flow k.. All's well will end well...

Really? So you mean to say that time would mend all and everything would be back to normal???

Nah, i was just kidding... Life's a total b#tch... And no, nothing returns to normal.. You just have to make the best out of every situation you land... *laughs sarcastically*

*blog... blogging... blogged....*

-- Last Year's TRICK--

The Beginning :-

SmS at 11.50pm, 31st March 2008

Im sorry to bother you but i need a favour. Are you free tomorrow? I need to go to the JPA's office in Putrajaya. I'll reach Pudu Bus Stop in the morning. Can you pls pick me up and send me there?

Within seconds, he calls her....

But, she declines the call...

He calls her again...

She declines...

She replies with a sms:- 11.58pm-ish...31st March 2008...

I'll call you in 5 minutes and explain the details k...

The Climax :-

Call at 12.03am-ish,1st Aprl 2008

She :- Hey flame...So, how? ur free?

He :- Yeah, im free.. What time do you need to be there?

She :- About 8am.. Can ah?

He :- Can... But, i need to send my brother about 7.30am.. So, ill sent u first to Putrajaya.. Than, ill go back n sent my brother before coming and picking you up again... Is that ok?

She :- Sure, no problem.. But you're sure its not a problem for you? Coz i don't wanna trouble you la pa..

He :- No la.. No problem..

She :- Thank you so much.. And one more thing, lol.. HAPPY APRIL FOOLS DAY!!! hahahaa.. i was just kidding.. i aint coming to KL all..

He :- Huh.. Wei.... aiyoooo...

*giggles*

So fast, a year has passed.. and once again, its 11.51pm,31st March 2009...

The only difference is, this time the joke is on her...

*smiles*

And, the best part is, he didnt need to wait for 1st of April to do so...

All he needed to do was to tell her the three letter phrase which she stupidly fell for...

So much for April Fools Day..

As of now, life as a whole had turned out to be a big joke for her....

*shrugs*

*Happy April Fools Day*

Ж-Ж CheRishEd JouRneY WitH fLaMe Ж-Ж

As she stood there, waiting anxiously, she just couldn’t believe what she has just done. Even more, what she was doing at the moment. Here she was, standing in a totally unknown place, waiting for that one person who she swore she would never ever meet in life. Talk about fate!!!

*sigh*

As the minutes crept by, her heart beat started increasing. It was too late to back out now and yet, she was in such a dilemma. How on earth did she get tangled into such a sticky situation? Come to think of it, it was her own big mouth n rash decision that had led to such a situation.

*slaps*

Get a grip and concentrate. It was almost an hour and yet, she was still waiting by the road. Where on earth was fLaMe? Why on earth didn’t he know the meaning of punctuality? Already standing in a totally alien place shocked the daylights out of her, but being alone was even more terrifying.

As she spoke on the phone to her best friend, freaking out and getting excited all at once, she saw a car pass by and stop in front of her. But being so engrossed in the call, she didn’t realize that the person actually came out of the car and stood right beside her.

Holy Sh#t!!! It was fLaMe!!!

*screamssssssssssss*

Hahaha.. It was actually the tiny voice in the brain that was screaming. He was here, by blood flesh, right in front of her.

She :- Hi. Can you park the car and we could just walk there?

He :- Get into the car la.

She :- Hmm.. Can I sit at the back?

He :- Just come n sit in front.

And there she went, sitting right next to him. However, the whole nervousness has seemed to vanish into the thin air. Despite not seeing each other for more than 2 years, it seemed so comfortable being beside him. That was the speciality of fLaMe. He always made her feel so comfortable and herself with him.

On the way to the “destination” , they did exchange a few words. Upon reaching there though, she whose sole intention was to visit his mum, backed out knowing that the entire household was there. I mean, how could she just walk in n face the whole family??? She had to be out of her mind to do so..

*giggles*

Well, cutting the long story short, after like about 20 minutes, they left the place. She thanked him and asked if he could drop her back. But he refused saying that he had something to do but he would come back at bout 10.45pm to see her.

She :- Huh, Why???

He :- Coz I wanna lepak with you la.

She :- Its ok la. You just send me back please.

He :- Ish, just listen to me. I’ll send you to KLCC. They wont close the place till 12 or 1 am. Ill come back by 10.45pm k.

She :- Oi, you want me to wait till 10.45pm alone ah? No need la. Just send me back please

But, somehow, about 25 minutes later, there she was, standing right in front of Kinokuniya in KLCC. As she found a corner to settle down and read a book, she thought of him and the effect he had on her. Somehow, without realizing, she smiled.

fLaMe, her fLaMe…How much she missed him although she just saw him like half an hour ago…

fLaMe.. The guy who belonged to her, or at least she thought belonged to her once upon a time and here they were now, behaving like two friends who had nothing but a sweet friendship all along. How weird and at the same time, how nice…

*sigh*

It was about 8.45pm when he called her.

He :- I’m in front of KLCC already. You come now.

She :- Aiks why so fast?

He :- I’ll send you to my cousin’s house. I don’t feel nice leaving you alone.

She :- Are your cousins with you in the car?

He :- Yeah I still have to go out with them but I’ll leave you in my cousin’s house first k. You can chill there

She :- NO NEED la… I don’t like to go to people’s house all. I rather sit here alone. Its ok you carry on. I’ll get a cab and go back

He :- Don’t talk nonsense. It’s not safe. Fine wait for me till 10.45pm than.

She :- Nevermind its ok. I’ll find my way back

And then they argued and argued…Both trying to convince the other. Finally, they came to an agreement. She would go n watch a movie and he would come and pick her up when it ended.

At 11.40pm :-

She :-Where are you? The movie ended already.

He :- I’m on my way. I’ll be there in 10 minutes.

She :- Hurry up la. I have never waited outside at this time. Scared la.

He :- Wait wait. I’ll be right there

At 12.05am :-

He came and gosh, how glad she felt. Finally, it was safe.. Hallelujahhhh!!!

She :- So, are you sending me back?

He :- Your friends are only coming back at 2am plus rite. I’ll send you back than

She :- So, where are you taking me now?

Thus, began the ride she would never forget in her life.

From one place to another, he drove n drove n drove. All along, she felt so comfortable n yet there were butterflies in her tummy. They talked, laughed, teased, argued and yet, it was all so euphoric.

He took her from one place to another. They stopped to grab a bite and it was so fun to watch him eat. Cute, in fact.

He showed her the place he used to hang out last time, the playground he use to sit n watch people and even the pub he use to chill in.

At some point, he held her hand. And holy shit, if that didn’t feel great but at the same time, she knew that if she didn’t stop it, she would end up falling even more for him than she already had and she didn’t want that to happen.

So, somehow, she managed to free her hand away only to find it once again, in his grasp. Well, since it felt so good and she knew this was only a once in a lifetime chance, she decided to just go along with it.

*chuckles*

However, good times always come to an end real fast, aite.. Same here. It was as if, those two memorable hours just flew by and it was time for him to leave her back.

As she left the car, she couldn’t help wishing that time had just frozen and she could spend the entire day, if not life with him. But again, wishes like that remained as wishes.

He made sure she reached back safe and sound, asking her to message him when he reached.

Seeing fLaMe so caring, only made her heart weep even more. Why would the guy she loved so much but who hurt her so badly seem to be such a lovable, caring sweetheart? Guess, only time can answer that. For now, it’s only those sweet memories that kept her going. If only she could control time….

*WheN ParT Of A DreaM ComEs TruE*