Predictable…Hmm… When???

Ever reached an end of a road that u never thought would have an end? Even worst, if the end was abrupt and came out of no where??? Lol.. Well, in that case, can you imagine how one might feel when reaching that specific stop? Confused? Devastated? Or just plain shock? I gotta say, it’s a mixture of all the three and even more…

“Life is unpredictable”. That’s one hackneyed cliché that no matter how many times or how often you use it, the meaning remains untainted.. But as unpredictable as it is, one question that boggle my mind is, at what point of life does the unpredictability turns to predictable??? In a better way, at what juncture can you start trusting someone?

I guess, even Hitler nor Bill Gates can answer that query.. What more a simpleton, still in the midst of her adolescence like me come up with an answer for that million dollar question…

However, being an adolescent doesn’t make me INCAPABLE or like many like to say, IMMATURED to discuss this question. Simply because, I have had my share of the cake when it came to TRUST…

Knowing a person for a year long before trusting him with your deepest secrets, dreams and going on step further with your life, only to see that person walk away, turning his back at you, dashing all those dreams and trust, would have surely taught me a lesson. Even I thought I would be more wary of who I mixed and specifically trusted.. But no no no, I just had to go on trusting people.

Call it a good character or my downfall, I just cant help but trust people. So much so, people tend to take me for granted. And at some point of life, when I finally decide to retaliate, they just cant take it. Talk about a fair world..

*sigh*

The list of people in this list just goes on and on… from fLaMe, to Big-B than iLLusIonS followed by SmartyPants.. it just keeps on growing. Nevertheless, the one thing that bewilders me is, how different each of them has betrayed my trust.. Each one in its own way, but each leaving an impact or should I say teaching me an experience that HOPEFULLY prepares me for the future..

*shrugs*

Out of all the various breaking up reasons, I think the one reason that tops the list of the MOST WEIRDEST REASON would be :-

“I got involved in a gang fight and accidentally stabbed someone. He is in a very critical state and im on the run. The cops are after me. I cant even talk on the phone coz they are tabbing my line”

For heaven sake, grow up! The cops in Malaysia have better things to do than get embroiled in a goose chase behind some petty criminal like u. Criminal you are, but not a murdered. Criminal coz u murdered people’s hearts but as far as I know, that doesn’t entitle you for a life long sentence now, does it fLaMe?

So the next time you wanna come up with a reason, use that coconut head of yours coz you end up making a fool out of yourself.

The worst part is, it’s been 1 and a half year since this SCENARIO took place, but I can never seem to erase it out of my mind. Talk bout superglue. I think my brain works way better than UHU when it comes to remembering stuff like this…

One would have thought I knew better than trust an XY again but nah, I just had to make a complete fool out of myself again. This time, in the form of Big-B. A whole new relationship (bro-sis ß make it online bro-sis) and to make matters worst, I had to get my best fren involved.. (no matter how many sorry’s or talk thrashing we do, I can never forgive myself for pulling her into this)

Big-B’s reasons for breaking up with my best buddy :-

To Nagma :- I have to concentrate on my career. I cant get married until I buy a BMW..

To Me :- Her character is very difficult la, aunty. She needs me to be there all the time. She loses temper and even scolded my office staff. Difficult la aunty.

To Sean Paul :- She asked me not to call or sms her again la bro.

Three various reasons to three different people, all just to explain one bloody mistake. Would class acting, aite. In case the tamil cinema runs out of story writers or even actors, they know who to ask now..

Almost three years knowing Big-B, not in my wildest dream did I imagine him succumbing to such cheap tricks. The trust and praises I had for him :-

“Dei, if there’s one person who knows the meaning of love, than it is tata la.. He is one of the people I trust the most”.

Hahahaha… How stupid of me…

Big-B, next time you decide to come up with a story to cover your acts, the least you can do is get it standardized. Only then will it take a little more time and effort to see right through your lies.

As for iLLusIOnS, that’s a whole different story for ya. Until I met iLLusIonS, never did I know that you have to flirt and cheat someone just to get them to help you. Weird ideology but according to him, it works.. What can I say, I was the guinea pig who tested out the hypothesis of that theory and in case any of you are eager to try it out, let me assure you that you can be guaranteed of a 90% success.. (the 10% depends on how well you can flirt and cloy your way around)

Lol.. The more I ponder bout this, the more worked up I get but trying to erase this whole thing from my hard disk in my brain seems like a Herculean task.

Bak kata pepatah, buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih, I think at some point in life, I would have to forgive (ya right) this jerks and move on.. But for now,

let me have a gala time bitching and talk thrashing this people. After all, compared to the damages they have done, this is miniscule..

*giggles*

*Trusting Homosapiens remains a DreaM*