Wednesday, June 03, 2009

//-- The UgLy DuCkLinG --//
Once upon a time, in a faraway land, there lived a little girl who thought life was nothing but full of happiness. Never once did she imagined a sad life. Tears was a taboo and so was frowns. She was the perfect little girl, loved by her family to the core.
When it was time to go to school, the little girl was nothing less than happy. School was yet another place just like home. She had teachers who liked her, friends who wanted to be with her and best of all, studies was something she found easy and enjoyed. That said, her results were good if not the best.
Life was nothing short than perfect. From kindergarden to primary school she went. Again, this was just like her kindergarden. But something didn't seem right. Unlike in kindergarden, primary school was a little different. Each time she looked around, all the girls around her seemed so cute and tiny but she was just the opposite.
"It's all in the genes" said her mum... "You'll lose all the baby fat when you grow up" said her aunt... Little did she know that those were all lies, lies and nothing other than lies...
Apart from her physical attributes, life in primary school was fun. There was something to learn everyday, new friends to make and games to play with. As days passed, it was time for her first major examination. And that's when she learnt the meaning of expectations and stress. Being among the top always was like a drug. She didnt wanna let her parents down and neither did she wanna let that bubble of happiness that she had from her results burst. So she worked hard, and i mean really really hard.
Just like the saying, hard work never goes unnoticed, she passed the exam with straight A's and thus earned her entry to the school of her dreams. Now, this is where she faced reality. 6 years had passed and the baby-fat had become kid-fat n now it was teen-fat.
"Why am i so big and ugly compared to the rest? ", she asked her mum... This time, her mum had no ready answers...
Instead, she was told to exercise and cut down her food intake... Not being able to find clothes and her uncles n aunts pointing it out only seemed to make matters worst. But, no diet in the world nor exercise could make the ugly duckling pretty so she focused her energy on something that she could actually succeed - her studies...
It was back to the comfort zone that she knew - her studies... or like her brother and friends like to say= "Her NERD Life".. But that was peripheral.. It was something she was good at and unlike all those failed diets and exercise, she could actually excel in this.. So again, she started working hard... But this time, not as hard as last time...
There were other things in life and studies had to share the top spot in life with other activities... Major exams came and went and again, she scored straight A's in all of them.. And then came the turning point in life... She had to leave her nest..
Yes, it was time to say goodbye to the "home-school-tuition-home" routine and leave home for higher studies...
This is when the poor little girl had reality hit her right between her nose. She began to realise that though she was happy with her results and studies but there was this empty feeling in her.. Girls her age seemed to have fun. They went out with the opposite sex, had flowers n gifts showered upon them, their cell phones ringing non stop and phones buzzing with SMS's..
But the poor little girl could only watch all this.. Nobody noticed her... It was only during exams that people noticed her but other than that, she was alone.. Oh, dont get me wrong.. It's not like this girl had no friends.. SHE DID!!!
She had heaps of friends but that was what they were.. FRIENDS!!! Friends who talked and laughed with her but when it came to going out on dates, she was left behind...
But it didnt really bother her... She had her books to turn to.. THEY LOVED HER and SHE LOVED THEM!!!
So, once again, she went back to her books...
THE XY bearers did notice her occasionally.. Oh yeah the sure did.. But all with a hidden agenda.. All they wanted from her was that famous four letter word :- HELP!!!
It was either HELP with studies, HELP with life, HELP to listen to their problems, HELP to solve it.. HELP HELP HELP... nothing other than HELP... And once given, POOFFF!!! The disappeared...
Now, more than two decades have passed... She is still the same old UGLY DUCKLING!!! A lot larger and uglier than last time, but life's the same...
Everyone around her seems to move on to something betta in life.. Her best friend has found her other half... Almost all her friends have paved their own path in life.. She has a path too, but all she can see is her family, her books and a long journey of loneliness there... Is that what life holds for her???
She knows she has her books and her family to turn to.. But, what is there beyond that??? She doesnt need a XY partner, but why couldnt anyone see beyond this ponderous self??? Why do people who find it so easy to ask HELP from her find it so hard to not take her for granted???
Being gargantuan isnt a crime! Or, IS IT????
Her biggest fear :- LONELINESS seems to seep bit by bit into her daily life...
She is CLUELESS!!! She is DEJECTED!!! She is DEPRESSED!!!
Why does it always has to be like this??? Why cant anyone take the effort to look beyond that corpulent self of her??? Is it too much to ask for???
As she cried her eyes out, hoping and wishing for a solution, she realised, changing mankind's mindset to look beyond the outer layer was almose near to impossible but changing herself might work...
So she tried once again.. Going down the same path that she had tried again n again :- DIETS, EXERCISE and BEAUTY SALOONS.. But all in VAIN!!!
Maybe, she was destined to live a life alone... So, why waste time crying?? Just go n read a book.. So off went the little girl, wiping her never ending tears to bury her nose in yet another book....
After all, when the whole world seems to reject you for your outer looks, than the best way to excape would be to enter your comfort zone where you are certain failure will be given the BOOT!!!
But it it healthy??? *wonders*
*Hefty Roly-Poly*

1 comments:

VG said...

is dis real story?? something touching.. The kid has a good future. She know what is a talent. It is normal to have people who give importance to outer beauty than inner. A kid like in the story just need to move on, someday she will find the right person cuz everyone is blessed by god when they born.