♣♣ YEAR 2008 :- Short Messaging Services (SMS) Mania ♣♣

This time last year, I probably blogged the longest blog ever..

The REASON???

To put my past behind and start of a new year with hopes and dreams.. But did it work???

The answer is, not at all.. Not only was it not like what I expected, it was so bizarre that it was beyond what I had even dreamed off..

In a good way?? Lol, I wish…

2008 for me is by far the worst year in my life.. Nicknamed “Roller Coaster Year”, I have been at the top n bottom of life that many times until 2008 came along…

But once again, here I am at the waiting for the stroke of midnight, just a few hours before the clock strikes 12 and its New Year once again.

Have I changed?? Maybe…Being a 21 year old, requires a few things from me but on as whole, frankly I know that I,m still hanging on to the thin thread called PAST and refusing to move on..

Why im doing so?? Simply because my heart fails to agree with the brain..

*sigh*

Anyway, for this New Year, its only fair if I reminisce 2008 with the hope that 2009 will be a better year if not the best for me..

So, I’ve decided to read all the SMS (important ones that is) in year 2007 and choose the TOP 10..

Some are so memorable that I can even recall it without even looking at my hp..

*chuckles*

Here goes, from number 10 to 1…

NUMBER 10 :- SMS that kept me wondering wont people ever change…

This message made it to my LIES folder in my handphone and it is from fLaMe on 4/7/08 at 9.40pm..

lol. Hi childish baby don’t worry 4 life long u cannot open ur mouth cz u cant stand on ur own feet J u will stand on my feet while im holding u da. darling

NUMBER 9 :- Probably the best response for a trick I played on my cousin

Sent by Ruben on 20th December 2008 at 12.12pm…

Whateva… I mean ok I will love ya…

NUMBER 8 :- SMS that knocked the daylight out of me…

This comes from fLaMe again at 10.01pm on 4th July 2006 and it is another proud owner of the LIES label…

I eat edy, u darling? If you want this great person 2 feed u, np anytime ready if my athai give permission more better I can feed u n take care of u 4 life long da syg rather than just dream about you in sleep only. Give me reality. darling

NUMBER 7:- SMS that woke me up and yet made me laugh…

PCK sends me this 1.45am on 4th October 2008..

Oh phone is working… good..lol…

NUMBER 6 :- SMS that made me wanna slap the person…

The proud author of this message is Illusions and I received it at 9.44pm on 26th of December 2008.

Woi u take so serious I play play je I talk u take so serious

NUMBER 5 :- The most irritating message (the same message sent to me more than 10 times)

Again, this sms was sent by none other than Illusions for more than 10 times on different days at different times.

On 17th November 2008 at 12.01am

Wanna go clubbing?

On 13th December 2008 at 11.49pm

Wanna go clubbing?

NUMBER 4 :- SMS that I thought was true.. my bad.. Another sms for the LIES folder…

Illusions on 8th December 2008 at 1.27am.

Ok la mungkin I play play wit u kan im sorry hw…

Im sori wat happen last time k..

NUMBER 3 :- SMS or should I say SMSes that I have received from my best friend that despite it was funny or whatsoever, just showed that no matter what, she will always be there for me… This is just the tip of the iceberg... If I start listing all her sms’es, my entire blog wouldn’t be enough. J

At 3.10pm, 29th September 2008 :-

Sham wanna clarify something. Astro is very clear rite nw in my hse..Hw clear it is in ur hse? Any distortion? Lol..

At 2.41pm, 1st October 2008 :-

Shammmm u knw smthg ah? Ystdy my mum cuk mutton..2day she cuk ayam masam merah.so spicy n tasty lah. Den jz cme 2 my grandma hse. Here they cuk nasi briyani n ayam rending. Forcing me 2 eat lah. Anbu tholai lah. Hmm wat kirai u eat 2dy? Wakakaka… Ok ok I wana mkn.. Bye bye..

At 11.37pm, 28th December 2008 :-

Dey vidu vidu.. Dis bloody b*stards al no work 2 do.. Tats y messing up our life..Hmm 4 wat they did 2 sure they will kena teruk teruk in future…Dun worry la dey…

Number 2 :- SMS that made me realize some things and some people can never be changed

SMS by fLaMe at 9.28pm on 5th July 2008

k fine. They ask me y I don’t have gf or hate luv. I told them I don’t hate luv or gf. I already have someone special in my heart n its u.

NUMBER 1 :- The SMS that I can probably never forget in life..

The winner of the number 1 spot is none other than fLaMe for the message sent on 16th December 2008 at 12.56pm

I m sorry pa. its true I don’t send it cz so long edy I join internet. Me also will always think abt u. 4 months 22 days huh. Its better if you forget this fickle minded person. But ur wrong. I never thought would like this bramachari life than anything. Lol.. I’m have hurt you so much. I m just decide to avoid cz wanted u 2 b happy. In previous its wasnt lie hope so u understand. I know what ru doing just doesn’t want to disturb ur peaceful n happy life again.

And the reason this sms won the 1st place is because of the just one word :- BRAMACHARI… loooooool…

Well it will year 2009 in exactly 12 hours and I guess a New Year calls for new dreams, hopes and resolutions. Well, all I can hope for this new year is that hopefully I wont cry as much as I did this year (2008) and if possible, I would like to experience more HAPPINESS.. With that, its adios to 2008, the roller coaster year in my life…

*Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009*

§-- VacaTioN??? I DouBt -- §

“This is the same road that he walks almost everyday”, her mind told her..

“Get a grip and stop hallucinating. You don’t wanna create a scene, much worse a breakdown right in front of your family. For heaven sake, please get a grip and start walking”, her senses told her.

But yet, why was it so difficult?

Forgetting him and moving on was already a herculean task, but now being in the place or should I say places he had been or even worst, still is, just makes it a lot more difficult. It is as if, god’s just pushed you down a memory trip you never wanna take.

As she stared from the window, she could see

The place he used to stay, his home in fact…

The roads he travelled everyday..

The shop he usually stops by to have a drink…

And even the police station that she was sure he had been…

All this just proved to be more than she could handle, and yet here she was, trying to put up a brave front, smiling and acting as if there was nothing wrong, as if everything was perfect, but in reality, it was far from perfect.

The thoughts killed her so much, that she couldn’t even bear to step out of the hotel. This was by far the last place she wanted to come, at least not in this generation I s’pose…

The next morning, instead of being in the sanctuary of her car, the family decided to walk. GREAT!!! Now she would be walking down the same road he uses everyday..

*sigh*

As they walked towards the stall that he visit occasionally, her hear beat was so loud that even a passerby could have heard. Half of her was praying and wishing she would never meet him. Another tiny lil’ part of her just wondered how would it be to come face to face with him after such a long time..

Fate played its part and she never came across him, but that didn’t stop her from being paranoid. They went to the mall, and even there, she kept on thinking, how often this mall was visited by him.

*arghhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Seriously, how could one person feel so tortured like this? If it was me, I would have long ago succumbed to the torture and checked myself into the nearest mental hospital.. But, she.. she was different. She just went out, crying inside but smiling outside..

Three days, three nights later…

It was time to go back home.

“Vacation” was over, and so was the “Journey down memory lane”…

As she sat in the car, she made up her mind, never ever to think or even say his name anymore.. If ever she did, than she would reprimand herself by pinching herself..

*chuckles*

Not an effective way to forget you Ex-Love, but someone has to start somewhere rite..

All the best, gal…

*ReSt In PeaCe*

?? - - OF REHAB AND SELF SEARCHIN’ - - ??

2 months gone just like that.. wowie… n here I was, dreaming and jubilating bout the three months ill have just for myself..

In just a glimps, im left with only one month for me, me and only me..

*pinchs myself*

Ouch.. ok that was like dreaming or should I say hoping for a miracle.. one whole month just for me?? Lol.. to get one week itself would be miracle, let alone a month..

Neway, to say that these two months have passed by fruitlessly will be extremely far fetched.. true, I haven’t blogged and that’s coz I haven’t had nething interesting or ramblings to do..

BUT, and this is a big BUT, a lot of soul searching was taking place.. for instance, I got checked in a self-created rehab centre for internet addicts.. lol.. and thankfully, actually its hopefully, I’ve finally kicked off the bad bad addiction..

The other realization point??? – No matter how hard you try, and I really mean very very hard, its onerous or should I say almost impossible to forget people who have hurt you in the most unexpected manner in the most painful place – HEART…

Wowie.. for a moment, I sounded so poetic.. lol..

*pats myself*

But yeah, that’s the down and dirty, no holds barred truth…

Sounds simple aite?? But hell no, it took a lot of energy to overcome the self denial state and actually move on.. 1 year 8 months to be exact.. lol..

Nevertheless, “kumbang bukan seekor” aite.. hehehe..

Not to forget my practical experience.. phew.. who ever thought working was this tiring not to mention boring.. *sighs*

Howeverrrrrrrr, today is the first day of my so called ONE WHOLE MONTH FOR ME DAY.. so far, I’ve watched tv, blogged, played trivia (yes, online – im under rehab not meditation), and now with a nice cup of milo, im off to date my loyal boyfriend, STORY BOOK.. adios peeps..

*the journey continues*